hey simon youre one of my favourite skaters so if theres anyone i wanna tell my problems to its to u. im 19, never been in a relation ship, have no friends, no sex life. i think i have tetanus and lockjaw and anemia. aparently girls think im very attractive butmaybe just cuz i skateboard because i dont know how to hold a conversation other than talk about myself and the boring things ive done. (one time a very nice and attractive girl was giving me 'signs' for a whole month in sumer school but since i cant pick up signs i blew that one). i dont think im gay snce when i see a nice ass i want to have sex with it and try my hardest to avoid rape fantasies. i have a voice inside my head that i rlly wana get rid of since i fear it will soon turn into two voices t hen multiply etc etc. i have an unhealthy obsession with hood culture videos and i think its really making me go insane. i do not watch any educational or uplifting content on youtube, only videos like this
Bloccs Projects & Ent Vol.2 DVD Intro Dedication to the Fallen Soldiers from Vol.1crips day in brownsville rip lo 6loccs part1..da product dvdim a huge fan of the editing style and content but
i fear its turning me into an autistic schizo wigger
people have told me i talk 'ghetto' and that concerns me as i was born into a white ffamily (although still poor)
also these are the only videos that bring joy into my life, and if i were to tell anyone i watch this kind of stuff on the daily and enjoy it
they would want nothing to do with me.. anyway
i see mental disorders in my near future and im not doing anything to help that
someone told me yoga is good for ur mind i might try it. but if i were to try the yoga i would have a dissonance with the lifetstyle portrayed in the videos i watch 24/7 and what is actually good for me. i am concerned!