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Think of it like this, imagine if you were in a class in high school where one kid always had all the girls around him, paying all this attention to him, and you tried to walk up and get in on one of their conversations and get a little of that attention. Even if you had the best intentions, and weren't trying to overshadow or hate on this dude at all, he'd still be incredibly defensive by acting too-cool and that's how I get treated by everyone in skateboarding around here. That's what I meant by how I'm percieved as a threat. I'm always kind of looked at with a pshhh attitude suconsciously in people's body language and demeanor towards me like, "What's this guy got that I'm not way better at?" And now that there genuinely is something I have that not many other people can step to that attitude has become even worse, but it appears to be more as a result of insecurity rather than any of these people just happening to be douchebags. I don't think anyone is really a douche, it's just genuinely difficult not to be self concious like that, ya know? Especially when the prevailing mentality that skateboarding conditions us all to have is one of selfishness, and wanting to get all we can for ourselves a la Sean Harris.
I know I'm talking to a wall and wasting my time and I'm a moron for it, but it's otherworldly how little self-consciousness you possess.
Ok, to extrapolate upon your analogy; the cool kid with all the girls around him (I'm assuming this is meant to represent shop workers and sponsored skaters) isn't giving you the stink eye because he perceives you as a threat, it's because you're a socially crippled and self deluded dweeb. And to take this further, he only allows you to hang around with him because he needs you to do his homework (in this case, putting together inexcusably embarrassing youtube clips). But the thing is, he's getting bad grades because of you AND he's losing social standing by being seen with you - your days are numbered.
And really, you think your little clips are "masterpieces"? Put aside the fact that they're simply amateurish and awful, do you have any clue how wrongheaded and flat out unacceptable it is for any sort of artist or creator to claim their own work as a "masterpiece"? That is about the highest praise one can pay to anything and should be used as sparingly as possible. To pay it to yourself makes you a sociopath.
It's funny how you can say something like that with absolute certainty about a person you've even even met. It is you, my friend, who is the sociopath for seriously believing in these ill-informed things you continue to say. I have a gift and denying that would be like slapping God in the face. I'd be somewhat inclined to listen to your ceaseless diatribe and constant degredation of my talent were it not for the fact that I've had other people (many of whom I've never even met or heard of) telling me my entire life that the things I create are masterpieces. I've had very little doubt of that throughout my entire life thanks to a constant stream of support from my peer group, and your negativity is doing very little to encourage the doubt you so desperately seek. Oh, and you know who else just happened to refer to his own works as masterpieces? Mozart. But God knows you'll probly start saying Mozart sucks now, because judging by your unwaivering and therefore apperantly intrinsic attitude I'm sure you've never had the good taste to even listen to his music. Therefore, my buying into your little dimensia here would be the same as if a person were white, but envied black people so much their entire life that they didn't want to believe they were white even though people had been telling them their whole lives they were white. Now, I'm not going to go so far as to say that my referring to the things I've created as masterpieces isn't a little cocky, and I could definitely benefit from having a little more envy for the humble, but we're all guilty of a certain amount of pride. However, compared to your delusion, that you've have seriously convinced yourself you know anything about the quality of my character, I can now know with 100% certainty know that what I am suffering from is no more than a little bit of pride mixed with a healthy dose of self respect, and it is definitely not sociopathic in any way, shape, or form. At least, not compared to your fevered bullshittings. Seriously though dude, aren't you tired yet? God knows I am and I didn't even start this. You came at me with this bullshit to begin with and I've just been trying to keep up the entire time. That was even before I tossed you some ammo by letting a little bit of my pride in my work slip. Ever since that happened you've just been having a field day of hate. What is your purpose dude? I don't get it. At least I'm trying to do some good in the world and not only am I succeeding, but now successful people who have paved the way before me are starting to take notice and offer me opportunities. What is it that you've been doing with your life that makes you so high and mighty to take me down for no reason whatsoever? I mean, I could fully understand your position if I had started this, but I only ever reciprocated to your pre-emptive hate strike. Serously, why don't you just throw your computer out the window right now and go do something meaningful with your life? I'm telling you that, at the rate your sinking, you will more than likely not have had any postiive impact on the world when you're dead and gone, and no one wants to die sad and alone, not remembered by anyone other than their family and maybe a handful of their immediate circle of friends. Judging from the opinions you voice on here I'd be surprised if even your parents truly enjoy your company. You seem like a pretty abrasive personality, and that coupled with the nature of youth generally results in intergenerational conflict between parents and their children. Not only could you benefit from thinking about who would remember you when you die, but also how they will remember you. Now I don't presume to know how your relationship with your parents is going but would you really want them to breathe a sigh of relief if you got hit by a train tomorrow? And that's most likely how they will react if you interact with them in any fashion similar to how you behave on here. God knows if I said things even half as fucked up as some of the shit you've said on here, and I knew my parents knew about it, I would trade any and every expression of art as well as any feelings of joy or material possesion that art might have brought me just to be able to regain what I had with my parents. I'm telling you dude, you don't want to be a burden on humanity. Don't be a dead possum or a turd floating in the human gene pool. If you quit while you're ahead, that might still be possible someday. Until then, I will continue doing what it is that I've always done, secure in the knowledge that this message board is nothing more than a joke. A hilarious grain of sand in the hourglass of existence. Is that one grain of sand all you want to waste the best energies of your life on??? I surely hope not.