I am 2/3s the way through the first video and it is a wild ride.
Mental health is very serious.
Fuck me that first video is a trip. I was skipping through it, and there's no possible way to guess what he'll be talking about three minutes later. There's flying toads, his grandmother escaping Mussolini, Bible verses, MK ultra, eating ice cream, a varial heel wall ride, the Federal Reserve, marriage = disappointment.
At some point he's talking about episodes of hypomania, a never-ending chase of a next catharsis and illusions of having the sole key to truth and human salvation. I hope he finds the help and medication to restart his own diagnosis there, and take a different turn.