Goddammit Jackson. Alright, I'll get real for the good of the thread.
I tried to kill myself on Easter a year and a half ago.
Later that year I decided that smoking crack was a really awesome thing to do, and went into a short period of doing that multiple times a day.
One of my brothers has AIDS, and I know it's selfish, but some days I just wish he would die in a car crash or something, so I don't have to watch him get really sick.
That's about as real as I'm comfortable getting while I'm sober.