yesterday my ex and i (who i share an apartment with because of problems with breaking the lease) got in a fight about me smoking cigarettes. he ripped up some of my art work, a friends sweatshirt, threw my shit all over the ground, and then proceeded to scream and say horrible things to me not only about myself but about my family and then he punched me in the face, stomach and chest. i feel absolutely terrible, like my heart is sunken in my chest and i feel worthless. my eyes are so swollen from crying and i cant even tell my mom, sister, or best friend because i dont want them to worry about me. i seriously dont even want to exist right now.