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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7830 on: September 24, 2018, 08:27:57 PM »
I've been having gnarly anxiety over my new retail job, I had to take a shot of liquor before my shift today just to have the balls to go in, Currently on my 10 min break and I'm bugging out because I'm sober and still have another hour left

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7831 on: September 25, 2018, 06:57:01 AM »
I've been having gnarly anxiety over my new retail job, I had to take a shot of liquor before my shift today just to have the balls to go in, Currently on my 10 min break and I'm bugging out because I'm sober and still have another hour left
Drink a beer and smoke a cig before you go to work. Used to work for me, but i'm not smoking during the week days anymore.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7832 on: September 25, 2018, 08:35:49 AM »
Don't know about nicotine, can raise the anxiety. Overall, I cannot recommend adding more vices than you already have, Silks.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7833 on: September 25, 2018, 09:04:05 AM »
all roads lead to the same places silky but i'd recommend a quick jog over a beer. that's not to say most of my life i haven't chosen the beer and cheated my way through stuff. excercise will raise your spirits though and not leave you wanting a nap an hour later.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7834 on: September 25, 2018, 09:08:23 AM »
I've had some close friends that have had issues with alcohol. I can tell you that needing a drink before work is a straight ticket to alcoholism. Would not recommend it.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7835 on: September 25, 2018, 09:12:03 AM »
I'm 17 and in senior year, already know what i'm gonna do, just fuckin freakin out about shit like finding a place. I'm a virgin and i feel like shit about it. I wish i could party with the cool kids but i simultaneously hate all of them. People only seem to somewhat like me because i'm kinda funny and musically talented. Life is weird.

I didn't loose my virginity until I was like 19-20, you got time. Besides, focusing on school is way more important than partying. Get your shit done, than party. In college, the party will find you no doubt.. but like most pros have said in interviews, it's not entirely worth it.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7836 on: September 25, 2018, 01:18:02 PM »
I've been having gnarly anxiety over my new retail job, I had to take a shot of liquor before my shift today just to have the balls to go in, Currently on my 10 min break and I'm bugging out because I'm sober and still have another hour left

I'd like to hear more about it, Silky. My retail job is also, perhaps unsurprisingly, not ideal.

Increasingly, I feel like I dislike everyone... or that I am not having genuine interactions with people, especially my coworkers. I think my demeanor is repellant.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7837 on: September 25, 2018, 10:22:47 PM »
I've never been the most social person but I can maintain a conversation if need be even if it's painfully uncomfortable, but since I've started this gig I have no idea what my issue is I can barely speak to customers without my voice shaking or getting knots in my stomach, I'm getting really close to saying fuck it and bailing but I'm really hurting financially right now.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7838 on: September 25, 2018, 11:51:36 PM »
I've never been the most social person but I can maintain a conversation if need be even if it's painfully uncomfortable, but since I've started this gig I have no idea what my issue is I can barely speak to customers without my voice shaking or getting knots in my stomach, I'm getting really close to saying fuck it and bailing but I'm really hurting financially right now.
I know it can be hard when your voice does weird shit and you get flummoxed when you're trying to do your best, but, I have a strategy for you.
You are not going to get fired for your voice shaking and none of these people are going to care or remember it by the time they get home. Knowing this you should concentrate on trying to remember your interactions day by day so you can tell them as a story to your friends and family and laugh about it later. If it becomes a good story to tell later on nothing bad has happened.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7839 on: September 26, 2018, 11:03:42 AM »
Appreciate the responses fellas, hopefully I'll adjust just gotta weather the initial storm

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7840 on: September 27, 2018, 09:24:35 PM »
Appreciate the responses fellas, hopefully I'll adjust just gotta weather the initial storm

I had been struggling with pretty severe stage fright for years when I got a job as a designer on a small agency. This meant that I would have to be the one doing the pitching and presentations for the clients - I was shitting bricks.

Had many sleepless nights before these meetings, being so nervous getting nervous during the meeting, that I would be at home having panic attacks.

One day I realized that 1. Nobody but me ever noticed all the signs of me balancing on the edge of a breakdown that I thought were so fucking obvious (and thus awkward/embarrassing); 2. even if they did, they didn't give a fuck and 3. If they did give a fuck - fuck em cause they shouldn't. And most importantly - it is completely fine for it to be silence in the room - you don't have to talk constantly, saying all the right things.

But maybe that wasn't at all related to what you're going through?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7841 on: September 28, 2018, 12:19:34 PM »
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Appreciate the responses fellas, hopefully I'll adjust just gotta weather the initial storm
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I had been struggling with pretty severe stage fright for years when I got a job as a designer on a small agency. This meant that I would have to be the one doing the pitching and presentations for the clients - I was shitting bricks.

Had many sleepless nights before these meetings, being so nervous getting nervous during the meeting, that I would be at home having panic attacks.

One day I realized that 1. Nobody but me ever noticed all the signs of me balancing on the edge of a breakdown that I thought were so fucking obvious (and thus awkward/embarrassing); 2. even if they did, they didn't give a fuck and 3. If they did give a fuck - fuck em cause they shouldn't. And most importantly - it is completely fine for it to be silence in the room - you don't have to talk constantly, saying all the right things.

But maybe that wasn't at all related to what you're going through?
Related or not, it's great advice for social anxiety/stage fright. The stakes are usually way lower than they seem.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7842 on: September 28, 2018, 12:57:29 PM »
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Appreciate the responses fellas, hopefully I'll adjust just gotta weather the initial storm
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I had been struggling with pretty severe stage fright for years when I got a job as a designer on a small agency. This meant that I would have to be the one doing the pitching and presentations for the clients - I was shitting bricks.

Had many sleepless nights before these meetings, being so nervous getting nervous during the meeting, that I would be at home having panic attacks.

One day I realized that 1. Nobody but me ever noticed all the signs of me balancing on the edge of a breakdown that I thought were so fucking obvious (and thus awkward/embarrassing); 2. even if they did, they didn't give a fuck and 3. If they did give a fuck - fuck em cause they shouldn't. And most importantly - it is completely fine for it to be silence in the room - you don't have to talk constantly, saying all the right things.

But maybe that wasn't at all related to what you're going through?
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Related or not, it's great advice for social anxiety/stage fright. The stakes are usually way lower than they seem.
this is what i tell myself when i'm freaking out over some prospective social situation or something i said or did that i feel like people are judging me for. the gist is basically that it's egotistical and unrealistic to assume everyone is thinking about you all the time down to the same level of granular detail that you do. it's good to remember the truth, which is that nobody gives a fuck about you.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7843 on: September 28, 2018, 07:01:26 PM »
i freeball about 85% of the time

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7844 on: September 28, 2018, 07:31:25 PM »
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Appreciate the responses fellas, hopefully I'll adjust just gotta weather the initial storm
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I had been struggling with pretty severe stage fright for years when I got a job as a designer on a small agency. This meant that I would have to be the one doing the pitching and presentations for the clients - I was shitting bricks.

Had many sleepless nights before these meetings, being so nervous getting nervous during the meeting, that I would be at home having panic attacks.

One day I realized that 1. Nobody but me ever noticed all the signs of me balancing on the edge of a breakdown that I thought were so fucking obvious (and thus awkward/embarrassing); 2. even if they did, they didn't give a fuck and 3. If they did give a fuck - fuck em cause they shouldn't. And most importantly - it is completely fine for it to be silence in the room - you don't have to talk constantly, saying all the right things.

But maybe that wasn't at all related to what you're going through?
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Related or not, it's great advice for social anxiety/stage fright. The stakes are usually way lower than they seem.
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this is what i tell myself when i'm freaking out over some prospective social situation or something i said or did that i feel like people are judging me for. the gist is basically that it's egotistical and unrealistic to assume everyone is thinking about you all the time down to the same level of granular detail that you do. it's good to remember the truth, which is that nobody gives a fuck about you.
I think that's just a lie people tell themselves. I remember many single interactions with people where I was like "this persons awesome" or "this persons a nervous wreck".

Best u can do silky is try and learn how to mold yourself over time in that postition. My first retail job I was awkward until I got into routine and could try different angles on people. Then I was dropping milf panties in no time, and now I got a crazy talent for talking to randoms. Basically my rules are pure openness and honesty, no room for awkwardness when your honest all the time, maybe for them but not for you. You can really kill em with honest compliments on things people probably never compliment them on.

Like for a hot girl you never compliment her looks but something else about her etc, etc.

Rare compliments.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7845 on: September 28, 2018, 09:18:23 PM »
Some obese guy with C-cups, and rolled up skinny jeans, pointed at me before telling his boyfriend, “That guy is dressed like an ass.”

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7846 on: September 28, 2018, 09:24:17 PM »
Some obese guy with C-cups, and rolled up skinny jeans, pointed at me before telling his boyfriend, “That guy is dressed like an ass.”
Should've told him you aren't a mirror.

Silky I'm late to the party,  but I hope you can shake off whats getting to you

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7847 on: September 28, 2018, 09:27:37 PM »
Some obese guy with C-cups, and rolled up skinny jeans, pointed at me before telling his boyfriend, “That guy is dressed like an ass.”

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What kind of mikey taylor logic is this?

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7848 on: September 29, 2018, 09:18:37 PM »
I enjoy "Famous Monsters" by Misfits.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7849 on: September 30, 2018, 12:41:36 AM »
I never become good at anything, just a bit above average.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7850 on: September 30, 2018, 04:57:46 PM »
Get some lil cease, ambulance outside of buffet, drive by, fat lady in pastel on stretcher, laugh my ass off, don't feel bad about it.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7851 on: September 30, 2018, 09:21:57 PM »
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7852 on: October 01, 2018, 03:11:15 AM »
I enjoy "Famous Monsters" by Misfits.

I don’t see anything wrong with this

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7853 on: October 01, 2018, 03:24:20 AM »
I thought it would be fun to put 56mm wheels on my early 90's phawt board but it's bummed me out and ruined it for me. It will now live in the Fritzel cupboard till next spring.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7854 on: October 02, 2018, 03:38:24 AM »
i think i will always be an addict, it sucks.  i want to be good and do better and be a normal person but i always sabotage myself.  it's like i thrive living like a crazy person.  i never feel normal or can relax, on drugs or not.  sorry, just had to vent. 

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7855 on: October 02, 2018, 01:27:30 PM »
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7856 on: October 03, 2018, 07:25:57 PM »
All those articles of clothes are cool on their own, but are a bit too much as one fit, in my opinion.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7857 on: October 03, 2018, 07:40:17 PM »
All those articles of clothes are cool on their own, but are a bit too much as one fit, in my opinion.
I just buy whatever shit from whatever companies I’m stoked on at the moment because I almost always go back to DLX boards. Plus, soft goods are more profitable. Also, I just realized that the shit I wore that day (minus the shoes) runs about $250, and I don’t think I’m getting that Polar fleece back.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7858 on: October 04, 2018, 06:32:51 PM »
He was jealous of your style.
Often fools will call some one out on something they are self conscious about, like the closeted dude who expresses his homophobia too often. He was feeling down and dirty, squeezed into the skinny jeans he fantasizes he can pull off although are more reminiscent of over packed rolls of sausage, anxious if the dampness under his moobs is showing through his shirt, and needed to bring someone down to his level.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #7859 on: October 05, 2018, 07:41:21 PM »
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Appreciate the responses fellas, hopefully I'll adjust just gotta weather the initial storm
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I had been struggling with pretty severe stage fright for years when I got a job as a designer on a small agency. This meant that I would have to be the one doing the pitching and presentations for the clients - I was shitting bricks.

Had many sleepless nights before these meetings, being so nervous getting nervous during the meeting, that I would be at home having panic attacks.

One day I realized that 1. Nobody but me ever noticed all the signs of me balancing on the edge of a breakdown that I thought were so fucking obvious (and thus awkward/embarrassing); 2. even if they did, they didn't give a fuck and 3. If they did give a fuck - fuck em cause they shouldn't. And most importantly - it is completely fine for it to be silence in the room - you don't have to talk constantly, saying all the right things.

But maybe that wasn't at all related to what you're going through?

One thing that helped me with stage fright is picturing myself in the opposite situation (being in the audience). I’ve noticed that when I watch someone else do a presentation I eventually stop paying attention and daydream the rest of the time. I don’t know if it’s common for people to do that, but whenever I have to present something now, I just picture the audience daydreaming and not paying attention to me (regardless if they really are or not) and it helps me tremendously.