Mental Health Issues

[TheCrimsonShroud]

I have OCD, anxiety, and depression. Maybe more but really, ain't that enough? Lots of shit in this thread resonates with me. Especially the correlation between desiring control and having nowhere to direct righteous anger/disappointment.

[element4life]

I think the internet's quasi anonymity contributes to peoples mental health issues because it gives you this weird opportunity to cultivate a secondary (or multiple) digital persona. If you start comparing this fictional means of escapism to your actual life and self it's going create conflict.

[SpankerChief]

See this scenario is what gives me anxiety and makes me a shutin sometimes especially if I am having a manic moment.  It seems that people who are already depressed, or just overall unhappy have the worst luck. Like some people really do get "Dealt a bad hand". I don't know about you guys, but sometimes my life is so negative and seemingly anti-me that it has almost becomes a joke. Some days are so bad I seriously take a step back and laugh and think this must be some fucked joke and all my suffering doesn't actually mean anything. This might sound stupid, but are some people just meant to have a shitty life? I don't get it. I know people that are pretty scummy, but always seem to have the best luck and opportunities come their way.

For example I could mind my business either at a park or at a job and some dipshit has a nosey comment of why don't you cheer up? or why don't you bring so and so to our boring shit talking event? which usually leads me to say 1. it's none of their business 2. it's not your business 3. you ask again go fuck yourself my problems aren't your business and my personal life has nothing to do with others.


I feel like I'm being relentlessly punished for no reason, and the more I try to make these situations positive, the more negative they become. I feel despair constantly of my expectations and mostly gave up on hope, because every other time I hoped for something, it never happens and it hurts waaaaaay more because I had hoped/expected for a better outcome. I'm just kind of getting over all of it. I don't know how much longer I want to be here.

Yeah it becomes a halfassed cry for attention or hey I need a kind word or two, buttttttt it falls on deaf ears. I mean I have a rad partner and a few friends I text here and there they lookout but I feel bad to overwhelm them with my bs and I stay silent and suffer alone.

[TheCrimsonShroud]

I think the internet's quasi anonymity contributes to peoples mental health issues because it gives you this weird opportunity to cultivate a secondary (or multiple) digital persona. If you start comparing this fictional means of escapism to your actual life and self it's going create conflict.

This can happen irl too. I grew up in a bad environment and basically had to compartmentalize my personality. I mean, everyone has a side they show their friends/family/etc. but that can become blown out of proportion and spiral out of control.

Definitely happens online as well. You eventually wake up one day and wonder if there's a "real" you. If you lost them, buried them, or shattered them like a mirror.

[Suave]

See this scenario is what gives me anxiety and makes me a shutin sometimes especially if I am having a manic moment.  It seems that people who are already depressed, or just overall unhappy have the worst luck. Like some people really do get "Dealt a bad hand". I don't know about you guys, but sometimes my life is so negative and seemingly anti-me that it has almost becomes a joke. Some days are so bad I seriously take a step back and laugh and think this must be some fucked joke and all my suffering doesn't actually mean anything. This might sound stupid, but are some people just meant to have a shitty life? I don't get it. I know people that are pretty scummy, but always seem to have the best luck and opportunities come their way.

For example I could mind my business either at a park or at a job and some dipshit has a nosey comment of why don't you cheer up? or why don't you bring so and so to our boring shit talking event? which usually leads me to say 1. it's none of their business 2. it's not your business 3. you ask again go fuck yourself my problems aren't your business and my personal life has nothing to do with others.


I feel like I'm being relentlessly punished for no reason, and the more I try to make these situations positive, the more negative they become. I feel despair constantly of my expectations and mostly gave up on hope, because every other time I hoped for something, it never happens and it hurts waaaaaay more because I had hoped/expected for a better outcome. I'm just kind of getting over all of it. I don't know how much longer I want to be here.

Yeah it becomes a halfassed cry for attention or hey I need a kind word or two, buttttttt it falls on deaf ears. I mean I have a rad partner and a few friends I text here and there they lookout but I feel bad to overwhelm them with my bs and I stay silent and suffer alone.

like bobby light said 'you create your own luck'. if you think bad, you're gonna receive bad. if you manifest a happy life, you'll live it. try to be positive. sometimes it's easier said than done but i've seen in my own life if you're not blaming other people or the world or society you'll thrive. sorry you're still going through patches. hope it passes sooner than later. leave you w/ this quote.
'if you hate the world, the world will hate your ass back.' - jim goad

[SpankerChief]

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like bobby light said 'you create your own luck'. if you think bad, you're gonna receive bad. if you manifest a happy life, you'll live it. try to be positive. sometimes it's easier said than done but i've seen in my own life if you're not blaming other people or the world or society you'll thrive. sorry you're still going through patches. hope it passes sooner than later. leave you w/ this quote.
'if you hate the world, the world will hate your ass back.' - jim goad
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that is quite a profound way of looking at it. as you say it's easier said then done but damned if those times where I was indifferent and oblivious shit just kinda fell into place without much effort.  A few bumps here and there but ultimately what does it really matter? not jack shit in the bigger scheme of things.

[the snake]

Be happy with what you are/have and  don't give a fuck about the rest, everyone have weak days, just keep doing  positive stuff, it's just life

[slippy]

Definitely agree with the sentiments here that any advice especially about mental health advice being much easier said than done.  I know for me, things can get qualified as "good" or "bad" based on only the outcome.  For example, I hate my job, I've sent applications, felt in limbo while they're out and a rejection feels like a complete failure.  Lately though, by looking at each step as an individual event, just the act of sending the application, following up, connecting on Linkedin, etc. each feel like little victories that make me feel good and motivated to try again.  The fact that it doesn't work out hasn't felt as defeating as it did before and my mental health is better for it.

[TheCrimsonShroud]

Definitely agree with the sentiments here that any advice especially about mental health advice being much easier said than done.  I know for me, things can get qualified as "good" or "bad" based on only the outcome.  For example, I hate my job, I've sent applications, felt in limbo while they're out and a rejection feels like a complete failure.  Lately though, by looking at each step as an individual event, just the act of sending the application, following up, connecting on Linkedin, etc. each feel like little victories that make me feel good and motivated to try again.  The fact that it doesn't work out hasn't felt as defeating as it did before and my mental health is better for it.

Compartmentalizing events/triggers/etc is great advice. I've also tried looking at the worst realistic outcome for something and becoming at peace with it. Whatever comes to pass it's almost always better than I'd prepared for and I'm pleasantly surprised.

[Dustwardprez]

My Psychiatrist my Psychologist  and my PCP all gave me shit today. They say I should contribute more to life than riding my skateboard and stealing. They are punishing me by taking away my benzos though I have never tested negative in 20 years meaning I don’t sell them.
They say it’s killing my drive but they don’t understand.

Fuck selling art fuck being a graphic designer fuck painting shoes for dope dealers. I’m not ever ever going back to work.
 I want to die a 80 year old hill bombing freight painting show going bum

[givecigstosurfgroms]

My Psychiatrist my Psychologist  and my PCP all gave me shit today. They say I should contribute more to life than riding my skateboard and stealing. They are punishing me by taking away my benzos though I have never tested negative in 20 years meaning I don’t sell them.
They say it’s killing my drive but they don’t understand.

Fuck selling art fuck being a graphic designer fuck painting shoes for dope dealers. I’m not ever ever going back to work.
 I want to die a 80 year old hill bombing freight painting show going bum

  Thats rad not to work and I mean that but why are you visiting these stupid fucks?  What are benzos?   

[SHIREFLIP]

[Suave]

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My Psychiatrist my Psychologist  and my PCP all gave me shit today. They say I should contribute more to life than riding my skateboard and stealing. They are punishing me by taking away my benzos though I have never tested negative in 20 years meaning I don’t sell them.
They say it’s killing my drive but they don’t understand.

Fuck selling art fuck being a graphic designer fuck painting shoes for dope dealers. I’m not ever ever going back to work.
 I want to die a 80 year old hill bombing freight painting show going bum

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  Thats rad not to work and I mean that but why are you visiting these stupid fucks?  What are benzos?

i think benzo was the guy who owned the source and had beef w/ eminem.
honestly though, maybe your life will open up if you get offa them things. they dull you enough that you accept subpar life standards instead of changing them. i feel a lot more engaged w/ the world w/out them, that's just me though.

[Mr. Kamikazi]

My grandfather on my mom’s side was such a sweet man. When I was a little boy he visited me once a week until the age of 3-4, which was an hour from where he lived. It wasn’t until after he passed that I learned that he spent his entire adult life on lithium.

Being born happy or sad is just the luck of the draw. There is nothing wrong with taking something to make you feel better.

I am not a very happy and upbeat person and if I did not have a wife and kids to support I would not be very motivated to go to work or participate in society.

I feel the key to happiness is to do things for others. Very few people can live inside their own minds and not become bored or lonely. For me purpose does not come from within so it helps to know that I am needed by at least 3 people.

Also, schizophrenia is no joke. One of my best friends had it and it drove him to heroin before he got on real medicine. All you 20-25 year olds make sure to take schizophrenia seriously if you think you may have it. He thought demons were trying to get him.

Be well everyone and don’t be too critical of yourselves.

I really like your commentary, specifically the part about doing things for others. Realistically, it is very nice to have it a ton of money but that wears out quickly. I invested in the stock market awhile back and made a large amount of money. This was around the time that my parents sort of checked out on me in terms of emotions. They just didn't seem to care how I was doing, my studies, really anything. So I started spending money pretty recklessly, achieving a ton of instant gratification. Well naturally this wore off and my feelings of emptiness and general sadness continued. So I took some time to really think about what I wanted to do, took an accelerated course load at community college, and started moving from there. That lead me to social work and to feeling good about myself and the privilege I have when serving others. Don't get wrong in that I still have my moments of feeling down or anxious but I will say it also helps to be brutally honest with yourself in acknowledging what people in your life are not good to be around, making time for yourself and focusing on how much you enjoyed something versus solely focusing on how well you did it. Upon doing some of these things, I have felt much better. I have cut a ton of people off, mostly self centered people that hurt me to be around and/or are simply dangerous in terms of how they socially operate. While things are simple and it can be challenging, I feel that my skating has improved and my well being and competence in myself and my ability has improved. It also helps that my wife is beyond supportive as we both have our bouts due to our weird upbringings.

[Dustwardprez]

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My Psychiatrist my Psychologist  and my PCP all gave me shit today. They say I should contribute more to life than riding my skateboard and stealing. They are punishing me by taking away my benzos though I have never tested negative in 20 years meaning I don’t sell them.
They say it’s killing my drive but they don’t understand.

Fuck selling art fuck being a graphic designer fuck painting shoes for dope dealers. I’m not ever ever going back to work.
 I want to die a 80 year old hill bombing freight painting show going bum

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  Thats rad not to work and I mean that but why are you visiting these stupid fucks?  What are benzos?

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i think benzo was the guy who owned the source and had beef w/ eminem.
honestly though, maybe your life will open up if you get offa them things. they dull you enough that you accept subpar life standards instead of changing them. i feel a lot more engaged w/ the world w/out them, that's just me though.

That’s what they said too.

Also benzino? Was his name. He use to try and hang out at the pit sometimes. We didn’t like him he was fucking creepy

[burtreynolds.jpeg]

I’ve been dealing with celiac disease for the past year and despite adhering to a strict gluten-free diet, my condition is getting worse. I have depression and anxiety on top of this.

Feeling sick and anxious all of the time puts a damper on my social life. When I feel good I can skate and interact with people but most days, I’m pretty absent.

I don’t really enjoy life and it’s hard to keep going.

However, I think the fact I’m still breathing and trying is a testament to my will to keep operating as the person I want to be.

I am on Zoloft right now but I hate it. I feel like antidepressants rule my life and I feel off when I go off it.

Anyone have issues with disease? Any advice helps. 

[Dustwardprez]

I am obsessed with getting rid of the neighbors.

Fucker compliments how my kid looks. Then a few mins later started talking about how they were accused of child touching.

I’m really fucking losing it over this and I don’t know how to deal with it

[givecigstosurfgroms]

I am obsessed with getting rid of the neighbors.

Fucker compliments how my kid looks. Then a few mins later started talking about how they were accused of child touching.

I’m really fucking losing it over this and I don’t know how to deal with it

   Is this real.  Im not sure if this account is real.  How is it that your on about sex offenders all the time and this happens?  Maybe.

[Dustwardprez]

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I am obsessed with getting rid of the neighbors.

Fucker compliments how my kid looks. Then a few mins later started talking about how they were accused of child touching.

You responded to the original post of when I found out. My mind is locked on this because of my hyper vigilance

I’m really fucking losing it over this and I don’t know how to deal with it

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   Is this real.  Im not sure if this account is real.  How is it that your on about sex offenders all the time and this happens?  Maybe.

It’s been bothering me for like 7 or 8 days.
The person was gone but now they’re back.

I have no idea how to deal with this

[TheCrimsonShroud]

It’s been bothering me for like 7 or 8 days.
The person was gone but now they’re back.

I have no idea how to deal with this

I actually just moved from a townhome next door to a registered sex offender. Some type of porn deal, tier 1. Didn't do my due diligence before I moved in.

What I'd recommend is contacting your local sheriff. They can give you as much info on the guy as the law allows and advise you on how to act and what to look for, as well as who to contact in the event of suspicion.

I'm hypervigilant myself, what with OCD and all, so I feel you on that. Taking the steps above may ease your mind a little--I know they did mine.

[Suave]

sheriff can't do anything w/out a crime. trust me, cops are not proactive at all. you hand em a case and they're loathe to get out of their car and do paperwork.
either just keep a cclose eye on the kid or if you wanna entrap him, pull that perverted justice internet crap and have chris hansen waiting for him talkin about 'take a seat, have a cookie.'
that is the only way to get a pedo arrested short of allowing him to actaully commit a crime.
oh or you could have your kid bear false witness but taht's even more distasteful and could be scarring.

[Dustwardprez]

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It’s been bothering me for like 7 or 8 days.
The person was gone but now they’re back.

I have no idea how to deal with this

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I actually just moved from a townhome next door to a registered sex offender. Some type of porn deal, tier 1. Didn't do my due diligence before I moved in.

What I'd recommend is contacting your local sheriff. They can give you as much info on the guy as the law allows and advise you on how to act and what to look for, as well as who to contact in the event of suspicion.

I'm hypervigilant myself, what with OCD and all, so I feel you on that. Taking the steps above may ease your mind a little--I know they did mine.

Yeah I should have looked at the registration page online before signing the lease.

I told my counselor I warned the other parents. I think it’s because of my head injury and having to sit still that it’s bothering me so much.

[Your Real Dad]

 The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction. 

[blurst_of_times]

The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction.

I disagree. How we choose to act/not act on the way we feel is a choice we make

[bestdudever]

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The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction.

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I disagree. How we choose to act/not act on the way we feel is a choice we make

yea, i mean try telling that to someone with full schizophrenia, like, you chose to be this way bro.

[givecigstosurfgroms]

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The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction.

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I disagree. How we choose to act/not act on the way we feel is a choice we make

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yea, i mean try telling that to someone with full schizophrenia, like, you chose to be this way bro.

  Yah life happens without our choices considered sometimes. There are things that could happen to you/ur family/ur people that you have a hard time recovering from, -dont forget. 

[TheCrimsonShroud]

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The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction.

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I disagree. How we choose to act/not act on the way we feel is a choice we make

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yea, i mean try telling that to someone with full schizophrenia, like, you chose to be this way bro.

Outlook can help, but I get tired of the 'choose to be happy' shit. Like, not having a choice is what makes it mental illness. That's kinda the fucking point.

Like, my wife will say 'you don't have to check that' when I check locks, etc over and over. And I always tell her that I can choose not to, but that doesn't mean I don't suffer from the impulse.

[Dustwardprez]

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The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction.

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I disagree. How we choose to act/not act on the way we feel is a choice we make

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yea, i mean try telling that to someone with full schizophrenia, like, you chose to be this way bro.

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Outlook can help, but I get tired of the 'choose to be happy' shit. Like, not having a choice is what makes it mental illness. That's kinda the fucking point.

Like, my wife will say 'you don't have to check that' when I check locks, etc over and over. And I always tell her that I can choose not to, but that doesn't mean I don't suffer from the impulse.

I feel you

[WastedHippy]

[soonbanned]

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The way we feel is a choice we make.


It is the only thing in the world over which you, and you alone, have 100% jurisdiction.

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I disagree. How we choose to act/not act on the way we feel is a choice we make

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yea, i mean try telling that to someone with full schizophrenia, like, you chose to be this way bro.

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Outlook can help, but I get tired of the 'choose to be happy' shit. Like, not having a choice is what makes it mental illness. That's kinda the fucking point.

Like, my wife will say 'you don't have to check that' when I check locks, etc over and over. And I always tell her that I can choose not to, but that doesn't mean I don't suffer from the impulse.

SUFFER is the word of a VICTIM.

You WANT to be identified by OCD. It's pretty obvious. Gives you something to identify with and brings you attention whenever you make a big deal out of it. It makes a lot of people around you miserable. Stop being so selfish.