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« Reply #3450 on: April 11, 2012, 01:43:55 AM »

-i broke up with my gf 2 fucking years ago, it never really ever died down that much, lots of secret fucking and bullshit, now i find myself -wanting her back, even though i know its really a terrible decision. shes over me though.  good pussy is a hell of a drug.


how old are you? how long where you 2 together? was she your first love?
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« Reply #3451 on: April 12, 2012, 06:04:18 PM »

Basically I've become too scared to go out anymore. I've just moved to Arizona where I have no friends. There's a skatepark down the road from where I live that I drive past a few times a day, circle the block around it, and then leave. I went there ten minutes ago, parked my car in the parking lot, thought about getting out to skate, and then left. I'm too scared to meet new people. The only person I know here is my girlfriend who I live with, and some of her family. I don't really know what to do. I'd really like to adventure out and meet some people or make some friends but I'm very afraid of doing so. This probably sounds ridiculous, but any help/advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm starting to feel like I've done a great disservice to myself by moving here.
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« Reply #3452 on: April 12, 2012, 10:22:38 PM »

Basically I've become too scared to go out anymore. I've just moved to Arizona where I have no friends. There's a skatepark down the road from where I live that I drive past a few times a day, circle the block around it, and then leave. I went there ten minutes ago, parked my car in the parking lot, thought about getting out to skate, and then left. I'm too scared to meet new people. The only person I know here is my girlfriend who I live with, and some of her family. I don't really know what to do. I'd really like to adventure out and meet some people or make some friends but I'm very afraid of doing so. This probably sounds ridiculous, but any help/advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm starting to feel like I've done a great disservice to myself by moving here.

you just gotta break outta that comfort zone. i know its hard but once you actually go forth and do it youll realize its never as bad as you previously thought it was. i always find skateparks to be my most comfortable place to meet new people, just cuz of the atmosphere i guess. just skate and have fun fam. you aint gotta be a social butterfly or nothin but if you at the park just do you and if you happen to get along with somebody just take it from there. i feel yo pain ina way, im sure its probably weird going somewhere where you dont know anybody, but its either get out of your comfort zone or live life on some scared shit. id advise you to read some books on basic conversation and things like that, just so you can have a bit of confidence talking to new people. but like i said, it aint really that hard to meet new friends at the skatepark if you actually skate it. go out there and have some fun man! just have fun skating, do you, and youll find some friends eventually. its inevitable.

a few months from now youll prolly be more settled in and have made some friends so dont sweat it fam. if you're open to the opportunities presented to you and go forth with a positive mindset youll be aiiiight.
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« Reply #3453 on: April 13, 2012, 02:21:10 PM »

If I get too much time off work and just stay in side the whole time . I have problems going out . I feel like everybodys looking at me and judging me . Or that theres just too much ppl out there . First buss / metro / train ride is a nightmare cause there 50+ ppl there in a closed enviroment .

Trick is to just do it , not give a shit . Listen to a ipod and focus on that . After awhile you get used to it and you feel normal again

Not sure why I get like this cause Im a pretty social person . Go to that skatepark with a ipod on , just ignore ppl the first hour or so or day , just skate and listen to music . Next time you are there give the ppl a nod who you recognize and soon enough you will be talking to them maybe even the first day .
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« Reply #3454 on: April 13, 2012, 02:27:32 PM »

Basically I've become too scared to go out anymore. I've just moved to Arizona where I have no friends. There's a skatepark down the road from where I live that I drive past a few times a day, circle the block around it, and then leave. I went there ten minutes ago, parked my car in the parking lot, thought about getting out to skate, and then left. I'm too scared to meet new people. The only person I know here is my girlfriend who I live with, and some of her family. I don't really know what to do. I'd really like to adventure out and meet some people or make some friends but I'm very afraid of doing so. This probably sounds ridiculous, but any help/advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm starting to feel like I've done a great disservice to myself by moving here.

Be social, your thoughts are restricting you for no reason. I was debating whether to hang out with some people from work a few days ago. I decided to go. I turned out to be fun. Everyone there was surprised I showed up and were stoked. Just go to the park and you'll meet people there...for starters you and another person will have at least one thing in common. Also don't be discourage if things don't turn out good the first time or so.
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« Reply #3455 on: April 14, 2012, 02:53:22 PM »

Basically I've become too scared to go out anymore. I've just moved to Arizona where I have no friends. There's a skatepark down the road from where I live that I drive past a few times a day, circle the block around it, and then leave. I went there ten minutes ago, parked my car in the parking lot, thought about getting out to skate, and then left. I'm too scared to meet new people. The only person I know here is my girlfriend who I live with, and some of her family. I don't really know what to do. I'd really like to adventure out and meet some people or make some friends but I'm very afraid of doing so. This probably sounds ridiculous, but any help/advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm starting to feel like I've done a great disservice to myself by moving here.

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« Reply #3456 on: April 15, 2012, 06:57:52 PM »

Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.  My self esteem is at an all time low.  I don't know what to do.  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it
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« Reply #3457 on: April 15, 2012, 07:11:44 PM »

Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.  My self esteem is at an all time low.  I don't know what to do.  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it

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« Reply #3458 on: April 15, 2012, 07:16:01 PM »

Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.  My self esteem is at an all time low.  I don't know what to do.  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it

Drugs and drinking can possibly make this worse.

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« Reply #3459 on: April 16, 2012, 07:38:18 AM »

Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.?  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.?  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.?  My self esteem is at an all time low.?  I don't know what to do.?  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it
block her, I went through a rough break up. It has been so much better not being able to see what she is doing.
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« Reply #3460 on: April 16, 2012, 04:09:08 PM »

Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.?  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.?  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.?  My self esteem is at an all time low.?  I don't know what to do.?  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it
block her, I went through a rough break up. It has been so much better not being able to see what she is doing.


Its abit weird , Started seeing this girl but it kinda went to shit . Now I have her on Facebook still and can see her updates . Which is pretty fucking crushing since she puts up pics all the time , and I get kinda jelouse when I see convos that she has with other dudes

Even weirder that completly dropping contact with me , and ignoring 2 PMs , she started "liking" my status  . wtf ...

Only keeping the FB cause I hope to try to pick it up with her at a later time in life ...


Best thing to get over girls is to go out and have fun . party and skate , work or go to school . Once you start getting laid again you usualy forget about the other girl
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« Reply #3461 on: April 18, 2012, 09:24:52 AM »

I, like Leo Romero, can't turn my backside flips the entire 180 degrees...
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« Reply #3462 on: April 22, 2012, 09:33:24 PM »

Real confession: I might have chuckled at one of meathead genious's posts. It was an out-of-body experience, it just kind of happened.
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« Reply #3463 on: April 24, 2012, 12:17:56 PM »

i like yo flips to fakie on tranny
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« Reply #3464 on: April 24, 2012, 12:22:53 PM »

i like yo flips to fakie on tranny

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« Reply #3465 on: April 24, 2012, 03:35:21 PM »

i like yo flips to fakie on tranny

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« Reply #3466 on: April 25, 2012, 11:41:23 AM »

I live inside my head, in a fantasy world. In this world I idealize people, situations and most importantly myself. This leads to the real world making me disappointed and depressed everyday, making the world a pretty scary place. So what do I do? I retreat even more, inside of my head and isolate myself.

All my life I have been using a cognitive defense mechanism where I think that I am special and thus different (read: better) than everyone else. While I know I am special - everyone is, I know I am no better or worse than anyone else. But its a real hard way of thinking to learn out of.

I have a pretty bad self-esteem which I compensate with the above-mentioned way of thinking/fantasy

I need a constant creative outlet or I get depressed.

Lately Ive grinded my teeth a lot and my jaw constanly hurts.

I am in constant chest pain from anxiety and emotional pain (its a stinging kind of sensation above my heart). I feel emotional reactions extremely strongly (but my SSRI medicine has blunted some of these feelings out). I have a huge fear of being judged, but cant seem to feel happy when people give me praise or compliments. Essentially, theres a wall between me and other people.

I am very very good at analyzing other people, listening to their problems and offering them help. People seem to open up to me. Still, I always feel that I am missing a connection - most importantly an emotional connection with other people/the world. It kills.

I started a new temporary job guiding and councelling children. I am pretty good at it, but the loud noises of elementary school enviroment make me really stressed and occasionally dizzy. For the past couple of weeks I have felt so mentally tired after the (relatively short) workdays that I feel like I just need to go lie in my bed the rest of the day.

Writing almost always helps when I feel bad. Skating always helps too, but I cant really do it anymore and it contributes to my depression/social isolation in a major way.
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« Reply #3467 on: April 25, 2012, 08:05:27 PM »

Thinking about getting a vasectomy, then put in fake balls if that's possible (lol). I just really don't want to bring a child into this world, let alone be responsible for another person. I'm not a child person and I don't want to give a child all my time, resources, etc. If I ever do decided on wanting a child, I'll adopt. Yeah I'm still young, but I think heavily about things like this. In the end I'll probably back out.

Also not having sex was really bother me for months after my ex and I broke up. It was seriously stressing me out how I'll have a good sex life. Now I don't even care that much. Haven't given up on girls, just whatever happens, happens. I feel like a big weight has been lifted now that I dont care.

I'll be working towards a career in therapy, and I truly do enjoy helping people but I often wonder if this is the right career. I'm not set on any career. I've thought about being a mortician, a therapist, researcher, and something to do with travel. I'm almost done with my psychology degree and I feel that I've put in too much time and effort to see it go to waste. I love psychology though, just not sure.
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« Reply #3468 on: April 25, 2012, 09:57:04 PM »

Don't adopt, dude. If you're going to have a baby, make it count. Spray semen. Make it look like you. You're bringing a baby into "this world," but this world for you isn't a zombie farm in Haiti. Life isn't that bad. There's nothing inside of us that we haven't put there ourselves, except babies. The world is what you make it. Being depressed is favorable when you consider being dead. The more you pussyfoot around in this earth, the more likely it is that your atoms will be dispersed into a babies diaper when you die. Sex isn't just so your little peepee head feels good and you make funny faces. Bring a child into this motherfucker. There's nothing else.
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« Reply #3469 on: April 25, 2012, 10:36:58 PM »

Because all of the kids that are looking for families and want to be adopted aren't as much of people to you, can't have as much of an impact on your life, or carry on your legacy because they're not your genetic material? That's idiotic.

Crass-fuck it, adopt if you want a kid later on. Plus, if you get one that's not a baby, that kid will totally owe you for life.
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« Reply #3470 on: April 25, 2012, 11:07:31 PM »

Don't criticize my post unless you're making a point, dude. Crass never said he was genetically unable to reproduce. I'm singing the praises of the system of mammalia. Correct me if I'm wrong, Crass. I'm defending your nuts here.
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« Reply #3471 on: April 25, 2012, 11:12:57 PM »

Thinking about getting a vasectomy, then put in fake balls if that's possible (lol).

i don't think you understand what a vasectomy does.
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« Reply #3472 on: April 26, 2012, 12:07:22 AM »

two of my friends were adopted, and they are both complete dicks to their parents. 
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« Reply #3473 on: April 26, 2012, 07:48:23 AM »

two of my friends were adopted, and they are both complete dicks to their parents. 

The parents should return them and get their money back then.
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« Reply #3474 on: April 26, 2012, 10:01:10 AM »

I can reproduce. I was afraid of that, I didn't want to come off as a person that thinks times now are the worst ever. I guess it's more of taking care of a child. And I do care a little about passing on my genes but in the end it isn't that important. There's so many kids out there that would be happy to have a home and caring parents.

Oh shit, I've been misinformed for all these years. I thought a vasectomy got rid of your balls. a quick search on wiki and the doctor just snips something.

Well it's a gamble with any child, adoption or having your own. Some kids are easy to raise and others are really difficult.
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« Reply #3475 on: April 26, 2012, 11:24:11 AM »

Most kids ive known who are adopted have really loved their " fake " parents . And the parents really loved their "fake" kid . Its not all about that its your natural kid , theres more to being a parent or father then just putting seed in a woman . Tons of Fake parents who are more parents then the natural ones

that being said I would much rather have my own real kid then adopt . But I guess if it comes to adoption I would love that kid like my own .

Kids are nothing to be made light of . Crass you might not have met the right woman just now to have kids with . or marry or what ever . Think you can spend most time in life thinking you dont want wife and kids to then 1 year later have both and love it

As for a job . I fucking love my job so much but still have doubts now and then if I shouldnt have done something ells
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« Reply #3476 on: April 26, 2012, 01:22:42 PM »

wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?
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« Reply #3477 on: April 26, 2012, 02:01:26 PM »

You're killing me, Crass.
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« Reply #3478 on: April 28, 2012, 02:02:55 AM »

Hey fellas, sorry to burst in again, but believe it or not I've found this thread in the forum to be really helpful in the past, and I actually think Sk8D000D was the one to convince me to go into rehab. Basically, when I was 17 I really fucking up my back. I used to totally be into stair jumping and rails, but when  I hurt my back one summer I got prescribed percocets, which, through a girl, who was a few years older than me at the time got me into Heroin. I was able to kick it during highschool, but freshmen year of college, I broke my hip, and lost some of the flow connections I was getting, and was supsequuently prescribed opana for a while which was tapered back into percs again. Around the same time I was smoking a ton of weed and it got to the point where It was facilitating in tons of anxiety and vomit inducing panic attacks, at which time I was prescribed xanax. Needless to say I got hooked on them as well, in addition to my already disturbingly deep alcohol addiction This really led to the delcline of my skating too. You know, I was never really too good, but I rode for a shop, and got some random rep flow product here and there, which I was obviously hyped on, and then my druggin stuff took me from that, and due to my poor body health I kept getting hurt.  But, My cheating girl kicked me out of my apartment fairly recently, ann things got quite worse. I have always had stomach and liver problems since birth, and after partying I would often wake up in Hospitals, being warned of my impending death. Thanks to this section of the forum, I was encouraged to go to detox, and have caught up in school, and am nearly finished with my IOP rehab on Monday! I've been skating really well lately and finally getting most of my old tricks back and even learning new ones. I'm on the right track, been working and did really well in school this semester, got a job, and and am moving back out of my parent;s house soon. I made it three months sober!... until tonight, when I decided to get benzo'd out of my fucking skull and smashed on some stoli. I'm not quite sure what to do at this point. I feel really really guilty. I'm not sure how to handle it. Lonliness has taken it's toll I guess. I don;t know guys. I'm only 20 and the last thing I want is to spend the rest of my life on this rollercoaster you know? I just feel really guilty and stupid. This shit has almost killed me so many times and I don;t really know what to do right now. I graduate from the rehab program moday and I feel like shit about it. I'm just a little lost and It's kindza scary. I really have some stuff I wanna do with my life, some bigger seemingly childish dreams, and i'M scared I just fucked everything Up I've been working for. Sorry for the huge diatribe fellas, just a lot to try to get some of this stuff out in a place I lreally love, and strangely enough feel kinda safe in.  
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« Reply #3479 on: April 28, 2012, 10:33:31 AM »

wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?
This is the most shocking part of the whole conversation.
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