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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #360 on: April 11, 2022, 11:48:27 PM »
Since I finally found a decent work-life balance I’ve been able to cut down booze and weed A LOT.

Total sobriety always seemed a bit forced to me.
I totally respect those who do it tho of course, and I was influenced by SxE bands when I was younger.

But yeah I basically cut everything down to the weekend and even then it’s not what it used to be unless I’m on holiday or there’s a particular celebration.

No more half bottles of bourbon on Tuesday nights and ounces of weed.
No more shots of Jager with drops of benzos on mornings while wfh.

I always knew there was something off when I was doing it that way. It was my reaction to a life and a society I couldn’t keep up with. To keep my mind limber you know?

But fuck yeah I’m so happy about myself. At some point I’m gonna quit cigs tho, those are the most subtle and stupid bullshit. I will get there.

Big up to everyone ‘exposing’ their weaknesses and even if just one person (even lurkers) read this and get somehow inspired by it that would make my day I’m telling you.

Choose life.

Gotta find whatever works for you.

I wish I could just smoke weed or some shit, but no dice. Even in sobriety I end up obsessing about shit, like Randy. I can't just train, I have to deadlift 500 lbs, squat despite shoulder and knee pain. Chemical substancies are beyond my control, even caffiene and Mc Donalds is hard to handle.

But, again, I stricktly pro best method to achieve ones goal. If it works, it work.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #361 on: April 12, 2022, 01:14:22 AM »
I went through about 11-12 years of heavy drinking, especially on weekends.

Every weekend I went out partying with my friends and binge drink both friday and saturday evening. Every sunday was a nightmare that I usually spent in bed.
I slowly started developing a habit of drinking every day. I would crush a 6 pack of tall cans on a normal weekday and then on weekends I had no limits.

I was never the street-drug kinda person, booze was my way to let loose. I never touched anything but a bit of green and alcohol, most of my friends though started doing blow, ecstasy and all that shit.

When I was around 25 it started getting very serious. The hangovers were getting worse and worse and my body was showing some weird symptoms. I had twitches and muscle pains all over my body but the worst symptom was the anxiety.

Every sunday after a heavy weekend I would get so fucking scared. First it was just hypochondria. I would spend all week calling doctors and self-analyzing and googling symptoms. Every week it was a different disease.

I was convinced that I had brain cancer, colon cancer, ALS or MS. Pretty much any disease you can think of I was convinced of having it at one point. I spent a shitton of money on doctors and self medication, but deep within myself I knew that all this shit came from drinking and not taking care of myself.

After years and years of fullblown hypochondria I developed a new form of anxiety. I never really experienced any memory loss from drinking only when the night was seriously bad.

In 2018 I spent 4 days drinking and skating at a contest and when I came home I went into full blown paranoia. My friend called me and said "Don't you remember? We facetimed at around 5am in the morning and you were bla bla bla..."

I did not remember any of that and I started getting scared. What if I did something bad while I was shitfaced and don't remember it anymore. What if I hurt somebody?

I was searching for evidence. I would read the news, searching my pockets of the pants that I wore that weekend. Every bloodstain on my clothes, that evidently was my blood that stemmed from an injury that I got while skating, I was convinced that it was the blood of a person that I hurt.

I was never a bad drunk, I was always very calm and would behave. I never got into fights or any altercation, but somehow I was so afraid of messing everything up. Eventhough there wasn't any serious evidence of any fight or stupid behavior.

I was getting freaked out when I heard police sirens or saw a cop looking at me. I couldn't sleep and every night I would go out and walk around with no direction.

At that point I quit drinking cold turkey and went to a psychiatrist. After about a month of sobriety I was developing serious health problems and had to go to the hospital. My appendix almost burst and I was completely fucked up. I had to get three surgeries and couldn't do shit.

One day when I woke up at the hospital, two cops were in the room starring at me. My heart almost exploded. They weren't saying a word, they were just standing there waiting for something. I was convinced they were coming to arrest me for whatever.
Then the door opened and the guy that was with me in the room came in after his kidney stone removal. Turned out, the cop was his sister and took a break from her duty to come and visit her brother.

This was one of the bad situations of all the anxiety that I went through and I had to get clean.

I would quit cold turkey for several months and then would "allow" me to have some drinks. But every time I would just slowly get back into binge drinking. My anxiety would kick back in full blown after some heavy nights.

I then managed to quit for two years and had a lot of time to think about the whole situation and sobriety really helped me out a lot. But I didn't want to turn into this sobriety-advocate so I would allow myself two to three beers on a day off.
No binge drinking anymore, no all-nighters anymore and so far it worked out.

Now if I notice any sign of anxiety kicking in, I will pull the brakes immediately and quit for months and relax. But I don't want to cut out alcohol completely. I take it as a treat after a good session or a heavy work week, or maybe have a glass of wine or beer with a good dinner.

The one thing that really helped me through all of this was skateboarding. Without it I would probably have ended up in an insane asylum. And I have to tell you, you skate 10 times better when you're not hung-over or drunk.

Your muscles regenerate a lot quicker and you can focus a lot better.

At this point I am just trying to regulate everything and see where it will take me. Maybe I will go through phases of anxiety again and quit or maybe I can stick to my rules and drink occasionally on weekends.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #362 on: April 19, 2022, 07:21:21 AM »
Quit cigarettes, weed and alcohol simultaneously 26 days ago, feels great

Great achievement!
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #363 on: April 19, 2022, 07:31:36 AM »
I can't go full sobriety but the last time I went out with a friend he kept pressuring me, "one more drink", as he usually does. I had 1 beer earlier in the day with lunch, then drank a coke at the second stop, then a cocktail at the 3rd stop, but he kept saying, "let's go for another..." and it's true, it was only like 5pm at that moment, and I wasn't quite ready to head home so I told him I would have a tea. I ordered a hot green tea at the last bar near his place. It was actually pretty satisfying. I felt like a responsible adult.

And on Sunday I woke up early, with no headache, played some guitar and went skating for a few hours in the afternoon.

My friend went out with another friend after I left and he said he spent all of Sunday in bed basically. He's over 10 years younger than me.

I think this tea trick will be my new go-to.

And also, not keeping any booze at home. I do buy Coca-Cola as a substitute, so I'm kinda trading one poison for another, but coke doesn't make me feel like complete shit the next day, so I'll take it as a win for now.

I did however plant my yearly summer weed crop, but mostly that's just a fun hobby and I end up giving most of it away to friends. And my current crop of mushies are coming in nicely. I practice selective sobriety I guess. Alcohol is easily the substance that makes me feel worst.


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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #364 on: April 23, 2022, 07:20:24 AM »
So I’m 35 day’s in to sobriety and I am cruising, however the other day I was on a fetish site looking around, who do I see?

My recent  exgf was on there with her new man and degraded holes varieties of nudes as well as dudes spunk on what was mine?! Yeah I’m a tiny bit jealous lol I’ll admit with much chagrin that small piece of me is mad.

I remind myself of what I have lost and I don’t want anymore, fuck I hate that I have a heart.
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #365 on: April 24, 2022, 03:03:22 AM »
So I’m 35 day’s in to sobriety and I am cruising, however the other day I was on a fetish site looking around, who do I see?

My recent  exgf was on there with her new man and degraded holes varieties of nudes as well as dudes spunk on what was mine?! Yeah I’m a tiny bit jealous lol I’ll admit with much chagrin that small piece of me is mad.

I remind myself of what I have lost and I don’t want anymore, fuck I hate that I have a heart.

Can't say I can relate, but keep doing what you've been doing so far.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #366 on: April 25, 2022, 09:03:30 AM »
So I’m 35 day’s in to sobriety and I am cruising, however the other day I was on a fetish site looking around, who do I see?

My recent  exgf was on there with her new man and degraded holes varieties of nudes as well as dudes spunk on what was mine?! Yeah I’m a tiny bit jealous lol I’ll admit with much chagrin that small piece of me is mad.

I remind myself of what I have lost and I don’t want anymore, fuck I hate that I have a heart.

I might be different, but I find people who are seeking that kind of attention aren't really healthy, probably better off finding some girl who doesn't have pics of her getting bukakke'd out on the net.  I got an ex who is trying to sell candles and oils to those crystal mommys and another who is thirst trapping in her late 30s and I think I missed a bullet breaking up with them

I also find a lot of that thirst trap shit that goes down on IG and OnlyFans is super cringe.


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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #367 on: April 26, 2022, 05:51:54 PM »
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So I’m 35 day’s in to sobriety and I am cruising, however the other day I was on a fetish site looking around, who do I see?

My recent  exgf was on there with her new man and degraded holes varieties of nudes as well as dudes spunk on what was mine?! Yeah I’m a tiny bit jealous lol I’ll admit with much chagrin that small piece of me is mad.

I remind myself of what I have lost and I don’t want anymore, fuck I hate that I have a heart.
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I might be different, but I find people who are seeking that kind of attention aren't really healthy, probably better off finding some girl who doesn't have pics of her getting bukakke'd out on the net.  I got an ex who is trying to sell candles and oils to those crystal mommys and another who is thirst trapping in her late 30s and I think I missed a bullet breaking up with them

I also find a lot of that thirst trap shit that goes down on IG and OnlyFans is super cringe.
This guy gets it, I realize she’s probably not the healthiest of people and for that it makes me sad.  However I’m glad to be on this journey for now, I’m not really trying to be with anyone else.

Yeah I can bang some random hoes not that I’m down for being a man whore just I’m not trying to marry or be with anyone else for the foreseeable future.

Onlyfans and other thirst traps are highly cringe, sure I can look at random boobs via Reddit or on a hiking trail,  seen that movie Roll Models? Yeah I’m that dude who has 360 vision for some boobs.
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #368 on: April 27, 2022, 10:53:25 AM »
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So I’m 35 day’s in to sobriety and I am cruising, however the other day I was on a fetish site looking around, who do I see?

My recent  exgf was on there with her new man and degraded holes varieties of nudes as well as dudes spunk on what was mine?! Yeah I’m a tiny bit jealous lol I’ll admit with much chagrin that small piece of me is mad.

I remind myself of what I have lost and I don’t want anymore, fuck I hate that I have a heart.
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I might be different, but I find people who are seeking that kind of attention aren't really healthy, probably better off finding some girl who doesn't have pics of her getting bukakke'd out on the net.  I got an ex who is trying to sell candles and oils to those crystal mommys and another who is thirst trapping in her late 30s and I think I missed a bullet breaking up with them

I also find a lot of that thirst trap shit that goes down on IG and OnlyFans is super cringe.
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This guy gets it, I realize she’s probably not the healthiest of people and for that it makes me sad.  However I’m glad to be on this journey for now, I’m not really trying to be with anyone else.

Yeah I can bang some random hoes not that I’m down for being a man whore just I’m not trying to marry or be with anyone else for the foreseeable future.

Onlyfans and other thirst traps are highly cringe, sure I can look at random boobs via Reddit or on a hiking trail,  seen that movie Roll Models? Yeah I’m that dude who has 360 vision for some boobs.

wanting to keep things healthy is good thing and I've tried that a few times myself to no avail.   It's crazy to me to think that some people don't care about the people they break up with after they've broken up. 

Trust me I like looking at beautiful women too and have and usually find that most porn sites usually handles any itch to see a certain type of woman naked or being stuffed.  Just think its super wack when regular ass people who are not porn stars or model tries to make themselves out to look like someone who was featured in Playboy or Hustler. 


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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #369 on: April 27, 2022, 02:34:17 PM »
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So I’m 35 day’s in to sobriety and I am cruising, however the other day I was on a fetish site looking around, who do I see?

My recent  exgf was on there with her new man and degraded holes varieties of nudes as well as dudes spunk on what was mine?! Yeah I’m a tiny bit jealous lol I’ll admit with much chagrin that small piece of me is mad.

I remind myself of what I have lost and I don’t want anymore, fuck I hate that I have a heart.
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I might be different, but I find people who are seeking that kind of attention aren't really healthy, probably better off finding some girl who doesn't have pics of her getting bukakke'd out on the net.  I got an ex who is trying to sell candles and oils to those crystal mommys and another who is thirst trapping in her late 30s and I think I missed a bullet breaking up with them

I also find a lot of that thirst trap shit that goes down on IG and OnlyFans is super cringe.
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This guy gets it, I realize she’s probably not the healthiest of people and for that it makes me sad.  However I’m glad to be on this journey for now, I’m not really trying to be with anyone else.

Yeah I can bang some random hoes not that I’m down for being a man whore just I’m not trying to marry or be with anyone else for the foreseeable future.

Onlyfans and other thirst traps are highly cringe, sure I can look at random boobs via Reddit or on a hiking trail,  seen that movie Roll Models? Yeah I’m that dude who has 360 vision for some boobs.
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wanting to keep things healthy is good thing and I've tried that a few times myself to no avail.   It's crazy to me to think that some people don't care about the people they break up with after they've broken up. 

Trust me I like looking at beautiful women too and have and usually find that most porn sites usually handles any itch to see a certain type of woman naked or being stuffed.  Just think its super wack when regular ass people who are not porn stars or model tries to make themselves out to look like someone who was featured in Playboy or Hustler.
Or worse yet some trafficked whore who has no shame for one’s self. For me it’s a conundrum and a paradox, lol what I mean is you think you’d know someone through and through yet something you find that’s mind blowing like wtf?$ I didn’t see that coming?!

Makes for well shit who was that person? I spent 12 years with?!
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #370 on: May 13, 2022, 01:34:23 AM »
I'm six months and a week off alcohol.  I still smoke weed and take kratom once a week.  Been skating three to four times a week.  Feeling pretty good.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #371 on: May 13, 2022, 11:30:16 AM »
I'm six months and a week off alcohol.  I still smoke weed and take kratom once a week.  Been skating three to four times a week.  Feeling pretty good.

That's what's up, man. Good for you. Ive only ever done toss and wash Kratom and it leaves me feeling kind of gross, so I steer clear. But ya gotta do what works!!!
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #372 on: May 18, 2022, 09:32:23 AM »
I'm going full straight edge mode from now own, I'm enjoying being sober and am trying to reconnect with my feelings/emotions/body/soul

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #373 on: May 18, 2022, 02:16:07 PM »
I'm going full straight edge mode from now own, I'm enjoying being sober and am trying to reconnect with my feelings/emotions/body/soul

why come?

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #374 on: May 18, 2022, 04:38:01 PM »
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I'm going full straight edge mode from now own, I'm enjoying being sober and am trying to reconnect with my feelings/emotions/body/soul
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #375 on: July 09, 2022, 09:07:25 PM »
18 months sober of alcohol. 6 weeks off the pot. My skating has improved immensely, I enjoy it more. But now I just see the worst In people, and I have vivid dreams since not smoking pot. I have one sober skate homie, but today he talked about dabbling in wine. I asked him to rethink all that. I just wish I had more people around me who were on the same wavelength. But I didn’t have that a year ago and it won’t change much if I have it now. I feel like I walk this road alone most times. Staying positive though. My daughter keeps me on the right track, I don’t want to let her down by reverting to my old
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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #376 on: July 10, 2022, 01:08:42 AM »
18 months sober of alcohol. 6 weeks off the pot. My skating has improved immensely, I enjoy it more. But now I just see the worst In people, and I have vivid dreams since not smoking pot. I have one sober skate homie, but today he talked about dabbling in wine. I asked him to rethink all that. I just wish I had more people around me who were on the same wavelength. But I didn’t have that a year ago and it won’t change much if I have it now. I feel like I walk this road alone most times. Staying positive though. My daughter keeps me on the right track, I don’t want to let her down by reverting to my old
Behaviors.

It‘s hard to say no when everyone around you drinks. Then again it‘s just one word: No. Say it. You‘re not in this alone.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #377 on: July 10, 2022, 06:19:45 AM »
18 months sober of alcohol. 6 weeks off the pot. My skating has improved immensely, I enjoy it more. But now I just see the worst In people, and I have vivid dreams since not smoking pot. I have one sober skate homie, but today he talked about dabbling in wine. I asked him to rethink all that. I just wish I had more people around me who were on the same wavelength. But I didn’t have that a year ago and it won’t change much if I have it now. I feel like I walk this road alone most times. Staying positive though. My daughter keeps me on the right track, I don’t want to let her down by reverting to my old
Behaviors.

I don't really smoke weed since i get nostalgic and start to remember walking around places as a child very vividly. Why are you trying to quit? You thought about edibles?

I quit alc since a bender last year. My doc did some blood work and found a mild elevation in liver enzymes so imma continue to avoid it so i don't get cirrhosis.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #378 on: July 10, 2022, 09:25:16 AM »
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18 months sober of alcohol. 6 weeks off the pot. My skating has improved immensely, I enjoy it more. But now I just see the worst In people, and I have vivid dreams since not smoking pot. I have one sober skate homie, but today he talked about dabbling in wine. I asked him to rethink all that. I just wish I had more people around me who were on the same wavelength. But I didn’t have that a year ago and it won’t change much if I have it now. I feel like I walk this road alone most times. Staying positive though. My daughter keeps me on the right track, I don’t want to let her down by reverting to my old
Behaviors.
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I don't really smoke weed since i get nostalgic and start to remember walking around places as a child very vividly. Why are you trying to quit? You thought about edibles?

I quit alc since a bender last year. My doc did some blood work and found a mild elevation in liver enzymes so imma continue to avoid it so i don't get cirrhosis.
I’ve never tried edibles. Mostly trying quit smoking because well it just does not fit into my lifestyle anymore. I’m 30 and my mental stability is shifting, and being fried doesn’t help that at all. I work an airplane job and the FAA requires a drug free environment, but most my coworkers are either buzzed out or hungover. I was planning on quitting anyways. It just has me jaded. But I feel myself becoming a judgey asshole. So I just stay away from social activities, other than skating. Don’t get it twisted I loved being a stoner but it was stunting my growth as an adult and a father. I’ll miss being a pile, I wish that was sustainable for me, but it’s just not realistic in the grand scheme of it all. I want to be a good example for my daughter. I don’t want her to think it’s cool to be an adult and just fucking off your time on this planet.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #379 on: July 10, 2022, 09:56:59 AM »
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18 months sober of alcohol. 6 weeks off the pot. My skating has improved immensely, I enjoy it more. But now I just see the worst In people, and I have vivid dreams since not smoking pot. I have one sober skate homie, but today he talked about dabbling in wine. I asked him to rethink all that. I just wish I had more people around me who were on the same wavelength. But I didn’t have that a year ago and it won’t change much if I have it now. I feel like I walk this road alone most times. Staying positive though. My daughter keeps me on the right track, I don’t want to let her down by reverting to my old
Behaviors.
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I don't really smoke weed since i get nostalgic and start to remember walking around places as a child very vividly. Why are you trying to quit? You thought about edibles?

I quit alc since a bender last year. My doc did some blood work and found a mild elevation in liver enzymes so imma continue to avoid it so i don't get cirrhosis.
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I’ve never tried edibles. Mostly trying quit smoking because well it just does not fit into my lifestyle anymore. I’m 30 and my mental stability is shifting, and being fried doesn’t help that at all. I work an airplane job and the FAA requires a drug free environment, but most my coworkers are either buzzed out or hungover. I was planning on quitting anyways. It just has me jaded. But I feel myself becoming a judgey asshole. So I just stay away from social activities, other than skating. Don’t get it twisted I loved being a stoner but it was stunting my growth as an adult and a father. I’ll miss being a pile, I wish that was sustainable for me, but it’s just not realistic in the grand scheme of it all. I want to be a good example for my daughter. I don’t want her to think it’s cool to be an adult and just fucking off your time on this planet.

Word, best of luck man. You got this!

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #380 on: July 10, 2022, 12:50:29 PM »
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18 months sober of alcohol. 6 weeks off the pot. My skating has improved immensely, I enjoy it more. But now I just see the worst In people, and I have vivid dreams since not smoking pot. I have one sober skate homie, but today he talked about dabbling in wine. I asked him to rethink all that. I just wish I had more people around me who were on the same wavelength. But I didn’t have that a year ago and it won’t change much if I have it now. I feel like I walk this road alone most times. Staying positive though. My daughter keeps me on the right track, I don’t want to let her down by reverting to my old
Behaviors.
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I don't really smoke weed since i get nostalgic and start to remember walking around places as a child very vividly. Why are you trying to quit? You thought about edibles?

I quit alc since a bender last year. My doc did some blood work and found a mild elevation in liver enzymes so imma continue to avoid it so i don't get cirrhosis.
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I’ve never tried edibles. Mostly trying quit smoking because well it just does not fit into my lifestyle anymore. I’m 30 and my mental stability is shifting, and being fried doesn’t help that at all. I work an airplane job and the FAA requires a drug free environment, but most my coworkers are either buzzed out or hungover. I was planning on quitting anyways. It just has me jaded. But I feel myself becoming a judgey asshole. So I just stay away from social activities, other than skating. Don’t get it twisted I loved being a stoner but it was stunting my growth as an adult and a father. I’ll miss being a pile, I wish that was sustainable for me, but it’s just not realistic in the grand scheme of it all. I want to be a good example for my daughter. I don’t want her to think it’s cool to be an adult and just fucking off your time on this planet.
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Word, best of luck man. You got this!
Thank you sir!

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #381 on: July 10, 2022, 01:05:19 PM »
I'm probably near a year sober (not really keeping track of the dates), and now that I'm in vacation season (I'm a teacher), I'm definitely facing some growing pains. In my pre-sobriety mind, vacation meant staying drunk from morning til blackout, rather than beginning around 6 or 7pm and drinking til sleepy time.

I miss that warm, fuzzy, euphoric feeling  :-\, but I don't miss all the baggage that comes with it.

Stay on the righteous path, bros/sisters.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #382 on: July 10, 2022, 08:30:31 PM »
I'm probably near a year sober (not really keeping track of the dates), and now that I'm in vacation season (I'm a teacher), I'm definitely facing some growing pains. In my pre-sobriety mind, vacation meant staying drunk from morning til blackout, rather than beginning around 6 or 7pm and drinking til sleepy time.

I miss that warm, fuzzy, euphoric feeling  :-\, but I don't miss all the baggage that comes with it.

Stay on the righteous path, bros/sisters.
Always remember what it was taking from you brother

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« Reply #383 on: July 11, 2022, 03:25:49 AM »
Wow…this thread came out about a month before I quit drinking. It would have been nice to see back then…it was a struggle.
I was a heavy weekend drinker…18-24 beers on a Friday and Saturday night, plus some shots. Sundays were brutal hangover days. My wife didn’t drink like I did, so with me being straight hammered, she was on her own to take care of our son.
I remember my parents getting hammered on the weekends and fighting and it was horrible on us as kids. I realized I was heading that way. I didn’t want our little one to see me stumbling around being an idiot.
Oct 19 2019 I had a gnarly bender. Wife basically was done with me. We had played this game before but a change was needed. I went and got help.
I didnt go to AA, but it was a group for people that gotten in trouble from drinking and had to be there, and a couple of people like me that wanted to quit. We had some interesting conversations in these groups that went from funny as hell (our stories are awesome, and you know this!) to incredibly sad. I met a lot of people that sounded like they needed to quit but I could tell they just couldn’t. “I’m a grown ass man…I work, pay bills and don’t beat my wife. I have no drinking problems!” Yeah…I used to say that too.
But there WERE problems. So I quit. After 20+ years of heavy drinking and partying, I just stopped. Talking with people in the group helped, but shit was hard, I can’t lie. I had “friends” that stopped hanging out or inviting me to shit. Just because I didn’t drink any more. Fuck them. It’s been said here before but skating helped a ton. I would skate all night on the weekends instead of booze it up. I can’t say I lost a ton of weight and got better at skating because I didn’t, but I had just gotten back on the board about a year prior to quitting and it did get a little easier and I could most def skate more and longer sober.
This Oct will be three years without alcohol. I can be around people that drink, and I have no problem telling people why I don’t drink anymore. I have a lot of people say “I should quit too” but I don’t look down on folks that drink nor do I try to get them to quit.
Ultimately I made the best decision for me. Do I miss it sometimes? Yes. Do I miss all the bullshit that comes from drinking? Nope! Hangovers suck ass and only get worse when you are older. Weekends feel much longer now, and I overall feel healthier and happier. I dont sweat as much either, which is nice.
Good luck to you if you are thinking of quitting. PM me if you have questions, just know I’m a pretty straight forward dude so if you ask me my opinion I will give it, nice or not. I will agree with a previous reply…make sure you are prepared to tell people you are quitting or no longer drink. Be ready for all kinds of responses. My own mom, who has her own issues with booze, pretty much made fun of me for quitting, telling me I don’t have an alcohol problem. Just do it for you. You can try cutting back, but if that doesn’t work, quitting totally is what you may need. It sounds gnarly but it can be done!

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #384 on: July 21, 2022, 02:20:40 PM »
This thread is something I've been lurking on for a while and is a large reason i finally made an account. Has been a lot of useful stuff on here thats helped

I'm just over 2 months alcohol free, after being on and off for the past couple of years. Trying to be sober then eventually failing after 6 months, 3 months, 8 months etc.  This time I decided to get help and joined AA and feel like the support I got from the groups has really bolstered my resolve. Have been able to go to a stag do and going to a wedding tomorrow, and having a drink is the last thing on my mind.

Booze basically became a giant catalyst for my mental health to take a bad turn, and when i got diagnosed with anxiety / depression recently it became clear that it just wasn't worth it anymore. One night of a couple beers would snowball over days or weeks until eventually a massive drinking session would have me fucked with anxiety and swearing I'd never touch it again.

I talked to a psychiatrist today who is putting me forward for undiagnosed adult ADHD. He mentioned that a large percentage of people with the condition find themself with addidction issues from essentially self-medicating, which was interesting to hear.

Hope everyone's doing good, thanks again for all the help while i lurked in the shadows!

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« Reply #385 on: July 21, 2022, 06:03:39 PM »
Stoked you are doing well! Being able to talk in the group setting is awesome. It’s cool how you will hear similar stories and thoughts on drinking. Keep it up man!

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #386 on: July 21, 2022, 06:37:57 PM »

I talked to a psychiatrist today who is putting me forward for undiagnosed adult ADHD. He mentioned that a large percentage of people with the condition find themself with addidction issues from essentially self-medicating, which was interesting to hear.

Hope everyone's doing good, thanks again for all the help while i lurked in the shadows!

This is a bigger deal than I thought it was.  I tested as high as you could possibly test for adhd when I was 15.  Due to issues with substances use back then, my parents didn't want me to get medicated for it.  The stimulant medication actually works, the non-stimulant ones(stratera, wellbutrin, etc) are only mildly effective and come with a ton of side effects.

Our brains don't naturally make enough dopamine, so we self medicate to get it.  I didn't really think much of my diagnosis until a few years ago when talking to my friend who is a psych nurse.  Until then, I thought it was just something they diagnosed everyone with who had issues in school.  It seriously explains so much about me.

Part of the reason I never got medicated again was because I thought stimulant medication would fuck with my sleep(bad insomniac my whole life, another reason I drank alot).  Insomnia is often caused by the issues that come from having ADHD.  The other part is it's hard for me to get shit done like set up an appointment and deal with all of that.  I need to set up an appointment tomorrow and get medicated for this shit.

I haven't drank in over 8 months now, I drank heavily and used drugs since I was 14(30 now).  I still eat edibles and dabble with a little kratom.  Lots of cold brew coffee(helps me focus).  I'm going to make a point of setting an appointment up tomorrow to finally see a doctor about this shit.

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Re: SOBRIETY
« Reply #387 on: July 21, 2022, 08:49:29 PM »

love n respect to you all. I quit booze 2015 and life is just better across the board. spiritually, physically, emotionally, mentally- I'm a whole person. Considering how hard I've gone the past 7 years, I can't imagine what I might have gotten done/accomplished If I hadn't been a drunk until I turned 30. Feels like I'm catching up sometimes but it's all good shit.

My pop is a real beer drinker and we used to be pretty solid drinking buddies. We don't have a ton of activities in common and never did, so when started drinking together it always felt like a really good bonding experience. Hanging out with him, man, t's been harder the past 7 years but we're getting there. Dude can't help himself and I can't blame him. There was one night when they were staying with me for a visit recently and my pop got pretty buzzed for the first time the whole trip. He was just annoying as shit, killing the vibe of me, partner, and mom who were smoking herb. I eventually lost it on him and shut the night down. Next day things still weren't feeling to cool but about midway through the day we get around to talking a bit and I explain how he isn't a cool dude when he's drinking and he says "you know, man, I'm glad you don't drink anymore. it never did anything good for you. I'm happy you're alive. when you were drinking you did all sorts of shit that had me worried. you're doing well."

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« Reply #388 on: October 17, 2022, 09:33:45 AM »

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« Reply #389 on: October 17, 2022, 09:44:52 AM »
coming up on 1.5 years without alcohol. my life is definitely easier day to day but I just realized my relationship with different family members/friends have gotten significantly better which is a cool long term side effect. probably because I have an exponential amount of patience and actually follow through with plans I make compared to when I am hungover all the time