I honestly had a phase of my sexuality where I was going through an existential crisis and figuring out my attraction to guys and women while living/going to uni in the Bay Area. I am a queer/lgtbq+ ally for sure, but sometimes the vibes and my own personal self-esteem gets shattered while skating with cis and straight men, especially coming from a military families and areas where I have lived that have high military presence (I am a military brat who was raised by my dad, who served in the military for like 27+ years). I do want to be independent and finally escape the verbal barking and bullshit I experienced in military housing and my parents, but my parents are getting old and are retiring soon, and I do feel that I will he pigeon-holed to be the only person in my household to take care of them during retirement, as the so-called “obedient son of my immediate family” does. I also have 3 brothers who aren’t as close as I am with my parents, so I feel that it is my responsibility to be the responsible brother to help my family out in desperate need. Sorry for this tangent rant, just letting my emotions and trauma out