Nah, she still grabbed it and forced it in a few times. It didn't last very long, but my tiny dick was inside of her so I'm counting that. Even if it truly is mental gymnastics on my part for a slight bit of confidence for the future. And I didn't just start fisting her immediately. It progressed to that and her gravelly wheezes of "I'm going to cum, don't stop" etc. indicated to me she was about it. IDK.
Also, I realized earlier that she had a lip piercing and it cut my tongue so I wasn't puking blood, there was just blood in my puke.
But I'm going to keep using Tinder because there was absolutely nothing before that and the string of bad, uncomfortable dates and handful of awkward sexual experiences, for the time, is better than that nothingness. So although I am absolutely clueless, I wouldn't say I'm bewildered by the concept. I can barely even talk to girls I don't want to fuck. It's not a surprise to me to be this dumb and awkward with interactions that go beyond that. But, yeah, I should probably be a bit more picky and pass on girls I'm not that into.
As someone who was near the bottom of the social heap and clueless around girls myself, I have some advice (if you want it) that I would have liked to have known when I was horny as all fuck and couldn’t talk to girls.
1- it looks like you forced your way into a fuck situation against your better instincts. Hopefully you now know it’s not worth it, so learning that makes the experience a tiny bit beneficial. Plus, it only gets better than that.
2- dealing with mentally stable people is hard enough, much less people that may be depressed. And that goes for when you are depressed as well. Although it’s a bit of a vicious circle, you will not be very attractive to other people when your down, and you won’t be able to give much of yourself to them either even if you do date. So whoever is glum, give that person time to recover before diving into sex (especially if that person is yourself)
My advice is to take your time next time. Despite what your hormones are screaming at you, sex is not just physical, it is hugely mental too. It makes it so much better if you can laugh and relax around the person.
3- Talk to all girls. Cute ones, ones you feel neutral about, ones you aren’t attracted to. I’m sure you do the same for guys. They are just humans. And they have experiences that you will never have. You can learn a lot of good info from people whose pants you aren’t trying to get into.
Get to know them, what makes them tick, what they like and don’t like, and why. What makes them happy and sad, and how do their hormones change their feelings, when they are in the pill or on the rag.
You’ll get better at talking (and very importantly, LISTENING), and with any luck some empathy for what they go through. And many, many women like that.
4- Although I tried to ignore it, I’ve had to admit to myself that half of sex is an ego trip, and half pleasure. Having someone find you attractive enough (in theory) to allow you access to their most private areas of their body is a trip. It’s a bit of a substitute for actual affection, which is especially appealing when you’ve been rejected by your peers for a long time.
Speaking for myself,I’ve let that ego trip and it’s dark side, rejection, grow to unreasonable levels where I cannot attain any of the fantasies I’ve made up, and am crushed by the rejection I’ve built up just as much.
If you have the same problem as I do, just try to find predictable patterns in how you think. Because if you’re like me, those same fantasies and self-loathing repeats itself very clearly. Just be aware of it.
Good luck. Just talk to more girls, that’s the first step to not just getting laid, to finding the right person to get with.
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