- No one to skate with. I moved to a new town 2 years ago. I'm not very talkative. The kids here only smoke weed and do drugs on the park. And they're too good. I'm the straight edge, jacked old guy. Not really fitting in. And it sucks ...
- Scans to track my GF's cancer are coming up. The "4 year scans". Very important because a lot of girls relapse around this time. It's unbearable. I don't smoke, do drugs or drink to numb the pain. It's harsh reality day in day out .. a lot to bear.
- also cancer related. My gf and I haven't been intimate in 4 years. Since the cancer, her body changed drastically, which is very normal. It's horrible what she's been through. But she doesn't feel comfortable with her looks. Because it's a gynaecological cancer she 's in her menopause which causes weight gain, holding up fluids etc. Like I said a lot has changed and I feel terrible that my libido took a major dive and "passion" does not get awakened anymore. I feel like an absolute jerk about it, but I can't help it. I still love her and I would never cheat on her either. It's not the easiest topic to talk about and it's always the elephant in the room. That's for sure ...
- Bought a house that we renovated completely, we were hoping the roof would hold up a few years. Boom a storm hit and we have to pay 38000 euros on top of what the insurance gave us. I don't have 38000 euros laying around.
- Next year, also because of the cancer, we're going to try to have a baby through a surrogate mother. This also going to be very expensive and I don't really know what to do ... I have a good job that pays well. but not THAT well.
Lots to stress about and it sucks.