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everything i eat tastes like cardboard. it really sucks, because i just lost a ton of weight and i need to gain some back as soon as possible. i can only get through a couple bites of food before it feels like I'm going to throw up.
So the new treatment isn't going to well?
no, i think the treatment might be working a little bit. its still really soon, so I don't want to jinx it or anything. i'm still having a lot of digestive problems, but its slightly different than usual. I don't have the same constant abdominal pain 24/7, and instead of having to goto the bathroom 3-4 times an hour, its more like once an hour or two. It still hurts like hell, but at least I'm getting out of bed a little bit. the main problems I'm having is the food thing, and also my mouth is really dry no matter how much water i drink. It gets so dry it makes me dry heave. Also nighttime is really hard because I can only sleep an hour or so at a time before my stomach wakes me up. Its very frustrating, but nothing compared to what I was going through a couple weeks ago. I seriously wanted to kill myself the pain was so bad. I think overall I'm finally starting to show some progress, but I'm just on so many different medications its fucking me up a little bit. I'm also in a fucked up mental state...its kind of like i'm scared to get better or something. I've had to put all of my problems on hold for the past 2 years, and now that it might be coming to an end they're all going to come crashing down on me. I'm just worrying a lot about what I'm going to do once this is all over. I kind of feel like an inmate thats just about to get released from prison. Its all just really confusing, and all the meds I'm on aren't helping. Still, its a step in the right direction ...