real confessions

[Unbridled Technical Precision]

damn DOOD, damn...


 that should honestly be put in the "what's the meaning of life" thread and then shut down.

[PFIASB.]

^Heavy shit.

thanks for the neg you fucking brainwashed product of slap. You've obviously never snowboarded before, you just hate because everyone else does and your trying to fit in. 'fuck outta here

snowboarding > skateboarding.

yeah i said it.

[Cadillac Ranch Dressing]

^Heavy shit.

thanks for the neg you fucking brainwashed product of slap. You've obviously never snowboarded before, you just hate because everyone else does and your trying to fit in. 'fuck outta here

snowboarding > skateboarding.

yeah i said it.

http://www.crude-behavior.com/forum/ubbthreads.php?ubb=cfrm&c=3

[dask8d00d]

^Heavy shit.

thanks for the neg you fucking brainwashed product of slap. You've obviously never snowboarded before, you just hate because everyone else does and your trying to fit in. 'fuck outta here

snowboarding > skateboarding.

yeah i said it.

[happenstance]

^Heavy shit.

thanks for the neg you fucking brainwashed product of slap. You've obviously never snowboarded before, you just hate because everyone else does and your trying to fit in. 'fuck outta here

snowboarding > skateboarding.

yeah i said it.

Wow dude, chill the fuck out. I guess it is hard to distinguish tone in type. You put that you want winter to start so you can snowboard in a 'real confessions' thread. You were almost poking fun at yourself (as this is a skate site where you admitted to wanting to end 'skateboarding season'), or at least that is the way I see it. So I poked fun at the fact that you gave a "heavy" confession. I actually snowboarded from the age of 8 up to about 22 or so (26 now). I gave it up because I rather spend my free time skating and I hate getting injured on anything but a skateboard - and snowboarding can get pretty damn dangerous. I can see myself snowboarding again if a friend invited me, it just hasn't happened in a few years. So yeah, don't you feel bad for overreacting?

Edit: Dick.

[pinche gringo]

I never live in the moment. Its really problematic, since it also means I am never satisfied or at ease. If I dont escape into my thoughts or to some fantasy about the past or future I just get bored with whatever I am doing. Anyone out there that can relate? I am trying to practice mindfulness and meditation to fight this problem, all suggestions are more than welcome.

I know exactly where you are coming from as I too once had the same problem.

When faced with boredome the mind naturally wonders towards anxieties of potienal future problems. To avoid this, we look for outside distractions to help pass the free time that we have. We then grow dependent on such distractions wether they be drugs & alcohol, novelty entertainments, killing time on the Internet, etc. however they distractions have a drug like effect...they wear off. We then constantly look more & more outside ourselves, eventually leading to an unsatisfactory way of life. The instant gratification of entertainment may be easier to take up, but leads us nowhere, constantly band-aiding a deeper problem within ourselves.

What you must do is find your niche and a purpose within yourself to be good at it. Something you are deeply passionate about wether it be a skill you would liketo learn, some form of art, or a long term goal. Then you must totally accept the fact that in order to gain a higher pleasure in life, you MUST ABSOLUTELY learn to endure hard practice & drudge work in order to master these things. You have to totally immerse yourself within your work. At first, doing so we be almost unbearably slow paced compared to your petty distractions, but not only are you learning this new skill, you are teaching yoursf self discipline that will last you a lifetime. Soon you will get better and start to notice your progress, motivating you to work even more. Your work then becomes more & more pleasurable as you grow more skilled and immerse yur mind into it. This is your new "distraction" except you are actually being productive and gaining the self discipline that will last you a lifetime. This in turn, leads you towards more long term happiness.


Excuse any typos in that shit as these walls of text become difficult to edit ona phone.

Right on Dood.

[PFIASB.]

you joined like 6 months ago and think you own slap or somethin cant take you serious.
You're just a boring unfunny version of my penis is on my forehead.

Wow dude, chill the fuck out. I guess it is hard to distinguish tone in type. You put that you want winter to start so you can snowboard in a 'real confessions' thread. You were almost poking fun at yourself (as this is a skate site where you admitted to wanting to end 'skateboarding season'), or at least that is the way I see it. So I poked fun at the fact that you gave a "heavy" confession. I actually snowboarded from the age of 8 up to about 22 or so (26 now). I gave it up because I rather spend my free time skating and I hate getting injured on anything but a skateboard - and snowboarding can get pretty damn dangerous. I can see myself snowboarding again if a friend invited me, it just hasn't happened in a few years. So yeah, don't you feel bad for overreacting?

Edit: Dick.

tldr i just hate people that act like skateboarding is the only thing you should like and everything else is wrong.

[dask8d00d]

you joined like 6 months ago and think you own slap or somethin cant take you serious.
You're just a boring unfunny version of my penis is on my forehead.

maybe i didnt make myself clear enough the first time...

[PFIASB.]

you joined like 6 months ago and think you own slap or somethin cant take you serious.
You're just a boring unfunny version of my penis is on my forehead.

maybe i didnt make myself clear enough the first time...

maybe i didnt make myself clear enough the first time..

you joined like 6 months ago and think you own slap or somethin
You just a knockoff a bitchmade cum guzzlin fuckboy version of rawb
 

[Numeral]

my inability to go to sleep like a normal person is causing me problems with everything else in my life.
I can't get to work early ever, can't make appointments in time ever, even missing appointments with my own boss. or stuff that I set myself.

I've tried everything, reading, warm milk, weed, it's like I just need to be awake everyday until 4:00AM and then of course I can't for the life of me wake up before noon, I've tried just staying awake to see if I go to sleep early the next day and no dice.

the times I've tried to just stay awake I spend the day in daze like a freaking zombie and then as soon as I get home I can't sleep even though I been awake for two days.

I been thinking it may be stress related but I don't feel stressed out, and it's not anxiety, even though I get anxious and want stuff to happen faster for me, I'm not dwelling on stuff all day long.

I don't know what the hell to do anymore it's like I need more time during the day to do other stuff and I end up going to bed at 4:00AM every day.

[Dontfearthereefer]

you should just do lots of cocaine

[dask8d00d]

my inability to go to sleep like a normal person is causing me problems with everything else in my life.
I can't get to work early ever, can't make appointments in time ever, even missing appointments with my own boss. or stuff that I set myself.

I've tried everything, reading, warm milk, weed, it's like I just need to be awake everyday until 4:00AM and then of course I can't for the life of me wake up before noon, I've tried just staying awake to see if I go to sleep early the next day and no dice.

the times I've tried to just stay awake I spend the day in daze like a freaking zombie and then as soon as I get home I can't sleep even though I been awake for two days.

I been thinking it may be stress related but I don't feel stressed out, and it's not anxiety, even though I get anxious and want stuff to happen faster for me, I'm not dwelling on stuff all day long.

I don't know what the hell to do anymore it's like I need more time during the day to do other stuff and I end up going to bed at 4:00AM every day.

I've suffered from insomnia ever since I was a toddler. I've learned how to somewhat manage it but I usually take 2 of these an hour or 2 before I want to go to bed and they always get me drowsy enough for an easy sleep. Just make sure you have about 7-8 hours of actual rest or it'll be a pain to wake up in the morning. They usually have em by the register at Walgreens but I'm sure you can find them elsewhere as well.

Also when I smoke weed late at night it pretty much always makes me stay up that much later. especially if I get realllly high. that shit adds on another 2-3 hours for me even when I'm already drowsy

[steve]

my inability to go to sleep like a normal person is causing me problems with everything else in my life.
I can't get to work early ever, can't make appointments in time ever, even missing appointments with my own boss. or stuff that I set myself.

I've tried everything, reading, warm milk, weed, it's like I just need to be awake everyday until 4:00AM and then of course I can't for the life of me wake up before noon, I've tried just staying awake to see if I go to sleep early the next day and no dice.

the times I've tried to just stay awake I spend the day in daze like a freaking zombie and then as soon as I get home I can't sleep even though I been awake for two days.

I been thinking it may be stress related but I don't feel stressed out, and it's not anxiety, even though I get anxious and want stuff to happen faster for me, I'm not dwelling on stuff all day long.

I don't know what the hell to do anymore it's like I need more time during the day to do other stuff and I end up going to bed at 4:00AM every day.

find a melatonin supplement. it will work with your circadian cycles (sleep cycles)
I take this stuff when I need it. I'm not sure where you can get it, my ex hooked me up from the holistic doctors officer her roomie worked in, but it's available online. Pharmacies sell capsules.
 http://www.vitaminscripts.com/melatonin-nano-plex-5-fl-oz-liquid-premier-research.aspx
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Melatonin here's the wiki

[Numeral]

thanks dudes, I'm trying to avoid sleeping pills. I think I'm gonna try first something I have been trying to avoid which is to go joggin before going to bed.

It's like naturally my mind activily refuses to shot down for some sleep. Yesterday I was hella tired and I was like no, I wanna stay awake, even though I consciously knew it was gonna fuck me up and it did, today I received an e-mail from my boss and rrhh.

It wasn't serious but if I keep it up it's gonna blow up in my face.

[Dark Knight]

Force yourself to wake up early for a few days and your body will compensate.  I had trouble waking up early and would go to bed around 2:30-3:00am everyday.  I forced myself to wake up early (5-6am) for a little less than a week and it did the trick.  I'm actually tired and ready to go to bed before midnight, something I hadn't done since I was young.

[steve]

thanks dudes, I'm trying to avoid sleeping pills. I think I'm gonna try first something I have been trying to avoid which is to go joggin before going to bed.

It's like naturally my mind activily refuses to shot down for some sleep. Yesterday I was hella tired and I was like no, I wanna stay awake, even though I consciously knew it was gonna fuck me up and it did, today I received an e-mail from my boss and rrhh.

It wasn't serious but if I keep it up it's gonna blow up in my face.

right on, man, although this shit is synthesized, your body releases melatonin when darkness begins to fall. however, if your sleep cycles are off, your body isn't releasing/producing the natural amount of melatonin. It's not all that different than metabolism, if you let that shit get thrown  out of whack, it isn't going to work but with exercise and right diet, it will start plugging along again. introducing a bit of synthetic melatonin can be really helpful in getting the rhythm going again. I'm only saying this because it's not like a sleeping pill.

Either way, running before bed  can help but it can also keep you up. I try to get my activity going on early in the day, running, riding, etc, and practice yoga at night. good luck amigo

[Zurg]

move to the appropriate time zone. problem solved

[skate_bored]

im definitely a supporter of melatonin. i cant remember for the life of me the last time i just fell asleep. girls i have dated for years always fall asleep at least two hours before me and even if im exhausted my brain is never ready to shut off. i dont understand "falling asleep". im usually drinking a few nights a week so that solves the problem on those nights, and on off nights ill take a couple 10mg of melatonin around midnight and be nice and sleepy around 1-2. its a feeling that has never come natural for me, but i assume thats how most people feel when they decide its bed time. melatonin is not a sleeping pill, so i dont feel bad taking it. weed helps too, but i gotta make sure i dont smoke RIGHT before bed or i mind fuck myself into 3 hour thought sessions.

[j....soy.....]

Swimming......

[Mole]

Sometimes I wanna die.

[Mundungus]

Sometimes I wanna die.

Sure would save you a lot of trouble, huh?

[verbal ham]

I never live in the moment. Its really problematic, since it also means I am never satisfied or at ease. If I dont escape into my thoughts or to some fantasy about the past or future I just get bored with whatever I am doing. Anyone out there that can relate? I am trying to practice mindfulness and meditation to fight this problem, all suggestions are more than welcome.

I know exactly where you are coming from as I too once had the same problem.

When faced with boredome the mind naturally wonders towards anxieties of potienal future problems. To avoid this, we look for outside distractions to help pass the free time that we have. We then grow dependent on such distractions wether they be drugs & alcohol, novelty entertainments, killing time on the Internet, etc. however they distractions have a drug like effect...they wear off. We then constantly look more & more outside ourselves, eventually leading to an unsatisfactory way of life. The instant gratification of entertainment may be easier to take up, but leads us nowhere, constantly band-aiding a deeper problem within ourselves.

What you must do is find your niche and a purpose within yourself to be good at it. Something you are deeply passionate about wether it be a skill you would liketo learn, some form of art, or a long term goal. Then you must totally accept the fact that in order to gain a higher pleasure in life, you MUST ABSOLUTELY learn to endure hard practice & drudge work in order to master these things. You have to totally immerse yourself within your work. At first, doing so we be almost unbearably slow paced compared to your petty distractions, but not only are you learning this new skill, you are teaching yoursf self discipline that will last you a lifetime. Soon you will get better and start to notice your progress, motivating you to work even more. Your work then becomes more & more pleasurable as you grow more skilled and immerse yur mind into it. This is your new "distraction" except you are actually being productive and gaining the self discipline that will last you a lifetime. This in turn, leads you towards more long term happiness.


Excuse any typos in that shit as these walls of text become difficult to edit ona phone.

[verbal ham]

also i crashed into a parked car the other day

[Mole]

Sometimes I wanna die.

Sure would save you a lot of trouble, huh?

Precisely.

[Bronson]

I never live in the moment. Its really problematic, since it also means I am never satisfied or at ease. If I dont escape into my thoughts or to some fantasy about the past or future I just get bored with whatever I am doing. Anyone out there that can relate? I am trying to practice mindfulness and meditation to fight this problem, all suggestions are more than welcome.

I know exactly where you are coming from as I too once had the same problem.

When faced with boredome the mind naturally wonders towards anxieties of potienal future problems. To avoid this, we look for outside distractions to help pass the free time that we have. We then grow dependent on such distractions wether they be drugs & alcohol, novelty entertainments, killing time on the Internet, etc. however they distractions have a drug like effect...they wear off. We then constantly look more & more outside ourselves, eventually leading to an unsatisfactory way of life. The instant gratification of entertainment may be easier to take up, but leads us nowhere, constantly band-aiding a deeper problem within ourselves.

What you must do is find your niche and a purpose within yourself to be good at it. Something you are deeply passionate about wether it be a skill you would liketo learn, some form of art, or a long term goal. Then you must totally accept the fact that in order to gain a higher pleasure in life, you MUST ABSOLUTELY learn to endure hard practice & drudge work in order to master these things. You have to totally immerse yourself within your work. At first, doing so we be almost unbearably slow paced compared to your petty distractions, but not only are you learning this new skill, you are teaching yoursf self discipline that will last you a lifetime. Soon you will get better and start to notice your progress, motivating you to work even more. Your work then becomes more & more pleasurable as you grow more skilled and immerse yur mind into it. This is your new "distraction" except you are actually being productive and gaining the self discipline that will last you a lifetime. This in turn, leads you towards more long term happiness.


Excuse any typos in that shit as these walls of text become difficult to edit ona phone.

Thanks for taking the time to write that thorough point of view...currently Im pretty much working on being content during those times when I am in fact doing absolutely nothing. Thats a new one for me.

[Rumpleforeskin]

Sometimes I wanna die.

[Dr Steve Brule]

My dad who I don't get along great with, has nearly everything that belonged to my deceased brother.  I snuck and stole my brother's diaries from the several months leading up to his heroin overdose.

[enzone]

My dad who I don't get along great with, has nearly everything that belonged to my deceased brother.  I snuck and stole my brother's diaries from the several months leading up to his heroin overdose.

That's deep as hell dude.

I'm about to steal cigarettes from my mum.

[Participation]

lol i masterbated on chatroulette

[Participation]

im on efukt listening to lil wayne