real confessions

[Eschaton]

wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?

This is the most shocking part of the whole conversation.

[DaSk8D00D]

Hey fellas, sorry to burst in again, but believe it or not I've found this thread in the forum to be really helpful in the past, and I actually think Sk8D000D was the one to convince me to go into rehab. Basically, when I was 17 I really fucking up my back. I used to totally be into stair jumping and rails, but when  I hurt my back one summer I got prescribed percocets, which, through a girl, who was a few years older than me at the time got me into Heroin. I was able to kick it during highschool, but freshmen year of college, I broke my hip, and lost some of the flow connections I was getting, and was supsequuently prescribed opana for a while which was tapered back into percs again. Around the same time I was smoking a ton of weed and it got to the point where It was facilitating in tons of anxiety and vomit inducing panic attacks, at which time I was prescribed xanax. Needless to say I got hooked on them as well, in addition to my already disturbingly deep alcohol addiction This really led to the delcline of my skating too. You know, I was never really too good, but I rode for a shop, and got some random rep flow product here and there, which I was obviously hyped on, and then my druggin stuff took me from that, and due to my poor body health I kept getting hurt.  But, My cheating girl kicked me out of my apartment fairly recently, ann things got quite worse. I have always had stomach and liver problems since birth, and after partying I would often wake up in Hospitals, being warned of my impending death. Thanks to this section of the forum, I was encouraged to go to detox, and have caught up in school, and am nearly finished with my IOP rehab on Monday! I've been skating really well lately and finally getting most of my old tricks back and even learning new ones. I'm on the right track, been working and did really well in school this semester, got a job, and and am moving back out of my parent;s house soon. I made it three months sober!... until tonight, when I decided to get benzo'd out of my fucking skull and smashed on some stoli. I'm not quite sure what to do at this point. I feel really really guilty. I'm not sure how to handle it. Lonliness has taken it's toll I guess. I don;t know guys. I'm only 20 and the last thing I want is to spend the rest of my life on this rollercoaster you know? I just feel really guilty and stupid. This shit has almost killed me so many times and I don;t really know what to do right now. I graduate from the rehab program moday and I feel like shit about it. I'm just a little lost and It's kindza scary. I really have some stuff I wanna do with my life, some bigger seemingly childish dreams, and i'M scared I just fucked everything Up I've been working for. Sorry for the huge diatribe fellas, just a lot to try to get some of this stuff out in a place I lreally love, and strangely enough feel kinda safe in.  

Im stoked that I helped with your decision to detox. i feel you tho man, you live & you learn. You've been making progress towards turning your life around and will continue to do so as long as you maintain a positive mindset and try your best to stay focused. theres always gonna be regrets & setbacks in hindsight but at the end of the day you just have to turn those bad feelings into motivation to get on the right track. vividly remember how bad _______ felt so the next time you see yourself about to do something impulsive you have that in the back of your head as a reminder of the consequences. you've gotta good head on your shoulders LOU just stay positive & continue to make an effort at being more self-disciplined and over time everything will work out fine. you've got my support fam!

[KoRnholio8]

Okay, I'm feeling a little bit down myself, though my situations seems like a dream come true compared to some of your confessions.

The problem I've got, is that I've spread my self too thin and now I'm paying for it. I'm a translator and have been working part time as a student for 2.5 years. Last year there were 5 months with no work and I started looking for an additional translation agency, just to be safe once my life as a student is over. Luckily enough, I now have one full time translating job and one part time (depends on available projects). This at times means I am super busy and have absolutely no time for anything else but chores.

This, of course, means I can't skateboard when the pressure is on - but more recently I've just lost so much of stamina, power and skill that getting back on my skate can be frustrating (mostly fun as ever though). The thin part is also due to my skate website I've been running for 11 years now and which always had a loyal following, only to have it diminish now, that I haven't got enough time to create original content (as much as I used too). Due to this website I've also invested quite some cash into photo and video equipment (which I now want to add to all the time), which I haven't got the opportunity to use much.

Lastly, I've moved in with my GF to another city (7 years spent in another with many great friends, while here there is only a whole lot of acquaintances) and now have to write my thesis or I'll be forced to pay back the last year of my scholarship. Also, when my workload is manageable, I find a way to postpone my work to the last second and have to forget about skateboarding again.

I know I'm not lazy (I just spend 1,5 h browsing the net "aimlessly", other than that I'm always doing something), but just this doing stuff on so many fronts seems like I'm not doing enough or anything really. Kinda brings my motivation down... /end rant, time to be productive.

[wario]

wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?

that's like the time i finally manned up to get an STD test only to find out the swab pleasantly palpated my dong.

[Made In China]

I've only ever drank a couple of gulps of alcohol here and there and only ever had one shot, but lately I've really been wanting to get drunk. Like really drunk, like in the movies drunk. I don't know why, but it's kind of hard when my parents only ever keep red wine in the house.

[cancelled]

just find a god'amn hobo.  theyll buy you a fifth of kentucky deluxe, for a shooter or two of course.  your recomended doasge to get drunk would probably be a fifth of kentucky deluxe for your head.  finest bourbon youll find.

[David Schwimmer]

I've only ever drank a couple of gulps of alcohol here and there and only ever had one shot, but lately I've really been wanting to get drunk. Like really drunk, like in the movies drunk. I don't know why, but it's kind of hard when my parents only ever keep red wine in the house.

Oh how it is to be young and innocent, don't worry you'll get your chance and you'll never want to drink again.

Real talk gentlemen, the man behind the David Schwimmer account has been sober for two weeks (even weed), and moving to a place in Long Beach. It's the happiest he's ever been.


-Dave

[Mundungus]

just find a god'amn hobo.  theyll buy you a fifth of kentucky deluxe, for a shooter or two of course.  your recomended doasge to get drunk would probably be a fifth of kentucky deluxe for your head.  finest bourbon youll find.

Yeah drink a 5th. That might get you buzzed.

[Archie Bunker]

and make sure it's kentucky deluxe.  it gets you the drunkest without giving you any sort of hangover.  the cheaper the better

[HATE!]

and make sure it's kentucky deluxe.  it gets you the drunkest without giving you any sort of hangover.  the cheaper the better

Wild Turkey would be another one to go for.

[ttching!]

My gf's little sister always manages to unintentionally flash me while I am minding my own business almost every time she stays with us...Not looking to, but Would.

[Unbridled Technical Precision]

My gf's little sister always manages to unintentionally flash me while I am minding my own business almost every time she stays with us...Not looking to, but Would.

if you would, then you shall...

[chockfullofthat]

wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?

I'm crying...from the laughter.

[happenstance]

My gf's little sister always manages to unintentionally flash me while I am minding my own business almost every time she stays with us...Not looking to, but Would.

How does one do that unintentionally?

[ttching!]

if you would, then you shall...

I work around tons of hot females in an area of the city with tons of hot females.  Would but shall not.  I have an amazing three-year old.  I'm going to do anything that might fuck up her life.

How does one do that unintentionally?

Wearing short shorts without underwear, and/or not getting dressed in the bathroom with the door shut when you are staying at someone's little NYC apartment.

[chockfullofthat]

if you would, then you shall...

I work around tons of hot females in an area of the city with tons of hot females.?  Would but shall not.?  I have an amazing three-year old.?  I'm going to do anything that might fuck up her life.

How does one do that unintentionally?

Wearing short shorts without underwear, and/or not getting dressed in the bathroom with the door shut when you are staying at someone's little NYC apartment.

[ttching!]

if you would, then you shall...

I work around tons of hot females in an area of the city with tons of hot females.?  Would but shall not.?  I have an amazing three-year old.?  I'm going to do anything that might fuck up her life.

How does one do that unintentionally?

Wearing short shorts without underwear, and/or not getting dressed in the bathroom with the door shut when you are staying at someone's little NYC apartment.

While having a stable, happy, two-parent household is by no means a guarantee of a person growing up to be a stable, happy, well adjusted adult, it doesn't hurt. Her mom and I are good together, no need to be fooling around. The little one is the best thing that ever happened to me.

[oyolar]

The joke was you left out a "not."

[ttching!]

That is fucked up.  I didn't even notice, even with it bolded.

[gutterhead.]

that's hilarious, hahaha!

Here's my real confession..
I've been with my girlfriend for 4 years, been really good friends with her for 10. We have a mutual friend, who at one point in time was my closest friends (a girl). She texts me often and we go out to eat and stuff, which has been going on for a while with nothing bad at all. Here it gets interesting. One night the other weekend, she calls me up at 3 AM saying she's outside my place and needs to crash, of course, I let her in. Shit goes down, we fuck, and i feel like shit. We wake up and i'm freaking out, she gets dressed and leaves only saying "I can keep a secret if you can." Should i come clean to my girlfriend? Should i take it to my grave? I dont want to fuck shit up, cause the girl i'm with may easily be the girl i spend the rest of my life with.

[Turtle Boy]

that's hilarious, hahaha!

Here's my real confession..
I've been with my girlfriend for 4 years, been really good friends with her for 10. We have a mutual friend, who at one point in time was my closest friends (a girl). She texts me often and we go out to eat and stuff, which has been going on for a while with nothing bad at all. Here it gets interesting. One night the other weekend, she calls me up at 3 AM saying she's outside my place and needs to crash, of course, I let her in. Shit goes down, we fuck, and i feel like shit. We wake up and i'm freaking out, she gets dressed and leaves only saying "I can keep a secret if you can." Should i come clean to my girlfriend? Should i take it to my grave? I dont want to fuck shit up, cause the girl i'm with may easily be the girl i spend the rest of my life with.

Don't say anything, never ever!

[chockfullofthat]

that's hilarious, hahaha!

Here's my real confession..
I've been with my girlfriend for 4 years, been really good friends with her for 10. We have a mutual friend, who at one point in time was my closest friends (a girl). She texts me often and we go out to eat and stuff, which has been going on for a while with nothing bad at all. Here it gets interesting. One night the other weekend, she calls me up at 3 AM saying she's outside my place and needs to crash, of course, I let her in. Shit goes down, we fuck, and i feel like shit. We wake up and i'm freaking out, she gets dressed and leaves only saying "I can keep a secret if you can." Should i come clean to my girlfriend? Should i take it to my grave? I dont want to fuck shit up, cause the girl i'm with may easily be the girl i spend the rest of my life with.

Why'd you do it?

[HATE!]

that's hilarious, hahaha!

Here's my real confession..
I've been with my girlfriend for 4 years, been really good friends with her for 10. We have a mutual friend, who at one point in time was my closest friends (a girl). She texts me often and we go out to eat and stuff, which has been going on for a while with nothing bad at all. Here it gets interesting. One night the other weekend, she calls me up at 3 AM saying she's outside my place and needs to crash, of course, I let her in. Shit goes down, we fuck, and i feel like shit. We wake up and i'm freaking out, she gets dressed and leaves only saying "I can keep a secret if you can." Should i come clean to my girlfriend? Should i take it to my grave? I dont want to fuck shit up, cause the girl i'm with may easily be the girl i spend the rest of my life with.

Why'd you do it?

[Greg Ostertag]

Just spend the rest of your life with both of them. You've got a Cult Leader's Starter Kit, my dude.

[trannies and mannies]

Tell your girlfriend you were practicing some new sex moves on the other girl that will intensify your sex lives. She will be curious and want to fuck you right there. Its a win win.

[Monty Burns]

that's hilarious, hahaha!

Here's my real confession..
I've been with my girlfriend for 4 years, been really good friends with her for 10. We have a mutual friend, who at one point in time was my closest friends (a girl). She texts me often and we go out to eat and stuff, which has been going on for a while with nothing bad at all. Here it gets interesting. One night the other weekend, she calls me up at 3 AM saying she's outside my place and needs to crash, of course, I let her in. Shit goes down, we fuck, and i feel like shit. We wake up and i'm freaking out, she gets dressed and leaves only saying "I can keep a secret if you can." Should i come clean to my girlfriend? Should i take it to my grave? I dont want to fuck shit up, cause the girl i'm with may easily be the girl i spend the rest of my life with.

Why'd you do it?

Kinda think you are fucked . Either tell her and hope for the best . Or live with it and hope your guilt ( if you have some ) wont eat you up until you turn into a mad man with a sniper rifle in a church tower

[gutterhead.]

For those asking why I did it.. She crawled into my bed while I was sleeping/half asleep and started making out with me, that's fucking entrapment right there. As for an update... I've decided i want to tell her, it's just a matter of figuring out how.

[DaSk8D00D]

damn gutterhead that sounds like a lil situation right there but real talk i can respect yo honesty in wanting to tell her. both options can work perfectly or totally fail so really at the end of the day you just gotta follow your gut. now that i think about it telling her probably the only option where you have at least some control over the outcome

-you could not tell her & hope you get over your guilt and move on as everything stays the same, but that can fuck you over big time if your girl finds out somehow. "secrets" are often revealed over time so really its up to chance

-coming clean and telling her could work but you'd have to hit a fucking home run on that explanation & apology, and you can definitely expect the relationship between the 2 girls to change drastically whether she forgives you or not.


if you feel like telling her is the right thing to do then you should definitely do but make sure that explanation is extremely good! if this was skyrim yo speechcraft would need to be up in the 90's to pull this off my nigga, make sure you come prepared. the sooner the better too cuz you never know when that little secret may come out


excuse my over-analysis im on some extra high shit just tryna help someone out. good luck fam!

[HATE!]

Good for you for being honest.  That's sometimes hard, but it's always best.

[Bronson]

damn gutterhead that sounds like a lil situation right there but real talk i can respect yo honesty in wanting to tell her. both options can work perfectly or totally fail so really at the end of the day you just gotta follow your gut. now that i think about it telling her probably the only option where you have at least some control over the outcome

-you could not tell her & hope you get over your guilt and move on as everything stays the same, but that can fuck you over big time if your girl finds out somehow. "secrets" are often revealed over time so really its up to chance

-coming clean and telling her could work but you'd have to hit a fucking home run on that explanation & apology, and you can definitely expect the relationship between the 2 girls to change drastically whether she forgives you or not.


if you feel like telling her is the right thing to do then you should definitely do but make sure that explanation is extremely good! if this was skyrim yo speechcraft would need to be up in the 90's to pull this off my nigga, make sure you come prepared. the sooner the better too cuz you never know when that little secret may come out


excuse my over-analysis im on some extra high shit just tryna help someone out. good luck fam!