I'll repeat what some others have said: If you're just starting, and you aren't motivated, you might wanna rethink your choice. Skateboarding called to me for a couple of years before my parents would even let me have a board (danger aspect), and once I started, I couldn't stop, skating for hours each day. That motivation level usually fades, so it won't get any easier for you. However, if you feel that spark, go with it. The more you skate, the less afraid/better you'll be, and that will just build on itself. Good luck!