Being an Antwan Dixon fan is similar to the book "Ask The Dust" by John Fonte. As much as Arturo Bandini (fan) loves Camilla Lopez (twan), and sees so much potential in her as a person, she just self destructs. At the end of the book, Bandini, just gets fed up and throws his book to the desert in her (twans) general direction. At some point, you just got to throw your book in twans general direction and say fuck it, pulling for him is a lost cause.