Rampant positivity,
For me
Its grasping at straws.
A last stand.
A final breath.
like we all do, emerging from a dreamy haze, in a valley that seems so gentle.
WALK!
I see many paths. I see a slow moving stream, gently caressing the valley, so many opportunities to float in a canoe, or build a raft. I could take a break, start up again later. I see raging rapids, I could jump aboard, I could disappear into the distance, probably quickly. I dunno if my dreams lie in that direction...so its risky. Maybe one day. Maybe I'll dabble in a few? Maybe I will coast a bit, maybe I'll try and hold on for a wild ride later on in my journey. When I'm stronger. I'm not sure really, but I could star...-RAINDROP
-on my face but it's not a big deal. Its just a bit of rain, I can ignore it. I can squint my eyes. Anyways, I think l will stick to the safe looking stream right now, since it's raining and all, it's easy to follow. Forsure ill take a more cohesive look at things, once the rain is go--CRACK!-
Holy shit that's lightning? It's really starting to pour. The edge of the stream is muddy, my feet are getting wet. I am getting uncomfortable.
KABOOM!
thunder? Right after a flash so the storm must be close by. Where the fuck is the stream? Everything just looks wet and muddy, like a swamp.
I am really uncomfortable. I would like to stop n-
WOOSH!
H o L Y s H I T
That's a thicc 1 of em (storm.)
Please stop raining storm, It's very uncomfortable,
Hello?
Mr storm?
I am very uncomfortable. I would like to stop. I don't want this. I don't want to be
Ankle deep.
Knee deep.
Waist deep.
Chest deep
In water,
BUT WHY IS IT RAINING SO HARD?
-W E I G H T L E S S
Tread water.
Panic.
What happened to the stream? What happened to the Rapids? What happened to my valley? What happened to the peaks in the distance? Where is the contrast? Everything looking the same. What is this place? what am I even doing, I'm tired.
I am so tired. Of. This.....
.....ocean?
Why is it an ocean? Why am I in an abyss?
I'm so tired of swimming, treading water.
is this drowning?
Am I drowning?
I am definitely choking on water,
thrashing my legs around
I am really in need of a break,
I need something to hold onto, SOMETHING.
Well something floated by.
I grabbed onto it
not by choice.
No nobility.
Just desperation.
A stuffed lad, gripping onto some floating artisan mahogany vanity, in an endless black abyss
Still smiling cause its stitched onto my motherfucking face.
You are all the mahogany vanity, and I'm huggin you, I'm thanking the stars.
You provided a chance to catch my breath
You reminded me that I can also float.
Now I will dive back into that ocean
And I can let the current take me where I'm meant to be.