I'm 20 years old and still living at home. I know this is an increasingly normal thing in America but it's literally driving me fucking crazy. Haven't been able to find a job for two years post high-school, didn't finish high-school to begin with, don't have a G.E.D., haven't gone to college among other things. My failure to do these things doesn't have anything to do with smarts (god knows how many times people have said i'm "bright and have potential") but more so with being a non-linear thinker who really can't focus on anything in the real world what-so-ever. Excuses? sure... but it's my reality. Being raised by two artist/hippie parents who didn't show much focus on me being a better student maybe added in to being a "head in the clouds" kind of guy.. who knows. Just coming to terms with being a lost cause here
its all about focus man. shit only gets older & more frustrating with time. eventually youll just say fuck it & start working towards something. find what it is you
really wanna do. not just ona surface level, but what things in life actually bring you deep fulfillment & satisfaction? some people are driven to inspire people, others want to master a craft or learn about something...just find that niche & work from there. just start off small making small improvements here & there, but the main point to consistently take those baby steps every day & eventually it snowballs into something more fulfilling. you're fueled by the small successes that make you want to succeed more, and so on.
school shit aside, it sounds like you just arent totally sure with what you want to do with your life so you sit there just being stagnant. I'd advise reading Robert Greene's book Mastery. its about learning to take the necessary steps to become a "master" at anything over a long term apprenticeship. The book as a whole is great but at the beginning it speaks on the whole "finding what it is that you truly want to do" thing in depth & that is where i think you can apply some of that knowledge to better your life & feel good about yourself. nobodys a lost cause man i done seen the worst of niggas learn from their mistakes & go on to do good for themselves, and I believe that the experiences we have are what makes us so while you may be in somewhat of a bad period right now, hopefully in the future you'll find success & happiness from the lessons you've learned during that period. good luck fam