I have a friend who’s a nurse at a live in care home for the disabled and elderly who’s got a serious coke issue and he knows it. He’ll talk to us about how he wants to stop the bullshit, 3 beers later he disappears into the bathroom to make a discrete phone call and comes back all “I fucked up guys I’m gonna go meet someone in a few”
Rest of the night he’s an insufferable dickhead who doesn’t let you get half a sentence in before he either interrupts you or starts talking loudly about a wildly different subject to someone sitting nearby so EVERYONE in the room has to listen. Then the euphoria hits after a few more beers and he starts making plans to get breakfast the next morning, go golfing, go on a hike, get good food and come back later on and play some Gran Turismo and watch a movie or some shit while we grill. Never happens cause he stays up all night shoving shit up his nose and doesn’t get out of bed until 6pm because he’s so fucked up from the night before and can’t answer his phone.
Cokeheads are seriously the most annoying motherfucking people I’ve ever had to deal with but that doesn’t mean I want my boy to die. I’ve told him about this shit and tried to have a conversation about how he’s changed since he started hitting the snow, how much of a pain in the ass he is having us wait on him for plans he makes on top of various other shit he’s done, and he swears up and down he gets pure shit and shuts the whole conversation down after that, then drives away to the bar when 3 hours prior he’s crying about not wanting to lose his fiancee and his house.
YOU HAVE TO WANT THE HELP.
That’s it - agree 100%
Your text gave me goosebumps- you totally describe my youth- I was surrounded by to manny coke heads.
Good people I grow up skating with- but sooner or late the disappearing in the bathroom starts- and then it was going down with them..
Nobody of them is in a loving and healthy relationship to a partner and family, build up career to feed kids - and of course is not skating with me.
I am only skating with the people who stoped fucking up themself latest in the late 20s.
If you already in your 30s and still consuming - get off.
Or you will end alone and fucked up sooner or later.
I don’t judge. It’s just my observation of myself and my friend cycle. I have done it all - intensive or just once - but between 16-25 - since 20 years I am off everything- having 2-4 beer and 2-3 per year.
Everyone who got off shit in the early late 20s was able to build up a proper life. And we still have a good relationship and enjoy each other.
People who never get off still consuming frequently in the late 30s - are all fucked up. Calling me once a year and talking about a glory / dream past - the have already slept half the day- and I was already skating with other guys. Or even worse begging for money.
I keep the contact to all of them - pick them up early in the day, invite them for a proper lunch. That’s all I can do for them.