for the last 5 years, i feel like ive been spiraling out of control even more so than when i was doing hard drugs(coke and opiates). the current pandemic doesnt help. i recently cut out weed and havent had a cigarette in 3 months(used to crush 2 packs a day no problem, diet camels were my jam) but the alcohol has been the hardest to kick, even harder than opiates. probably because its the only vice i have left other than skating that keeps me sane. unfortunately i wrecked my ankle so now i cant skate and have no idea when i will be able to skate again, if it is possible. it is very frightening. i am really trying my best to keep my shit together and i am fortunate enough to not own a gun.
so to answer your question, i would rate myself at a 10 out of 10...... no need to worry about my mental health nor should anyone feel the need to reach out, i dont intend on sticking around here for much longer. ive heard it all before and you would just be wasting your time on me. there is far too much hate on this message board to know if someone is truly sincere or just fucking with me. i am also guilty of fucking with people, here. it made me feel better about myself.. i think more people here are more interested in talking shit than actually going out and skating..... and no, i dont care if you can "tre flip or backlip."