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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #390 on: September 02, 2023, 08:53:51 AM »
Hi everyone :) what the heck it's been too dang long!

I am v grateful to be back, god its been a hard year. I hit rock bottom around the beginning of August, when I started making plans in my journal to end my own life. Shit was really scary, but I was able to inform my family and close friends, and they of course were like 'bitch get back in therapy' hahahaha. Filling out risk assessment forms has been really jarring and for a couple of weeks I felt like I was just suspended in a state of shock, for how dark my own life had become.

But those days are slowly, slowwwwllly hahaha, slowly slipping behind me. Been reuniting with so many friends and just planting my roots mad hard in my community. Plus I am skating again!

My ex, he was such a sophisticatedly fucked up person. I was raped over and over, cut off from my friends & family so that I had nowhere to run and no one to turn to. I have so much PTSD that I'm working through every day and will prob be stuck with that shit for a good chunk of years.

My family saved me from that fucker and I'm so lucky to b safe n sound

Fuck it we ball. My only goals in life, now that I have seen past the darkest time I hope I will ever see, is: to be based, have buds, and bool hard af.

I love you all with all my heart PALS 4 life and SLAP support 4 life :)



xoxoxoxoxoxoxo! -demeter

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #391 on: September 06, 2023, 07:43:04 PM »
Thank you for this thread. I wasnít expecting to need as much as I feel I do right now.

My girlfriend broke up with me recently and it is kicking my ass. I bought aspirin for the first time in my life today because I read it is recommended for heartbreak.

We were doing long distance for awhile..and then the call came. So now Iím stuck at home in a neighborhood she found for us at a job where everyone loves her (me too) just reminded of her at every corner. IT SUCKS. I canít tell whether I should make some rash decisions or not. Like, should I move or not? Do I get a cat? She took both of em :( Which is worse? Do I toss out all my stuff? Iím not the best with change, so anything semi-drastic feels like it could go really wrong for me and what little sanity I have. Maybe itís all bad and I just have to play through the pain.

Iím doing my freaking best but itís really a gut punch of pain & tears when I get home. I made dinner and my stomach is grumbling, but Iíve lost my appetite. I need to eat. I know it. Itís an exhausting cycle and experience.

The good news is I have made it 30 days. I donít know if any one day is harder than the others, but I am taking that victory. I do want to see whatís on the other side of all this grief.. but barely. But I do.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #392 on: September 07, 2023, 08:40:40 PM »
I just wanted to remind you all that

I luv you and I hope all your best dreams come true.

thank you :), needed this today
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #393 on: September 08, 2023, 12:02:51 PM »
Hi everyone :) what the heck it's been too dang long!

I am v grateful to be back, god its been a hard year. I hit rock bottom around the beginning of August, when I started making plans in my journal to end my own life. Shit was really scary, but I was able to inform my family and close friends, and they of course were like 'bitch get back in therapy' hahahaha. Filling out risk assessment forms has been really jarring and for a couple of weeks I felt like I was just suspended in a state of shock, for how dark my own life had become.

But those days are slowly, slowwwwllly hahaha, slowly slipping behind me. Been reuniting with so many friends and just planting my roots mad hard in my community. Plus I am skating again!

My ex, he was such a sophisticatedly fucked up person. I was raped over and over, cut off from my friends & family so that I had nowhere to run and no one to turn to. I have so much PTSD that I'm working through every day and will prob be stuck with that shit for a good chunk of years.

My family saved me from that fucker and I'm so lucky to b safe n sound

Fuck it we ball. My only goals in life, now that I have seen past the darkest time I hope I will ever see, is: to be based, have buds, and bool hard af.

I love you all with all my heart PALS 4 life and SLAP support 4 life :)



xoxoxoxoxoxoxo! -demeter

Welcome back friend, shalom!

That's some real-deal shit to hear and it's truly terrible there are people out there that view their fellow human beings as nothing more than objects for their own pleasure and ultimate disposal, those people can all go fuck a shard of glass in the middle of I-95 on a Monday morning. So glad to hear you are out of some of that darkness and finding your way back to the things that give you joy, trying to get back in that boat myself. It's truly terrible that the selfish actions of others can have such a lasting impact on us as individuals, I try to not give them so much power over me in those circumstances but understand that everything is easier said than done. Just keep doing positive things to stay on the right path, you've got a community here that is mostly supportive in these matters and I've found solace in the halls of these boards before.
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #394 on: September 10, 2023, 12:59:19 PM »
Hey everyone, first time talking about my mental health on here.

So over the past few years Iíve been struggling with really awful depression. For some context Im an extremely introverted person with crippling social anxiety so as you can imagine Im prone to finding myself socially isolated. With the university year starting again Iíve found myself back in a really awful rut of feeling depressed with thoughts of ďwhatís the point?Ē and ďwhy am I still alive?Ē crossing my mind daily.

Being back on campus 5 days a week is starting to take a toll on me. Looking back and thinking about what has pulled me away from depression the past few years the two things that have done it for me; friends and skateboarding, but now that the school year has started again, all my friends from high school and childhood have gone their separate ways, and the physical and mental drain of going to classes and sitting in lectures every day has stopped me from skateboarding as often as I like. Or maybe the drain is from me falling back into depression. Idk

Iíve tried to branch out and make friends at uni, but the people Iíve found myself surrounded with have no appeal to me whatsoever. I even tried my uniís skateboarding club hoping I could meet some other skaters, but when I went to the first meetup it was all people dancing on longboards/surfskates in sandals, some inline rollerbladers, and some guy on a scooter, so I just went home feeling dejected.

Itís been really tough transitioning from 4+ months of skating with friends and hanging out with people Iíve known for years to looking down the barrel of 8 months of social isolation and a routine full of classes and lectures that I have no interest in whatsoever, with no end goal for me to work towards. Just thinking about it thereís a pit in my stomach.

The usual drive and motivation to go and skate is gone. I havenít been to a skatepark in months. I have no urge to try and learn new tricks and progress. My typical session now is go to the same curb/ledge spot and do the same tricks for like an hour. If Iím feeling ambitious maybe Iíll throw some variation in; shuv out of this, 180 out of that. My sessions have been getting less and less fulfilling but skateboarding is the only thing in my life that gives me any enjoyment, even if its just a fraction of how much Iíve enjoyed it before.

I have no idea where Iím going with this. Any advice would be appreciated. Just being able to vent also helps. I think. Whatever. Thanks everyone,
shalom
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #395 on: September 10, 2023, 07:40:12 PM »
Hey everyone, first time talking about my mental health on here.

So over the past few years Iíve been struggling with really awful depression. For some context Im an extremely introverted person with crippling social anxiety so as you can imagine Im prone to finding myself socially isolated. With the university year starting again Iíve found myself back in a really awful rut of feeling depressed with thoughts of ďwhatís the point?Ē and ďwhy am I still alive?Ē crossing my mind daily.

Being back on campus 5 days a week is starting to take a toll on me. Looking back and thinking about what has pulled me away from depression the past few years the two things that have done it for me; friends and skateboarding, but now that the school year has started again, all my friends from high school and childhood have gone their separate ways, and the physical and mental drain of going to classes and sitting in lectures every day has stopped me from skateboarding as often as I like. Or maybe the drain is from me falling back into depression. Idk

Iíve tried to branch out and make friends at uni, but the people Iíve found myself surrounded with have no appeal to me whatsoever. I even tried my uniís skateboarding club hoping I could meet some other skaters, but when I went to the first meetup it was all people dancing on longboards/surfskates in sandals, some inline rollerbladers, and some guy on a scooter, so I just went home feeling dejected.

Itís been really tough transitioning from 4+ months of skating with friends and hanging out with people Iíve known for years to looking down the barrel of 8 months of social isolation and a routine full of classes and lectures that I have no interest in whatsoever, with no end goal for me to work towards. Just thinking about it thereís a pit in my stomach.

The usual drive and motivation to go and skate is gone. I havenít been to a skatepark in months. I have no urge to try and learn new tricks and progress. My typical session now is go to the same curb/ledge spot and do the same tricks for like an hour. If Iím feeling ambitious maybe Iíll throw some variation in; shuv out of this, 180 out of that. My sessions have been getting less and less fulfilling but skateboarding is the only thing in my life that gives me any enjoyment, even if its just a fraction of how much Iíve enjoyed it before.

I have no idea where Iím going with this. Any advice would be appreciated. Just being able to vent also helps. I think. Whatever. Thanks everyone,
shalom
Hey. Depression is hard. I donít have anything really good advice to give right now just want you to know youíre seen and your feelings are valid. Life is a roller coaster and everything that goes down will come up eventually. No intense feeling lasts forever.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #396 on: September 13, 2023, 05:59:36 AM »
The PMA thread
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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #397 on: September 18, 2023, 06:44:29 PM »
Iíve been dealing with pain and discomfort in my testicles and penis and a test came back positive for mycoplasma and ureaplasma. The pain has been really affecting my mental health. Iím on a second round of antibiotics (doxycycline and levofloxacin) and Iím hoping it will cure it and take away the discomfort and pain.

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Re: The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread
« Reply #398 on: September 27, 2023, 06:10:46 AM »
Iíve been dealing with pain and discomfort in my testicles and penis and a test came back positive for mycoplasma and ureaplasma. The pain has been really affecting my mental health. Iím on a second round of antibiotics (doxycycline and levofloxacin) and Iím hoping it will cure it and take away the discomfort and pain.

Oh man that sucks. I had testiculitis like 10 years ago and it made my life hell for several years. Couldnít sit straight, didnít know what to do. Iíll drop you a dm with some things I learned going through this. Keep your head up, I made it out of there so there is hope even though it may not feel like it right now.