The WELLNESS OUTREACH & SUPPORT Thread

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ook my first ever ambulance ride. I was driving myself to the hospital I was on my porch leaving and I just crumbled. I asked for help for 25 minutes and I’m just finally called the ambulance. Every single organ system was shutting down. I lost consciousness two days. And I woke up and I couldn’t see. I gave me a bunch of vitamins and anabiotic’s. My vitamins were seriously out of whack.
Today is my 12th day in the hospital. I tSo tomorrow we get to look for beds and assisted living so I can learn how to walk again. I thought I was gonna die

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Glad you didn't. Never been in your shoes, but I hope you feel a bit safer and cared for in the hospital.

They are sending me to assisted living like some old man.  But I’m just doing everything they tell me to.  If. I didn’t call the ambulance I would’ve died on my porch.  All my organs were shutting down.  They drained 2, liters of this yellow puss stuff from my belly

[lemonchicken91]

That's rough, stay strong.

10 toes down. I understand my gf and I have been fightingrecently because we are both stressed

I got a new job this year and am making more money than ever but it is draining me mentally and I haven't been able to be there as much emotionally. My gf has lupus and she is having to use a cane since last christmas and none of the doctors or meds seem to help much.

Took me until now to break up.

While i feel terrible guilt for leaving her sick, she was getting meaner and meaner to me and i began isolating from friends and family.

Even after several raises and advancss in career we were broke and i cant save someone from drowning if i drown too.

She is refusing to leave the apartment (i pay all bills) for now and i never got nasty. It sucks having to draw a line but illness is no excuse to yell at me daily.

I snapped when i missed seeing my aging family for the fourth because we spent my entire bonus fixing her car. She then had us babysit her 6 year old sister which is cool, but she yelled at me in front of her sister because i couldnt locate gluten free hot dog buns.

I packed up and left and will give her some time to relocate. I wish i could fix everything but i was dying to live (sigh)

Yelling into the void here.

Realized i hadnt skated or surfed in 2 years really just worked came
Home and hid.

[lemonchicken91]

She took da cats but i guess i grt to skate again

[TheCrimsonShroud]

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That's rough, stay strong.

10 toes down. I understand my gf and I have been fightingrecently because we are both stressed

I got a new job this year and am making more money than ever but it is draining me mentally and I haven't been able to be there as much emotionally. My gf has lupus and she is having to use a cane since last christmas and none of the doctors or meds seem to help much.

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Took me until now to break up.

While i feel terrible guilt for leaving her sick, she was getting meaner and meaner to me and i began isolating from friends and family.

Even after several raises and advancss in career we were broke and i cant save someone from drowning if i drown too.

She is refusing to leave the apartment (i pay all bills) for now and i never got nasty. It sucks having to draw a line but illness is no excuse to yell at me daily.

I snapped when i missed seeing my aging family for the fourth because we spent my entire bonus fixing her car. She then had us babysit her 6 year old sister which is cool, but she yelled at me in front of her sister because i couldnt locate gluten free hot dog buns.

I packed up and left and will give her some time to relocate. I wish i could fix everything but i was dying to live (sigh)

Yelling into the void here.

Realized i hadnt skated or surfed in 2 years really just worked came
Home and hid.

My gf has BPD and fibro and every day is a nightmare. Up and down. Sweet as can be then cursing and yelling. It’s hard to feel out of place in your own home. I’m glad you were able to make a stand. It’ll get better

[lemonchicken91]

thank you, I really appreciate it.

I dont have much advice because I have such a mix of relief, regret, and pain, but as long as you know that you have good stress relief and know when to draw a line.

the illness aspect is something a lot of people don't understand. I wish I could help, and I did for a long time, but I was reaching a point of making myself ill to keep her somewhat ok.

There is no right answer, and I pray my ex can find the help she needs.

I felt like the difference was my caretaker role began enabling and she needed to work on some things herself as did I

[Jim and Dan]

thank you, I really appreciate it.

I dont have much advice because I have such a mix of relief, regret, and pain, but as long as you know that you have good stress relief and know when to draw a line.

the illness aspect is something a lot of people don't understand. I wish I could help, and I did for a long time, but I was reaching a point of making myself ill to keep her somewhat ok.

There is no right answer, and I pray my ex can find the help she needs.

I felt like the difference was my caretaker role began enabling and she needed to work on some things herself as did I

Glad you were able to find some solace in an otherwise stressful situation...

I'm in a relatively similar boat (sans-breakup), it's not easy...

Trying to build boundaries and stand-up for unacceptable treatment don't come naturally, it's something I've had to learn and still am learning...

But alas, you can't help someone that doesn't want to be helped, no matter how hard you try...

[lemonchicken91]

Just don't let it get too far.

I don't know yalls situation so I wont judge.

So she came to get the rest of her stuff today, it did not go well.

Thankfully my homie pulled up just in time... she was WILDING

Very upset. Until tonight when people start asking me my Zelle... she made a fake IG account of me and was asking everyone for money. Now im PISSED.

[NoComply180]

I’m having a really hard time with not being able to pinpoint what’s wrong with me/what’s causing me to feel the way that I do. In the past when I was depressed, once I had a diagnosis and could recognize my symptoms as part of a specific condition/illness, it helped me at least feel grounded in knowing what was wrong/what was making me feel a certain way.

Now I just feel afloat in this place of going through the motions of life and holding it all together, unable to figure out what makes me feel so ungrounded and unstable and uncertain about what’s real and what’s just my brain being fucked. It’s exhausting.

I feel like for months on end I haven’t genuinely felt at ease or relaxed or “ok” for any significant amount of time. I really understand now how drinking used to help with this (in the moment that is, it made everything worse overall).

Anyways, just shouting into the void. Happy Sunday pals.

[Jim and Dan]

Just don't let it get too far.

I don't know yalls situation so I wont judge.

So she came to get the rest of her stuff today, it did not go well.

Thankfully my homie pulled up just in time... she was WILDING

Very upset. Until tonight when people start asking me my Zelle... she made a fake IG account of me and was asking everyone for money. Now im PISSED.

Wild stuff, that kind of behavior is no joke and something that I have feared in the past...

@NoComply180 I wish I had an easy answer for you...

[h00man]

Been going through a rough year since my mom passed away (1 year ago).

My life is completely different now, not just related to her passing, but in every way. My relationships, my work life, etc. Just doesnt feel the same.

I guess I've been feeling hopeless and pessimistic for years now, but I don't feel like there's anything to look forward to anymore. I have my own place, a car, job, slappy tricks, but I don't know what else to look forward to other than coming home everyday to play games and skate.

Not sure why I can't be happy with what I have.

[lemonchicken91]

Well only advice I got is keep creating, I have been on autopilot for years and am sad that I have become the guy in life who sits on the ledge at the park for everything. The years were blending together because I wasn't creating new memories

Work, avoid confrontation, repeat.
Doom scroll

[lazer69]

The melt downs started :/

[lemonchicken91]

Keep pushing.

been about a month, havent skated yet just been walking like a maniac to calm the brain.

I will try to check in here and provide any support.

I talked to @Dark Knight , he was going to a care facility for a bit, homie tweaked his neck/back working out last year and has been having neurological issues bad, spasms lack of control.

I am not religious but sending some stoke prayers for my boy to the cataclysmic abyss

[Mr. Kamikazi]

Drive somewhere open & different.

Also, look into this: https://integrativepsych.co/new-blog/what-is-parts-work-therapy-ifs

[SmashtheState]

Idk if this means anything, maybe it's a plead for help. Everyday sometimes feels like a rat race wake up feed myself and wife run the dog clean up a bit cat litter and cat stuff.

Often time's reading stuff or seeing this current administration has been doing has lead me feeling empty that only real way of course corrections is to put actions forward, sure I might sound like a fed up 4chan kook but no I've got no motivation just sadness and exhausted depressed mood from this timeline that I'd rather end myself than deal with stresses and day to day boring existence.

[StormonMormon]

Idk if this means anything, maybe it's a plead for help. Everyday sometimes feels like a rat race wake up feed myself and wife run the dog clean up a bit cat litter and cat stuff.

Often time's reading stuff or seeing this current administration has been doing has lead me feeling empty that only real way of course corrections is to put actions forward, sure I might sound like a fed up 4chan kook but no I've got no motivation just sadness and exhausted depressed mood from this timeline that I'd rather end myself than deal with stresses and day to day boring existence.

I'm diagnosed as having Major Depressive Order '  their's so many labels I cannot keep up.

Here's one story.

I'm in Calgary, going through Hell , my girlfriend snaps on me n tells me to get outside n go to the skatepark.

So I'm in no mood to be around anyone, I'm skating by myself n I here a clap n a " hey Mang , you skate here all the time Ayyyyyyy.
It was Chico Brenes .

I don't sit inside n cry all day anymore.
I cry outside in the sun instead haha
Stay Up PlaiBoy
One Day At A Time.

I

[HeadInLionsMouth]

i think today might be the day

[JM]

i think today might be the day

Pm’d you

[fakiefs180]

Hey pals, I need to tell someone. Sometime in the last year I became depressed, but didn't realize it. Then my grandma passed away and I became a drinker for two months. Then the trouble with my girlfriend began. I had no energy to do much things. I was just functioning and nothing mattered to me. And I couldn't see how much she meant to me. After easter time I finally realized something is wrong with me and I started to search for a therapist. She said she needed some time without me and I fell into a hole. During that time I drank and still smoked cigarettes. Then we finally saw us again but I was already on the downward spiral. That was 3 weeks ago I broke down in front of her. We had an argument and I left her flat in the middle of the night. Two days later she texted me that it is over and she can't handle my depressions. That was when my whole world broke down. I realized that I lost myself during the 4 years we have been together. I was barely able to function anymore and moved back to my parents. I stopped eating but am taking antidepressants for 3 weeks now. My sleep is absolutely shit and I don't have much energy. But I still do my daily exercises but don't have much appetite. I could smoke all day and I wanted to stop a long time ago but I can't. I lost 16 pounds and became ripped but nothing else seems to matter anymore. Exercises help a bit when I feel really down. Today I got all my stuff from her and broke down again when I was alone. I feel so much guilt how I treated her during my depressions. She has her own problems and I was a problem too during the last months. Shit hurts so much to be left alone from the person that I loved so much. Why didn't I realize earlier how am I feeling? Now she is gone and I don't know anymore who I am. My parents and friends are there for me but it is really hard to get up every morning and do something. Sometimes I don't even know what to do. I have to start almost my whole life over. Taking care of myself, things like eating and I feel so sad and lost. It's hard to see any meaning in anything now.

[Jim and Dan]

Hey pals, I need to tell someone. Sometime in the last year I became depressed, but didn't realize it. Then my grandma passed away and I became a drinker for two months. Then the trouble with my girlfriend began. I had no energy to do much things. I was just functioning and nothing mattered to me. And I couldn't see how much she meant to me. After easter time I finally realized something is wrong with me and I started to search for a therapist. She said she needed some time without me and I fell into a hole. During that time I drank and still smoked cigarettes. Then we finally saw us again but I was already on the downward spiral. That was 3 weeks ago I broke down in front of her. We had an argument and I left her flat in the middle of the night. Two days later she texted me that it is over and she can't handle my depressions. That was when my whole world broke down. I realized that I lost myself during the 4 years we have been together. I was barely able to function anymore and moved back to my parents. I stopped eating but am taking antidepressants for 3 weeks now. My sleep is absolutely shit and I don't have much energy. But I still do my daily exercises but don't have much appetite. I could smoke all day and I wanted to stop a long time ago but I can't. I lost 16 pounds and became ripped but nothing else seems to matter anymore. Exercises help a bit when I feel really down. Today I got all my stuff from her and broke down again when I was alone. I feel so much guilt how I treated her during my depressions. She has her own problems and I was a problem too during the last months. Shit hurts so much to be left alone from the person that I loved so much. Why didn't I realize earlier how am I feeling? Now she is gone and I don't know anymore who I am. My parents and friends are there for me but it is really hard to get up every morning and do something. Sometimes I don't even know what to do. I have to start almost my whole life over. Taking care of myself, things like eating and I feel so sad and lost. It's hard to see any meaning in anything now.

Sorry to hear all that, I'm starting to head down that road again myself and am unsure of what to do next...

I've held it together pretty well for the past 5 or so years, but the last 6 months have been rough and I'm unsure how to keep positive at this point as everything seems to start piling on all at once...

[Jim and Dan]

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Hey pals, I need to tell someone. Sometime in the last year I became depressed, but didn't realize it. Then my grandma passed away and I became a drinker for two months. Then the trouble with my girlfriend began. I had no energy to do much things. I was just functioning and nothing mattered to me. And I couldn't see how much she meant to me. After easter time I finally realized something is wrong with me and I started to search for a therapist. She said she needed some time without me and I fell into a hole. During that time I drank and still smoked cigarettes. Then we finally saw us again but I was already on the downward spiral. That was 3 weeks ago I broke down in front of her. We had an argument and I left her flat in the middle of the night. Two days later she texted me that it is over and she can't handle my depressions. That was when my whole world broke down. I realized that I lost myself during the 4 years we have been together. I was barely able to function anymore and moved back to my parents. I stopped eating but am taking antidepressants for 3 weeks now. My sleep is absolutely shit and I don't have much energy. But I still do my daily exercises but don't have much appetite. I could smoke all day and I wanted to stop a long time ago but I can't. I lost 16 pounds and became ripped but nothing else seems to matter anymore. Exercises help a bit when I feel really down. Today I got all my stuff from her and broke down again when I was alone. I feel so much guilt how I treated her during my depressions. She has her own problems and I was a problem too during the last months. Shit hurts so much to be left alone from the person that I loved so much. Why didn't I realize earlier how am I feeling? Now she is gone and I don't know anymore who I am. My parents and friends are there for me but it is really hard to get up every morning and do something. Sometimes I don't even know what to do. I have to start almost my whole life over. Taking care of myself, things like eating and I feel so sad and lost. It's hard to see any meaning in anything now.

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Sorry to hear all that, I'm starting to head down that road again myself and am unsure of what to do next...

I've held it together pretty well for the past 5 or so years, but the last 6 months have been rough and I'm unsure how to keep positive at this point as everything seems to start piling on all at once...

Really just having one of those days that I just want to completely give up...

[AnimalChinaski79]

Don't give up.  I'm not that much better when it comes to severe depression and anxiety and some days are an absolute struggle but never give up.  Know that you're not alone. 

[lemonchicken91]

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Hey pals, I need to tell someone. Sometime in the last year I became depressed, but didn't realize it. Then my grandma passed away and I became a drinker for two months. Then the trouble with my girlfriend began. I had no energy to do much things. I was just functioning and nothing mattered to me. And I couldn't see how much she meant to me. After easter time I finally realized something is wrong with me and I started to search for a therapist. She said she needed some time without me and I fell into a hole. During that time I drank and still smoked cigarettes. Then we finally saw us again but I was already on the downward spiral. That was 3 weeks ago I broke down in front of her. We had an argument and I left her flat in the middle of the night. Two days later she texted me that it is over and she can't handle my depressions. That was when my whole world broke down. I realized that I lost myself during the 4 years we have been together. I was barely able to function anymore and moved back to my parents. I stopped eating but am taking antidepressants for 3 weeks now. My sleep is absolutely shit and I don't have much energy. But I still do my daily exercises but don't have much appetite. I could smoke all day and I wanted to stop a long time ago but I can't. I lost 16 pounds and became ripped but nothing else seems to matter anymore. Exercises help a bit when I feel really down. Today I got all my stuff from her and broke down again when I was alone. I feel so much guilt how I treated her during my depressions. She has her own problems and I was a problem too during the last months. Shit hurts so much to be left alone from the person that I loved so much. Why didn't I realize earlier how am I feeling? Now she is gone and I don't know anymore who I am. My parents and friends are there for me but it is really hard to get up every morning and do something. Sometimes I don't even know what to do. I have to start almost my whole life over. Taking care of myself, things like eating and I feel so sad and lost. It's hard to see any meaning in anything now.

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Sorry to hear all that, I'm starting to head down that road again myself and am unsure of what to do next...

I've held it together pretty well for the past 5 or so years, but the last 6 months have been rough and I'm unsure how to keep positive at this point as everything seems to start piling on all at once...

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Really just having one of those days that I just want to completely give up...

Keep pushing. I hope your situation improved and if not, you made some changes at least for yourself.
HAd a panic attack at work friday in a meeting w the CEO... hid it well I guess but knew it was coming and absoltely had to melt down and seek shelter friday night.
I'll try to check in here more often yall

I would like to tell everyone it was sunshine and rainbows after my ex and I split. I had a great time for a bit, kept the drinking under control then went on a sick ass bender when I met rebound chica. Then I was heartbroken after that fizzled out and have been drinking a solid amount since december.

Just now pulling out of it, but was also getting social again so it was a double edge sword.
Do I become Dollin or do I stay on the couch. (THPS grind balance.jpg)

[lemonchicken91]

I know cliche ass advice but whats been helping me recently was not trying to fix everything at once.

Even if I JUST do laundry, or JUST walk a few blocks. every day have SOMETHING, even if its laughably easy to cross off the list.