I'm gonna just share my bullshit to put it out there as well.
I was literally raised in the church, my parents have both been pastors at different times in my life, they brought me up on stage as an infant and i was "dedicated" to Christ or whatever. My church was a Calvary Chapel, which is an evangelical Christian denomination founded by ex hippies in Southern California in the 60s. Pretty much stock right wing Christian church environment. Started going to school at the church in 4th grade, which i wanted to do because most of my lifelong friends from church went there. But this meant my entire life, social, educational, spiritual, familial, was based around the church. And the entire school was around 250 kids K-12 and like 90% white. I mostly listened to Christian music, was taught Christian curriculum (little things like the earth only being 6000 years old and evolution not being real, how free market libertarianism is the best economic model), was told Barack Obama was Kenyan and the anti Christ by teachers, went on missions trips to other countries to tell em about Jesus (but mostly to go to Costa Rica and Ireland because they're beautiful places).
Most of the teachers, with the exception of one or two, were extremely right wing. We were encouraged as students and given signs protesting prop 8 in California, which was a ballot measure to legalize gay marriage in CA. There's photos of kids in my class holding Bush '04 signs. Our teachers read us stuff from the Drudge Report and Glen Beck in class, and we all had to read Anthem by ayn rand. I was picked on a lot and got hazed at a summer camp where they made me strip and then threw me into a gross pond i got called gay a lot and was pretty homophobic and right wing because it was the only thing i knew and the only people i really knew were like that as well. I have a lesbian aunt who i love and adore, but it didn't really click for me as a kid that she was gay because the way they talked about homosexuality in school and at the church, you'd think they were demon possessed. So it was easy to think they were like that because, how would you know? You've never met one as far as you can tell.
Our school had really weird social mores about dating. You gotta ask a girls dad if you can court them, lots of girls having really unrealistic Disney like ideas about what dating is, us literally knowing nothing and getting no help from pastors other than "pray about it and God will show you if it's meant to be". I also really didn't like myself and all that shame and guilt about being a sinner for doing totally normal and harmless stuff causes you to really self loathe. As a result i had the social skills of a 13 year old at 18 because I'd only had one girlfriend at 17 and all we did was kiss and hold hands. I graduated from Christian high school with a pretty useless diploma, since i didn't even understand high school science or history and was in fact taught total quack nonsense. I then went to Christian College in Portland, and met people who were gay and Christian which challenged my homophobia because they were gay and i loved them. I didn't want them to go to hell. I came back to California though because I also got together with my high school sweetheart and we got to know each other in a biblical sense. And because i felt so guilty about that and thought i wouldn't be welcome back in church, i left the church.
But then the two of us broke up and it crushed my 13 going on 19 year old heart. I had derailed my life to be with her, because Christians take dating so incredibly seriously. So then i went back to church, but a different, younger more hip church. Think like a hillsong or realityla or something like that. I met some cool people who weren't judgemental and so right wing and i thought that was sick. But i still wasn't sure if i still believed it all, but i really wanted my parents to not disown me. I thought that it would be easier to come out as gay than tell them i wasn't a Christian anymore. I wasn't gay but i certainly was feeling like i didn't believe in it anymore. But to make up for that i got really involved in the college group and even interned for them. But I couldn't help but feel like i was a fraud and like i was too fucked up to be Christian. I also had trouble connecting with a lot of these college guys because they all were waiting for marriage and all they wanted to talk about in small groups is how bad they were for looking at risque dagguerotypes on the world wide web. It was clear i didn't really belong there anymore and one day during a worship service i had the thought that if none of it was real, would i still feel ok? Would it change me from wanting to help others and be loving and compassionate if i wasn't a Christian? And when i realized the answer was yes, i would be OK if it wasn't real, i left the church. Left all of it. Some people stopped talking to me which sucked but it let me know what the score was. My family didn't disown me and we have a healthy relationship still. But the environment of full 360 degree church all the time left me fucked up and I'm still working through everything today.
Sorry for the giant wall of text