I'm really bored by/just over doing my menial admin assistant desk job. My superiors sometimes treat me shittily for no reason, the work is just so uninspiring, and I feel stuck in a rut. I serve tables on Fridays and Saturdays, and they just offered me full time shifts there. The plusses are that I'd be on a more similar schedule to my girlfriend who is a bartender, the money there is decent, there'd be plenty of flexibility schedule wise, the commute is shorter, I enjoy being able to be myself around my coworkers, and it would be easier to schedule future interviews for other 9-5 type jobs. The negatives are that I'd be giving up my health insurance, the pay wouldn't be quite as reliable, the overall pay would be slightly lower on average, and this could be a bad look on my resume down the line.
I told them I was interested in the shifts, but then was talking it over with the gf last night and decided maybe it's not the best idea for me. Now I have no idea what to do. I'm supposed to meet with my manager of the weekend gig today after work to talk about the shifts. I'm bummed that I'd be going back on my word by turning the shifts down now, but the prospect of giving up the relative stability of a 9-5 scares me. Then again, not doing something just because it scares me is kind of shitty too.
This is so insignificant compared to most things posted here/most other things in life, but it's got me stressed out. Thanks for taking the time to read me venting.
TL;DR: day job is boring and demeaning, night job is volatile, the future is uncertain, I'm being indecisive.