Things You Are Not Stoked On

[Bobby Peru]

I have schizophrenia.  I have spent four years of my life in hospitals.  I had straight A's in the honors program at a college.  My episodes kept taking me out of school and jobs to where I could never advance.  I ended up homeless after my parents divorced last year.  I had to fight to survive in homeless shelters and literally walking miles to and from a shitty job just to rent a room in the literal ghetto.  I met the love of my life when she moved in across the street, she changed my view on everything.  Disability keeps screwing me around, I don't think I"ll get it.  I have a job now but it's not enough to satisfy her.  I was never able to get my degree because of my illness or move up in jobs because I kept going to the hospital, even though I proved in school that I can do anything before it all happened.

My dad may let me move to Missouri with him.  I never got to have a relationship with a girl I truly loved that I wanted to be with because of the illness either.  It took away the last one when she couldn't wait on me in a hospital after I was with her three years.  I'm realizing that I won't be able to make enough money to do what needs to be done.  I completely kill myself but it does not matter I'm starting to see.  I don't want to run away, but if I can't do any more then I may have to leave the best thing that ever happened to me probably to be completely alone with an alcoholic father.  I contemplated suicide last night, and if I would have had the things to do it with I would have done it.  I still might.  Knowing that you will never be able to get ahead in life because you can have another schizophrenic episode and the only means of support in society is disability which they make us the last on their list, I am beginning to see that there really is no point anymore.  I can't get ahead even if I work for it, and nobody really understands, and honestly if I will never be able to be worth anything I guess that I may as well accept reality and get the fuck out of here.  It doesn't matter if I'm smart and work hard, if I can never do anything beyond making pennies, I'll never be able to have anything worth a damn in life or get to use my potential and talents.  Fuck it.

I'm really sorry and troubled to hear about this and I'm pleading that you do not do anything to harm yourself. I realize I don't know what you're going through but I can sincerely say that there are people who care about you and your life will get better than how it feels at the moment.

My best advice that I can give you is to remain around people you can trust to take care of you. You mentioned your dad is an alcoholic and that might be too much for you to handle right now. If you can live comfortably with your mom, grandparents, or any relative, it might be better to contact them.

As far as your relationship with your girlfriend, I don't think a money issue will destroy it. While it is obviously a point of stress for her, I think you can work something out and it won't be the ultimate factor. I realize I'm speaking from a distance, but you might be better off moving out of her place to a cheaper one if you can, so you don't have to deal with the added pressure of keeping enough money.

Consider looking for remote online jobs. My sister wrote for a blog called collegecandy.com where she was paid $10 per post. Her roommate at the time made all of her income from blurb-writing and stuff to that effect. Also consider informal side jobs. A friend runs his own landscaping business that gets odd jobs primarily from craigslist. That way, an employer isn't depending on you to keep regular hours when there is the danger of having an episode.

Again, I don't know what you're going through, but I know someone suffering from schizophrenia and I see her continually making self-destructive decisions and avoiding medication and it's heartbreaking.

On that note, are you taking any medication? How does it make you feel?

If you need to speak to anyone, I don't think I'm in as good of a position as a close friend or relative, or your girlfriend for that matter, but feel free to pm me.

[The Poster Formerly Known As Crass]

I have schizophrenia. ? I have spent four years of my life in hospitals. ? I had straight A's in the honors program at a college. ? My episodes kept taking me out of school and jobs to where I could never advance. ? I ended up homeless after my parents divorced last year. ? I had to fight to survive in homeless shelters and literally walking miles to and from a shitty job just to rent a room in the literal ghetto. ? I met the love of my life when she moved in across the street, she changed my view on everything. ? Disability keeps screwing me around, I don't think I"ll get it. ? I have a job now but it's not enough to satisfy her. ? I was never able to get my degree because of my illness or move up in jobs because I kept going to the hospital, even though I proved in school that I can do anything before it all happened.

My dad may let me move to Missouri with him. ? I never got to have a relationship with a girl I truly loved that I wanted to be with because of the illness either. ? It took away the last one when she couldn't wait on me in a hospital after I was with her three years. ? I'm realizing that I won't be able to make enough money to do what needs to be done. ? I completely kill myself but it does not matter I'm starting to see. ? I don't want to run away, but if I can't do any more then I may have to leave the best thing that ever happened to me probably to be completely alone with an alcoholic father. ? I contemplated suicide last night, and if I would have had the things to do it with I would have done it. ? I still might. ? Knowing that you will never be able to get ahead in life because you can have another schizophrenic episode and the only means of support in society is disability which they make us the last on their list, I am beginning to see that there really is no point anymore.?  I can't get ahead even if I work for it, and nobody really understands, and honestly if I will never be able to be worth anything I guess that I may as well accept reality and get the fuck out of here.?  It doesn't matter if I'm smart and work hard, if I can never do anything beyond making pennies, I'll never be able to have anything worth a damn in life or get to use my potential and talents.?  Fuck it.

What kind of schizophrenia do you have? Dont feel bad if you are on disability, thats what those programs are meant for...people who are mentally or physically unable to work. Have you thought about therapy? Find a therapist that specializes in schizophrenia.

[codithou]

I was going to write some mundane first world problems type of shit but I've had a change of mind after that novel up above.

[The Poster Formerly Known As Crass]

I hate unhelpful professors. I asked my professor what I missed, my grade in the class, and if I can turn in assignments early. All he gave me was some bullshit 5 word response. How the fuck can I pass a class if I dont get help.


Popeyesfriedchicken, if you need to get things off your chest send me a pm.

[escapistfool]

Popeyesfriedchicken, if you need an ear to speak to, just PM me.

[augustmoon]

popeyes, don't give up on trying to get disability.  if you don't have a lawyer, get one.  most of them don't require any payment unless they win your case.  i just got on after fighting for it for the past 6 years.  i felt the way you did for a really long time.  i know it sucks and its hard to hear, but keep trying and be persistent.

[Upgrayedd]

I think me and my girlfriend are about to split. Its not something i enjoy thinking about.

But my problems are petty. My heart goes out to those who really need a shoulder.

[William Jefferson Clinton]

Just found out the local shop is closing.

[Rod Kimble]

Just found out the local shop is closing.

Damn thats a bummer.

[jimi]

What part of Missouri popeyes? Maybe if you move in, You, Hate, and I can meet up in KC and skate the finished Penn Valley.

I'm pretty sure I fractured or dislocated my big toe. I've had sharp pains shoot through it daily for the past 2 months. Worst of all is that it's on my push foot so whenever I push i get a surge of pain.

[augustmoon]

my sister is really lame.  she has been dating a fellow skater going on 5 years now, and just decided to up and leave him the other day to move in with some meathead.  she made it sound like she was just breaking it off and moving out to better herself, but come to find out she is dating this guy.  at the end of the day i just want my sister to be happy, so i support her if she thinks its for the best.  

The problem I have is that she insists on plastering this shit all over her facebook, swooning over this guy, saying how happy she is etc etc, when she knows her ex (my friend) is reading it (she left less than two weeks ago).  do what you gotta do, but don't rub the dude's face in it.  i'm really torn because the guy is an old skate buddy and has put up with all of my sister's bullshit over the years.  i also don't want to get into it with my sister because she has a lot of issues and one negative comment is going to cause major problems, but I'm finding it harder and harder to bite my tongue everytime she posts something about her new situation.  i just find the whole thing to be really fraudulent and childish.  still haven't talked to my friend either.  pretty embarrassed that my little sis is acting like such an asshole.

[Locbrew]

http://content.usatoday.com/communities/entertainment/post/2012/05/swamp-people-star-mitchell-guist-dies-after-boat-fall-/1#.T7FpHVL4L-I

One of my favorite reasons to watch that show, the Guist brothers:

[HATE!]

my sister is really lame.  she has been dating a fellow skater going on 5 years now, and just decided to up and leave him the other day to move in with some meathead.  she made it sound like she was just breaking it off and moving out to better herself, but come to find out she is dating this guy.  at the end of the day i just want my sister to be happy, so i support her if she thinks its for the best.  

The problem I have is that she insists on plastering this shit all over her facebook, swooning over this guy, saying how happy she is etc etc, when she knows her ex (my friend) is reading it (she left less than two weeks ago).  do what you gotta do, but don't rub the dude's face in it.  i'm really torn because the guy is an old skate buddy and has put up with all of my sister's bullshit over the years.  i also don't want to get into it with my sister because she has a lot of issues and one negative comment is going to cause major problems, but I'm finding it harder and harder to bite my tongue everytime she posts something about her new situation.  i just find the whole thing to be really fraudulent and childish.  still haven't talked to my friend either.  pretty embarrassed that my little sis is acting like such an asshole.

Ugh, that does suck.  If you know how your sister is, would it be easier to talk to your homie and get him to unfriend her?  He can also stay friends with her and make it so he doesn't see her shit on there.

[A.J.K.]

my sister is really lame.  she has been dating a fellow skater going on 5 years now, and just decided to up and leave him the other day to move in with some meathead.  she made it sound like she was just breaking it off and moving out to better herself, but come to find out she is dating this guy.  at the end of the day i just want my sister to be happy, so i support her if she thinks its for the best.  

The problem I have is that she insists on plastering this shit all over her facebook, swooning over this guy, saying how happy she is etc etc, when she knows her ex (my friend) is reading it (she left less than two weeks ago).  do what you gotta do, but don't rub the dude's face in it.  i'm really torn because the guy is an old skate buddy and has put up with all of my sister's bullshit over the years.  i also don't want to get into it with my sister because she has a lot of issues and one negative comment is going to cause major problems, but I'm finding it harder and harder to bite my tongue everytime she posts something about her new situation.  i just find the whole thing to be really fraudulent and childish.  still haven't talked to my friend either.  pretty embarrassed that my little sis is acting like such an asshole.

Ugh, that does suck.  If you know how your sister is, would it be easier to talk to your homie and get him to unfriend her?  He can also stay friends with her and make it so he doesn't see her shit on there.

I have no useful input here, but girls like that are THE worse.  No one cares about you and your boyfriend that are destined for failure.

Also this isn't coming from an experienced point of view, but why don't you just call your sister on her bullshit?  Maybe not in an aggressive way, but if you really have a problems with her just address them.  It might be a shit storm in the short term but you could help her out long term potentially.  Like HATE said, just tell your friend to distance himself from her as much as he can.

[HATE!]

Yeah, call on her on her shit- it's your sister, not a homie.  Siblings SHOULD be able to do that.

[augustmoon]

dreading it, but i know it must be done

[Archers of Chaka]

It seems like whenever I hurt myself badly it's always on easy and simple tricks.  For example, the worst injury I've ever had was from a botched warm- up ollie down a four stair a few years back. I popped it a little too early, went to kick out and ended up landing on my ankle sideways and hurting it pretty bad.

Just today I was skating the ledge at my local park. I went for a quick fs 50-50 and instead of locking in I ollied on to the top the ledge by mistake, all four wheels got on top of the ledge. What I didn't know was someone was probably trying bluntslides earlier because the top of the ledge was waxed the fuck out. I instantly slipped out and landed on my ass and on my left wrist. My ass feels better, but my wrist is still killing me.

[Citizen on Patron]

I hate ankle injuries 

[Archers of Chaka]

When I'm actually trying a difficult trick I'll still eat shit and get hurt from it, but never as badly as I've been hurt just fucking around on an easy trick and accidentally messing up. I think that's just how it goes for most skaters.
When you try a super hard trick, you're prepared to fall and eat shit,so a lot of times you'll get hurt less because you actually expect to eat shit, as opposed to when people mess up on an easy trick, because they're never expecting to fall. They always underestimate it.

[augustmoon]

local diy spot got bulldozed.  apparently because of kids tagging nearby trains.  guilt by association.

[escapistfool]

local diy spot got bulldozed.  apparently because of kids tagging nearby trains.  guilt by association.

Well that's such a bummer. Sorry for that loss, dude.


So far, I havent been hired after applying to 12 different places. Summer is gonna suck if I don't make some money.

[Citizen on Patron]

local diy spot got bulldozed.?  apparently because of kids tagging nearby trains.?  guilt by association.

Well that's such a bummer. Sorry for that loss, dude.


So far, I havent been hired after applying to 12 different places. Summer is gonna suck if I don't make some money.

Tell me about it man. I've been on a major bummer for like 5 months... I dont have a phone so it makes it really really hard

[ttching!]

I had been waiting to skate this awesome round rail over a sidewalk planter gap for over a year.  Usually the problem is that there are cars parked really close to it, making the chance of hitting one with your board really high.  I'm not looking to mess up someone's car, so I've been patiently waiting for a street cleaning day on that side of the street to coincide with a day off.  Today the fates aligned, providing me with a 1.5 hour window of unobstructed shredding.  Or so I thought.  Turns out that one of the spots neighbors is a local food bank, which apparently the same hours as street cleaning.  I might as well have been trying to skate in mid-town there was so much foot traffic.  Trife.  I was only able to get comfortable with the speed and approach and fully commit on a few attempts before the cars filled the block again.  Came close on one, but no makes.

[codithou]

I think I messed up some ligament on the outside of my right knee. It doesn't hurt to walk or bend usually, but if I'm out skating, after about an hour it starts slowly hurting and if I keep skating the pain becomes unbearable within a few hours and it takes a day to go away. I've been reading about knee injuries but there are so many different kinds so I don't really know what my specific problem is related to. The pain is generally right on the ligament on the outside of my right knee and doesn't spread too far up my thigh or down my calf. 

[chockfullofthat]

I think I messed up some ligament on the outside of my right knee. It doesn't hurt to walk or bend usually, but if I'm out skating, after about an hour it starts slowly hurting and if I keep skating the pain becomes unbearable within a few hours and it takes a day to go away. I've been reading about knee injuries but there are so many different kinds so I don't really know what my specific problem is related to. The pain is generally right on the ligament on the outside of my right knee and doesn't spread too far up my thigh or down my calf. 

I was just diagnosed with a slight tear in my meniscus.  It sounds similar to what you described, especially how it get worse after an hour and it's on the outside of the knee.  If you have health insurance go see a sports medicine doctor, they'll get you an mri.  I was initially misdiagnosed with IT band syndrome by  a normal doctor.

[Citizen on Patron]

I'm not stoked on everyone getting injured

[codithou]

I think I messed up some ligament on the outside of my right knee. It doesn't hurt to walk or bend usually, but if I'm out skating, after about an hour it starts slowly hurting and if I keep skating the pain becomes unbearable within a few hours and it takes a day to go away. I've been reading about knee injuries but there are so many different kinds so I don't really know what my specific problem is related to. The pain is generally right on the ligament on the outside of my right knee and doesn't spread too far up my thigh or down my calf.  

I was just diagnosed with a slight tear in my meniscus.  It sounds similar to what you described, especially how it get worse after an hour and it's on the outside of the knee.  If you have health insurance go see a sports medicine doctor, they'll get you an mri.  I was initially misdiagnosed with IT band syndrome by  a normal doctor.

Fuck that doesn't sound fun at all and I don't have health insurance. I guess I'll be on google looking for home remedies for awhile.

If you only have a slight tear then what is the healing procedure for that? Is surgery necessary for it or does it heal itself over time?

[chockfullofthat]

I don't think it heals over time.  I just get the results a couple days ago so I'll pm you after I go back to the doctor to hear what his recommendation is...sometime next week.  Since I'm going back I'm going to get another X-ray on my wrist.  I think I need a Jason Dill brace.  Fucking injuries just keep piling up!

[escapistfool]

I'm not stoked on everyone getting injured

Seriously man.

[BURRRPRINT]

Bruised my heel from bombing a hill yesterday. Got speed wobbles, tried to run out, I think I tried to stay on my feet too long, ended up sliding on the ground anyway. I also had cupsole shoes with thick insoles, I smacked my foot so hard the extra cushion didn't help.