My long distance sweetheart in another time zone told me she just did a photo shoot for a hubba ad. I'm stoked for her, and she's a total babe, just a strange feeling that others will likely see her in little to no clothing, something I kinda liked having exclusivity to seeing. Also, when she first told me about the offer, she seemed really unsure about doing it, and thought the website was kinda trashy. Apparently the lady has to pay bills though
slippery slope? But anyway it's rad, and I can be all like 'ya, my girl's a model.' but really who'd believe me? and this even further puts her out of my league, not sure what she'd see in a long distance relationship with a guy like me; but fair enough, she's not shallow so she wouldn't easily just leave me for something better i don't think. Still fear i'm losing her. Gets to meet people who are much better at skating than me & stuff, but i doubt that'd phase her cause when we met i don't think she had any interest in skating or was more or less indifferent to it; just asked questions about it cause she knew i liked skating lots. Yeah I'm really fretful about my long distance relationship in general... and talking about it more or less anonymously over the internet seems easier than talking about it to anyone i know
. pretty much can't really have the raw bleeding heart conversation with anyone around here. but yeah she's a rad girl, and i hope for the best in our situation
I also have insomnia which i'm sure doesn't help this post make sense.