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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10710 on: November 14, 2023, 09:47:54 AM »
Coming up 3 years sober from alcohol.
Tbh Iím inching closer everyday to a severe relapse.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10711 on: November 14, 2023, 10:33:02 AM »
Coming up 3 years sober from alcohol.
Tbh Iím inching closer everyday to a severe relapse.

Don't. I know the feeling, but really bro, it would be a shame. Stay strong.
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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10712 on: November 15, 2023, 05:41:50 PM »
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So... I've been hooking up with this girl who has commitment issues. She came from a toxic relationship that ended 4 months ago. She says she likes me and the sentiment is true, but we both hook up with other people (i admit i do it just to inflate my ego). When we're together it's great and I can see that what she feels is true. I'll be moving to another apartment and I'm having family issues, I feel like I'm in a transitional period. With that in mind, I decided to limit the relationship until the end of the year, but i'm so anxious. I really like her and I want her to work, but I don't know what to do for this thing work out... What do you guys have to say to me?
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Yeah it didn't worked out

@brucewillis - what ended up happening, if you don't mind me asking? I related a lot to your post. I've been in a transitional period this past year and it's kept me from trying to date or get into a relationship. I hope you're okay with how everything went down!

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10713 on: November 16, 2023, 01:17:34 PM »
Thank you
@jewelrunner and @Easyslider
Much love. I hear you. I have those days and sometimes quickly justify falling off the wagon but some affirmations always help. And kind words like I read here.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10714 on: November 16, 2023, 03:01:33 PM »
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So... I've been hooking up with this girl who has commitment issues. She came from a toxic relationship that ended 4 months ago. She says she likes me and the sentiment is true, but we both hook up with other people (i admit i do it just to inflate my ego). When we're together it's great and I can see that what she feels is true. I'll be moving to another apartment and I'm having family issues, I feel like I'm in a transitional period. With that in mind, I decided to limit the relationship until the end of the year, but i'm so anxious. I really like her and I want her to work, but I don't know what to do for this thing work out... What do you guys have to say to me?
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Yeah it didn't worked out
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@brucewillis - what ended up happening, if you don't mind me asking? I related a lot to your post. I've been in a transitional period this past year and it's kept me from trying to date or get into a relationship. I hope you're okay with how everything went down!

@fineslime Well... It lasted just over three months. She reconnected with her ex, it turns out they both had unfinished business. To be honest I don't know if they are back together. She blocked me right after she "broke up" with me, our relastionship didn't have a label (which really bothered me). Soon after, I ended up going out with my high school crush and we continued to see each other. We've been dating for a month now and it's been wonderful, I see reciprocity and now I know what it's like to not be the only one trying to make the relationship work. Looking back I think I had an unhealthy obsession with making things work with the other girl, now i can also see all her toxic and manipulative traits. I'm very glad with your concern my friend, makes me feel hugged! Everything is great here, I'm in love with someone who also truly loves me! Feel free to DM me if you want to talk about your situation and i also hope everything turn out the best for you, much love homie!

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10715 on: November 21, 2023, 10:16:32 AM »
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I havent been sober for longer than a day in months. I started smoking weed and fucking fell in love. I cannot go a day without smoking or drinking. On top of that I just started my studies and cuz im a youngbuck living by myself is a challenge too. Being fucked up everyday does not help getting trough school, work and life, but i still cant see myself being sober.

Also I really cant talk about this shit with anyone, I only got a handfull of friends most of them couldnt give a fuck and my relationship with my parrents is fucked.

Running out of funds is gonna happen at some point too. Weed and beer is hella expencive in finland.
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Check out the Sobriety thread, other pals are struggling with these issues or can give advice and support.
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Reading it actually helped a lot now im a week sober and going on strong feeling a lot better also going to therapy helped a lot too

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10716 on: November 21, 2023, 10:02:15 PM »
My fiancee of a year and girlfriend of 3 years prior (4 years total) left me about a month and a half ago, and I'm completely fucked from it. I've been through break-ups and shit before, I've been suffering from clinical depression since I was a teenager, became addicted to Adderall and nearly overdosed twice, shit I attempted to take my own life at 18, but I'd honestly rather be dead than feel the way I have from this.

I started skating more again, and getting back on my mountain bike, but it all feels so empty. I know that I need to be. doing things I love for myself, I've been spending as much time as possible with friends and family, and allowing myself to feel and process the emotions I've been feeling; all the stuff you're supposed to do.

But to be honest, I'm just fucking tired of it. I've nearly relapsed several times, I'm smoking copious amounts of weed, nothing brings me any joy anymore, and I feel like the things I am doing are just a form of passive suicidal ideation. Because I don't want to take my own life and cause the people I love pain and suffering, but I want someone to take the pain and suffering away from me.

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10717 on: November 22, 2023, 06:56:32 AM »
My fiancee of a year and girlfriend of 3 years prior (4 years total) left me about a month and a half ago, and I'm completely fucked from it. I've been through break-ups and shit before, I've been suffering from clinical depression since I was a teenager, became addicted to Adderall and nearly overdosed twice, shit I attempted to take my own life at 18, but I'd honestly rather be dead than feel the way I have from this.

I started skating more again, and getting back on my mountain bike, but it all feels so empty. I know that I need to be. doing things I love for myself, I've been spending as much time as possible with friends and family, and allowing myself to feel and process the emotions I've been feeling; all the stuff you're supposed to do.

But to be honest, I'm just fucking tired of it. I've nearly relapsed several times, I'm smoking copious amounts of weed, nothing brings me any joy anymore, and I feel like the things I am doing are just a form of passive suicidal ideation. Because I don't want to take my own life and cause the people I love pain and suffering, but I want someone to take the pain and suffering away from me.

been to break up recently also, these stoic videos are the best things i found so far

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhYVdeXvLYg

specially this part: https://youtu.be/YhYVdeXvLYg?si=RIHYtCiiRHesSuxM&t=620

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10718 on: November 22, 2023, 08:52:36 AM »
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My fiancee of a year and girlfriend of 3 years prior (4 years total) left me about a month and a half ago, and I'm completely fucked from it. I've been through break-ups and shit before, I've been suffering from clinical depression since I was a teenager, became addicted to Adderall and nearly overdosed twice, shit I attempted to take my own life at 18, but I'd honestly rather be dead than feel the way I have from this.

I started skating more again, and getting back on my mountain bike, but it all feels so empty. I know that I need to be. doing things I love for myself, I've been spending as much time as possible with friends and family, and allowing myself to feel and process the emotions I've been feeling; all the stuff you're supposed to do.

But to be honest, I'm just fucking tired of it. I've nearly relapsed several times, I'm smoking copious amounts of weed, nothing brings me any joy anymore, and I feel like the things I am doing are just a form of passive suicidal ideation. Because I don't want to take my own life and cause the people I love pain and suffering, but I want someone to take the pain and suffering away from me.
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been to break up recently also, these stoic videos are the best things i found so far

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhYVdeXvLYg

specially this part: https://youtu.be/YhYVdeXvLYg?si=RIHYtCiiRHesSuxM&t=620

Thank you so much for this, itís so fucking tough to avoid being self-destructive. Iíll be giving this a listen throughout my day

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Re: real confessions
« Reply #10719 on: November 27, 2023, 09:29:44 AM »
Coming up 3 years sober from alcohol.
Tbh Iím inching closer everyday to a severe relapse.

The fact that youíre aware of it is better than nothing. Just please, think about all of the clarity and what not sobriety has (presumably) brought you. I believe in you.
For someone w.no signature ur awfully hostile, & that is why I do this