The past few months have been pretty rough. I graduated from undergrad in December, and took a 5 month temp job a month after, but when it came time to renew I opted out since the temp job wasn't what I'm really looking to be doing. I started applying to jobs again a month before my contract was up, but I barely heard anything from anyone until a month into unemployment. 3 months in now, and the extension I was offered when the contract was up would be in it's last week now and I have nothing to show for it. I still have a couple more months left of savings, but god damn I'm tired of this. There's a local company I've been trying to work at recently and I've applied to all sorts of openings just trying to get my foot in the door, but today I got a rejection email from a fucking call center position with them. I'm legitimately unfit to take phone calls. I honestly have no idea what I'm doing at this point.
In addition to that, my girl and I have been in a weird limbo the past few weeks. We had dated for a year and a half, but broke up almost a year ago because our relationship was unhealthy in our dependence on each other. So we both took some time away to grow a bit more, but we started hanging out a lot more again in the past few months. it was all going in the direction of getting back together, but when I asked her about actually making that jump again, she admitted she was uncomfortable with the idea that she was my first girlfriend and that I didn't date anybody else in the past year. So she straight up told me we can't get back together if I don't date somebody else, which seems like a load of bullshit to either hide either commitment issues or that she wants to still fuck other people. there's definitely a logical answer to this one, but its admittedly hard to swallow since I've admitted that I fell for her all over again and I can very easily see myself living a happy life with her.
Sorry for suck a long rant. More for therapy than looking for answers.