yo, i completely forgot about this shit! i don't even remember drafting anyone. goddamn, i'm doing horrible but my squad is kinda nice hah.
man, from that time up til 2 weeks ago i managed to go on a 3 month drinking binge, buying single malt scotch bottles weekly and belgian abbey beers daily, get a job and then quit, wreck my car, went to 3 of the heat's big gms (boston the 1st time, dallas and sundays ny gm all losses lol), caught all the big prem/la liga/cl matches on the tele, did way too many drugs, got the flu and went thru the worse detoxification of drugs/alcohol for 4 days, busted in a strippers mouth in one of the most ghetto strip jawns for 300 bucks, went thru 3 boards, a pairs of aces and 2 sets of spits, 1 iphone, and start talking to a 21 yr old chick who works here for 2/3 weeks at a time, then goes home to rip city for a month. not in order.
at no point did i ever think i was winning. in fact, i'd never been that manically depressed in my life. i was working a 10-11 hr day job, never sitting down, carrying shit all day for over 40 hrs a wk. i was still getting part time wages but the ot hrs were time and a half so i wasn't doing bad. but my back's been so mangled, i to wear a back brace to support my lower back cause the middle would go numb. trying to skate was horrible. i'd be ailing so bad mentally/phyiscally at wrk, then be so happy getting fucked up with my friends later that night. i'd wake up every morning straight loathing myself in ways that aren't worth mentioning. i hate that i'm constantly in conflict with my conscience every min of every day.
all that being said, i'm doing much better now, been taking it easy at home living off my tax return and a couple days away from skating again, feeling more anxious than anything else, cause its going to take forever just to back nosegrind 180. sorry for the wack confession and shit, i check this thread more or less everyday and i saw mccracken's post and had to find an excuse for sleeping thru this fantasy league, mad bummed right now that i had to go off like this hahah
luh you guys