i do it as well and i fully understand the contradiction of it. i face social anxiety in almost every situation, but honestly i could have left the whole critiquing out of my last post because during skating its when i feel the lesser of it. my inability to be stoked on skating at the moment is actually almost entirely based on my remembrance of the past and how skating used to be in my home town. now all my friends just want to get photos, and none of them are even hooked up to be in the rush to get them for a certain reason. i know it's fun to document skating and all, but i miss having that skatepark or spot i can just barge whenever by myself without any disapproval. it just bums me out now that i dont have that spot or park i get a good feeling from and when we go skate san francisco we end up getting trapped in a fucking car because everyone is trying to skate this spot or that spot to get their millionth photo on and not cruise the city, which is what i prefer. i only have a handful of friends here and i'm pretty much sick of them, i moved out here for my girlfriend and for college, and skating has been my life for so long so when i came here i was more than stoked but after a while the whole being in awe over all the spots and parks faded away and i just wish i had the same flow with skating as i did back home because getting knocked off that track has really taken it's tole on me. i'm sure i'll reconstruct that feeling out here eventually but right now it's not in my grasp.