Hey Pals, I don’t know who to talk to, or how to air this out, but how do you deal with rape trauma? It’s plagued me my whole life, I believe my schizoaffective disorder may have been cause by this, and I’ve been severely suffering from daily psychosis, depressed, anxious and have attempted suicide several times since the age of 8/9, as well as contemplated it daily. Medication doesn’t change this and I’ve tried 12+ different things. The only escape I have are recreational drugs (pills) which I try to abstain from, and alcohol, and never get into anything hard, but I don’t know what to do and there’s also only so much I can explain in therapy, and to my spouse and what little friends I have in my life. There seems to be no answer for the hurt that I feel. I’m in so much pain and I don’t know what to do. Since fully coming to terms with it, my marriage has gotten significantly worse since I have been suffering from even worse/antisocial behavior than before. Please help and I’m sorry if this is not cool to post on this forum.