Not to be that guy, and not to take away from the loss snd sadness our community has experienced, but skaters are but a drop in the bucket of those who have lost that battle.
If you are dealing with mental health issues, drug or alcohol problems, or anything similar, please consider seeing a therapist - and if you and said therapist don’t match up well, try again. It’s difficult, but, try not be dissuaded by the cost.
There are several national organizations, like Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) and National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI), that can help you find free or low-cost online therapists or resources.
I don’t have experience with these orgs, but many colleges offer free therapy to their students. I’ve definitely taken that up.
Sorry to harp, but this is often more than a “hug your friends” issue.