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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3420 on: April 15, 2012, 07:57:52 PM »
Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.  My self esteem is at an all time low.  I don't know what to do.  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it

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« Reply #3421 on: April 15, 2012, 08:11:44 PM »
Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.  My self esteem is at an all time low.  I don't know what to do.  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3422 on: April 15, 2012, 08:16:01 PM »
Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.  My self esteem is at an all time low.  I don't know what to do.  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it

Drugs and drinking can possibly make this worse.


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« Reply #3423 on: April 16, 2012, 08:38:18 AM »
Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.?  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.?  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.?  My self esteem is at an all time low.?  I don't know what to do.?  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it
block her, I went through a rough break up. It has been so much better not being able to see what she is doing.

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« Reply #3424 on: April 16, 2012, 05:09:08 PM »
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Breakups used to be much easier before all of this social media bullshit.?  I got dumped out of the blue almost 7 months ago and I can't seem to get over it completely.?  It's made me really depressed, probably more so because I'm bummed that I can't get over her.?  My self esteem is at an all time low.?  I don't know what to do.?  I feel like a jerk even complaining about it
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block her, I went through a rough break up. It has been so much better not being able to see what she is doing.


Its abit weird , Started seeing this girl but it kinda went to shit . Now I have her on Facebook still and can see her updates . Which is pretty fucking crushing since she puts up pics all the time , and I get kinda jelouse when I see convos that she has with other dudes

Even weirder that completly dropping contact with me , and ignoring 2 PMs , she started "liking" my status  . wtf ...

Only keeping the FB cause I hope to try to pick it up with her at a later time in life ...


Best thing to get over girls is to go out and have fun . party and skate , work or go to school . Once you start getting laid again you usualy forget about the other girl

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3425 on: April 18, 2012, 10:24:52 AM »
I, like Leo Romero, can't turn my backside flips the entire 180 degrees...

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3426 on: April 22, 2012, 10:33:24 PM »
Real confession: I might have chuckled at one of meathead genious's posts. It was an out-of-body experience, it just kind of happened.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3427 on: April 24, 2012, 01:17:56 PM »
i like yo flips to fakie on tranny

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3428 on: April 24, 2012, 01:22:53 PM »
i like yo flips to fakie on tranny

time for an intervention

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« Reply #3429 on: April 24, 2012, 04:35:21 PM »
i like yo flips to fakie on tranny

Cody ? is that you ?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3430 on: April 25, 2012, 12:41:23 PM »
I live inside my head, in a fantasy world. In this world I idealize people, situations and most importantly myself. This leads to the real world making me disappointed and depressed everyday, making the world a pretty scary place. So what do I do? I retreat even more, inside of my head and isolate myself.

All my life I have been using a cognitive defense mechanism where I think that I am special and thus different (read: better) than everyone else. While I know I am special - everyone is, I know I am no better or worse than anyone else. But its a real hard way of thinking to learn out of.

I have a pretty bad self-esteem which I compensate with the above-mentioned way of thinking/fantasy

I need a constant creative outlet or I get depressed.

Lately Ive grinded my teeth a lot and my jaw constanly hurts.

I am in constant chest pain from anxiety and emotional pain (its a stinging kind of sensation above my heart). I feel emotional reactions extremely strongly (but my SSRI medicine has blunted some of these feelings out). I have a huge fear of being judged, but cant seem to feel happy when people give me praise or compliments. Essentially, theres a wall between me and other people.

I am very very good at analyzing other people, listening to their problems and offering them help. People seem to open up to me. Still, I always feel that I am missing a connection - most importantly an emotional connection with other people/the world. It kills.

I started a new temporary job guiding and councelling children. I am pretty good at it, but the loud noises of elementary school enviroment make me really stressed and occasionally dizzy. For the past couple of weeks I have felt so mentally tired after the (relatively short) workdays that I feel like I just need to go lie in my bed the rest of the day.

Writing almost always helps when I feel bad. Skating always helps too, but I cant really do it anymore and it contributes to my depression/social isolation in a major way.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3431 on: April 25, 2012, 09:05:27 PM »
Thinking about getting a vasectomy, then put in fake balls if that's possible (lol). I just really don't want to bring a child into this world, let alone be responsible for another person. I'm not a child person and I don't want to give a child all my time, resources, etc. If I ever do decided on wanting a child, I'll adopt. Yeah I'm still young, but I think heavily about things like this. In the end I'll probably back out.

Also not having sex was really bother me for months after my ex and I broke up. It was seriously stressing me out how I'll have a good sex life. Now I don't even care that much. Haven't given up on girls, just whatever happens, happens. I feel like a big weight has been lifted now that I dont care.

I'll be working towards a career in therapy, and I truly do enjoy helping people but I often wonder if this is the right career. I'm not set on any career. I've thought about being a mortician, a therapist, researcher, and something to do with travel. I'm almost done with my psychology degree and I feel that I've put in too much time and effort to see it go to waste. I love psychology though, just not sure.

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« Reply #3432 on: April 25, 2012, 10:57:04 PM »
Don't adopt, dude. If you're going to have a baby, make it count. Spray semen. Make it look like you. You're bringing a baby into "this world," but this world for you isn't a zombie farm in Haiti. Life isn't that bad. There's nothing inside of us that we haven't put there ourselves, except babies. The world is what you make it. Being depressed is favorable when you consider being dead. The more you pussyfoot around in this earth, the more likely it is that your atoms will be dispersed into a babies diaper when you die. Sex isn't just so your little peepee head feels good and you make funny faces. Bring a child into this motherfucker. There's nothing else.
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« Reply #3433 on: April 25, 2012, 11:36:58 PM »
Because all of the kids that are looking for families and want to be adopted aren't as much of people to you, can't have as much of an impact on your life, or carry on your legacy because they're not your genetic material? That's idiotic.

Crass-fuck it, adopt if you want a kid later on. Plus, if you get one that's not a baby, that kid will totally owe you for life.

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« Reply #3434 on: April 26, 2012, 12:07:31 AM »
Don't criticize my post unless you're making a point, dude. Crass never said he was genetically unable to reproduce. I'm singing the praises of the system of mammalia. Correct me if I'm wrong, Crass. I'm defending your nuts here.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3435 on: April 26, 2012, 12:12:57 AM »
Thinking about getting a vasectomy, then put in fake balls if that's possible (lol).

i don't think you understand what a vasectomy does.
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« Reply #3436 on: April 26, 2012, 01:07:22 AM »
two of my friends were adopted, and they are both complete dicks to their parents. 
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« Reply #3437 on: April 26, 2012, 08:48:23 AM »
two of my friends were adopted, and they are both complete dicks to their parents. 

The parents should return them and get their money back then.

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« Reply #3438 on: April 26, 2012, 11:01:10 AM »
I can reproduce. I was afraid of that, I didn't want to come off as a person that thinks times now are the worst ever. I guess it's more of taking care of a child. And I do care a little about passing on my genes but in the end it isn't that important. There's so many kids out there that would be happy to have a home and caring parents.

Oh shit, I've been misinformed for all these years. I thought a vasectomy got rid of your balls. a quick search on wiki and the doctor just snips something.

Well it's a gamble with any child, adoption or having your own. Some kids are easy to raise and others are really difficult.

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« Reply #3439 on: April 26, 2012, 12:24:11 PM »
Most kids ive known who are adopted have really loved their " fake " parents . And the parents really loved their "fake" kid . Its not all about that its your natural kid , theres more to being a parent or father then just putting seed in a woman . Tons of Fake parents who are more parents then the natural ones

that being said I would much rather have my own real kid then adopt . But I guess if it comes to adoption I would love that kid like my own .

Kids are nothing to be made light of . Crass you might not have met the right woman just now to have kids with . or marry or what ever . Think you can spend most time in life thinking you dont want wife and kids to then 1 year later have both and love it

As for a job . I fucking love my job so much but still have doubts now and then if I shouldnt have done something ells

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3440 on: April 26, 2012, 02:22:42 PM »
wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?

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« Reply #3441 on: April 26, 2012, 03:01:26 PM »
You're killing me, Crass.

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« Reply #3442 on: April 28, 2012, 03:02:55 AM »
Hey fellas, sorry to burst in again, but believe it or not I've found this thread in the forum to be really helpful in the past, and I actually think Sk8D000D was the one to convince me to go into rehab. Basically, when I was 17 I really fucking up my back. I used to totally be into stair jumping and rails, but when  I hurt my back one summer I got prescribed percocets, which, through a girl, who was a few years older than me at the time got me into Heroin. I was able to kick it during highschool, but freshmen year of college, I broke my hip, and lost some of the flow connections I was getting, and was supsequuently prescribed opana for a while which was tapered back into percs again. Around the same time I was smoking a ton of weed and it got to the point where It was facilitating in tons of anxiety and vomit inducing panic attacks, at which time I was prescribed xanax. Needless to say I got hooked on them as well, in addition to my already disturbingly deep alcohol addiction This really led to the delcline of my skating too. You know, I was never really too good, but I rode for a shop, and got some random rep flow product here and there, which I was obviously hyped on, and then my druggin stuff took me from that, and due to my poor body health I kept getting hurt.  But, My cheating girl kicked me out of my apartment fairly recently, ann things got quite worse. I have always had stomach and liver problems since birth, and after partying I would often wake up in Hospitals, being warned of my impending death. Thanks to this section of the forum, I was encouraged to go to detox, and have caught up in school, and am nearly finished with my IOP rehab on Monday! I've been skating really well lately and finally getting most of my old tricks back and even learning new ones. I'm on the right track, been working and did really well in school this semester, got a job, and and am moving back out of my parent;s house soon. I made it three months sober!... until tonight, when I decided to get benzo'd out of my fucking skull and smashed on some stoli. I'm not quite sure what to do at this point. I feel really really guilty. I'm not sure how to handle it. Lonliness has taken it's toll I guess. I don;t know guys. I'm only 20 and the last thing I want is to spend the rest of my life on this rollercoaster you know? I just feel really guilty and stupid. This shit has almost killed me so many times and I don;t really know what to do right now. I graduate from the rehab program moday and I feel like shit about it. I'm just a little lost and It's kindza scary. I really have some stuff I wanna do with my life, some bigger seemingly childish dreams, and i'M scared I just fucked everything Up I've been working for. Sorry for the huge diatribe fellas, just a lot to try to get some of this stuff out in a place I lreally love, and strangely enough feel kinda safe in.  
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3443 on: April 28, 2012, 11:33:31 AM »
wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?
This is the most shocking part of the whole conversation.

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« Reply #3444 on: April 28, 2012, 03:04:03 PM »
Hey fellas, sorry to burst in again, but believe it or not I've found this thread in the forum to be really helpful in the past, and I actually think Sk8D000D was the one to convince me to go into rehab. Basically, when I was 17 I really fucking up my back. I used to totally be into stair jumping and rails, but when  I hurt my back one summer I got prescribed percocets, which, through a girl, who was a few years older than me at the time got me into Heroin. I was able to kick it during highschool, but freshmen year of college, I broke my hip, and lost some of the flow connections I was getting, and was supsequuently prescribed opana for a while which was tapered back into percs again. Around the same time I was smoking a ton of weed and it got to the point where It was facilitating in tons of anxiety and vomit inducing panic attacks, at which time I was prescribed xanax. Needless to say I got hooked on them as well, in addition to my already disturbingly deep alcohol addiction This really led to the delcline of my skating too. You know, I was never really too good, but I rode for a shop, and got some random rep flow product here and there, which I was obviously hyped on, and then my druggin stuff took me from that, and due to my poor body health I kept getting hurt.  But, My cheating girl kicked me out of my apartment fairly recently, ann things got quite worse. I have always had stomach and liver problems since birth, and after partying I would often wake up in Hospitals, being warned of my impending death. Thanks to this section of the forum, I was encouraged to go to detox, and have caught up in school, and am nearly finished with my IOP rehab on Monday! I've been skating really well lately and finally getting most of my old tricks back and even learning new ones. I'm on the right track, been working and did really well in school this semester, got a job, and and am moving back out of my parent;s house soon. I made it three months sober!... until tonight, when I decided to get benzo'd out of my fucking skull and smashed on some stoli. I'm not quite sure what to do at this point. I feel really really guilty. I'm not sure how to handle it. Lonliness has taken it's toll I guess. I don;t know guys. I'm only 20 and the last thing I want is to spend the rest of my life on this rollercoaster you know? I just feel really guilty and stupid. This shit has almost killed me so many times and I don;t really know what to do right now. I graduate from the rehab program moday and I feel like shit about it. I'm just a little lost and It's kindza scary. I really have some stuff I wanna do with my life, some bigger seemingly childish dreams, and i'M scared I just fucked everything Up I've been working for. Sorry for the huge diatribe fellas, just a lot to try to get some of this stuff out in a place I lreally love, and strangely enough feel kinda safe in.  

Im stoked that I helped with your decision to detox. i feel you tho man, you live & you learn. You've been making progress towards turning your life around and will continue to do so as long as you maintain a positive mindset and try your best to stay focused. theres always gonna be regrets & setbacks in hindsight but at the end of the day you just have to turn those bad feelings into motivation to get on the right track. vividly remember how bad _______ felt so the next time you see yourself about to do something impulsive you have that in the back of your head as a reminder of the consequences. you've gotta good head on your shoulders LOU just stay positive & continue to make an effort at being more self-disciplined and over time everything will work out fine. you've got my support fam!

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3445 on: April 29, 2012, 01:01:04 PM »
Okay, I'm feeling a little bit down myself, though my situations seems like a dream come true compared to some of your confessions.

The problem I've got, is that I've spread my self too thin and now I'm paying for it. I'm a translator and have been working part time as a student for 2.5 years. Last year there were 5 months with no work and I started looking for an additional translation agency, just to be safe once my life as a student is over. Luckily enough, I now have one full time translating job and one part time (depends on available projects). This at times means I am super busy and have absolutely no time for anything else but chores.

This, of course, means I can't skateboard when the pressure is on - but more recently I've just lost so much of stamina, power and skill that getting back on my skate can be frustrating (mostly fun as ever though). The thin part is also due to my skate website I've been running for 11 years now and which always had a loyal following, only to have it diminish now, that I haven't got enough time to create original content (as much as I used too). Due to this website I've also invested quite some cash into photo and video equipment (which I now want to add to all the time), which I haven't got the opportunity to use much.

Lastly, I've moved in with my GF to another city (7 years spent in another with many great friends, while here there is only a whole lot of acquaintances) and now have to write my thesis or I'll be forced to pay back the last year of my scholarship. Also, when my workload is manageable, I find a way to postpone my work to the last second and have to forget about skateboarding again.

I know I'm not lazy (I just spend 1,5 h browsing the net "aimlessly", other than that I'm always doing something), but just this doing stuff on so many fronts seems like I'm not doing enough or anything really. Kinda brings my motivation down... /end rant, time to be productive.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3446 on: April 30, 2012, 11:13:02 AM »
wait, you thought a vasectomy was getting your balls cut off and you still wanted one?

that's like the time i finally manned up to get an STD test only to find out the swab pleasantly palpated my dong.

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« Reply #3447 on: May 13, 2012, 09:04:54 AM »
I've only ever drank a couple of gulps of alcohol here and there and only ever had one shot, but lately I've really been wanting to get drunk. Like really drunk, like in the movies drunk. I don't know why, but it's kind of hard when my parents only ever keep red wine in the house.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #3448 on: May 13, 2012, 10:40:38 AM »
just find a god'amn hobo.  theyll buy you a fifth of kentucky deluxe, for a shooter or two of course.  your recomended doasge to get drunk would probably be a fifth of kentucky deluxe for your head.  finest bourbon youll find.

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« Reply #3449 on: May 13, 2012, 11:55:08 AM »
I've only ever drank a couple of gulps of alcohol here and there and only ever had one shot, but lately I've really been wanting to get drunk. Like really drunk, like in the movies drunk. I don't know why, but it's kind of hard when my parents only ever keep red wine in the house.

Oh how it is to be young and innocent, don't worry you'll get your chance and you'll never want to drink again.

Real talk gentlemen, the man behind the David Schwimmer account has been sober for two weeks (even weed), and moving to a place in Long Beach. It's the happiest he's ever been.


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