Things You Are Stoked On But Not Stoked On

[ClownOfTheDay]

Might be moving back to SF this summer, I miss my family out there, plus I want to explore northern California, like Eureka and find myself a nice little place by the ocean with a lady from the sea.

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Getting divorced.

Stoked to no longer have a wife that wasn't really a partner and was always creating financial/emotional chaos (after short bursts of being awesome).

Bummed, she got diagnosed with bipolar II 2 weeks prior to relationship ending. Maybe, her meds would have changed everything?

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No they probably wouldn't have. Before you even said bipolar I was already thinking of it. Been there, done that, be glad you are getting out at all.

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Thanks man, I appreciate it.

I'm super bummed, but stoked at the same time.

She was the absolute best woman to date, but it was a nightmare to be married to her. Her chaos, student loans, lack of consideration for the future, etc. didn't matter while dating because it was just fun, but once married, man none of the shit helped anything (and her parents left me to deal with everything on my own).

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I really have no idea why society doesn't put the proper emphasis on the financial side of getting married. Both my parents and my wife's parents taught us nothing about money. Even simple things like the importance of keeping a high credit score never discussed. We had some issues that we found out about after being married, but luckily it wasn't anything that was too expensive and stressful. My wife owed a few grand in student loans that she defaulted on and her debt was taken out of our tax refund last year. We still got a refund, just not the full amount of what we expected, but she's paid off now and we can move forward.

My buddy though, I kinda wish I could tell him that getting married is a huge mistake for him. Both of them work in retail and don't make that great of money. I've overheard that she's six figures in student loan debt, and I don't know how anyone could afford to pay that off in their lifetime working retail. I think she has a degree, but is unmotivated to go out and compete for jobs in that field. Having a great relationship might be something people consider priceless, but jumping into that much debt with someone sure puts pressure on your future.

Yeah getting debt and shit handled is a big reason why my gf and I are holding off.

[os89]

Really stoked to finally be off oxys for the past few days, but also not fucking stoked on how absolutely shitty I feel. Been really tough, haven't even been getting on slap much at all. I appreciate you guys here who gave some good advice. Feel like a few more days and I'll be a bit more energetic... Hopefully. I still want to run out and get more 30s first chance I get, but I'm really doing my best not to. This shit is not easy. Shalom.

[Mystical Leader]

Been in some kind of slump emotionally...

... Like I'm doing what I like, things are moving forward, I get shit done but at the same time I'm miserable..

Am I doing it wrong? Do I really like what I am doing? What's going on? What even is doing these days?

Stoked to have my art projects and work thriving, not stoked on the emotional toll it has taken on me..

[ClownOfTheDay]

Been in some kind of slump emotionally...

... Like I'm doing what I like, things are moving forward, I get shit done but at the same time I'm miserable..

Am I doing it wrong? Do I really like what I am doing? What's going on? What even is doing these days?

Stoked to have my art projects and work thriving, not stoked on the emotional toll it has taken on me..

I've been feeling the same way, the thing that really helps is writing. I've done some poetry and I think it helps, I'm currently between a family civil war and I can't seem to choose a place to reside. In Iowa I feel so alone and I can't get the help I need, when I was back home in SF I had an awesome therapist and I had my family to support me but I hated the people out there. Pretentious, and so "special" but people are like that everywhere I learned. I moved to Iowa to get a break from everything but realized the problems followed me and I should'a just toughened up and faced them. I've been having dreams and it feels like my subconscious  has been telling me to go back.

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Really stoked to finally be off oxys for the past few days, but also not fucking stoked on how absolutely shitty I feel. Been really tough, haven't even been getting on slap much at all. I appreciate you guys here who gave some good advice. Feel like a few more days and I'll be a bit more energetic... Hopefully. I still want to run out and get more 30s first chance I get, but I'm really doing my best not to. This shit is not easy. Shalom.

Just take it minute by minute and stay busy. Go to a meeting if you have to. I can’t imagine the physical discomfort your going through. I was taking a few norcos a day for months and even just that shit the first day the withdrawals hit was unlike anything. I felt like I had the flu and had also been in a car accident.

[Sila]

Getting out of my current sharehouse. The place and the people just aren't for me. Downside is I will potentially be homeless. Been there before but i'm anxious.

[layzieyez]

Completed two more projects to skate on yesterday.

It required mixing five bags of concrete by hand, alone. Now, I have blisters. One is on my right palm and is oozing.

[DarthDingusMaximus]

Went to my local park today and got my ledge tricks dialed, I find it hard to actually skate with someone albeit street skating.

When it comes to skating I hit everything inbetween not just one places or the other I really enjoy the search for potential spots.

the younger generation really doesn't know how easy they've got it.

[DirtyBurger]

I got a raise this week, but I've been considering looking for a new job. I think the lady I work for sensed it and now it seems kind of awkward.

[Leggy]

On vacation with my girl in Europe. Been an awesome trip so far. At the same time I’m sort of having an identity crisis and it seems like my girl is as well.

It’s a combo of

Being far removed from my daily routine

Experiencing a lot of well dressed, confident, bi-lingual, smart people who seem to have their shit together.

It’s an eye opener experiencing other people outside of my little suburban town. It’s refreshing and inspiring to see how where I’m from isn’t a representation of everywhere else and there are other ways to be and live.

While I currently feel unsure about everything from my clothes and hair cut to my job and hobbies. I am excited to get back home and make some changes in my life. Hoping the feeling of getting broken down will be a start to get built back up. But yeah as an adult to feel this way kind of sucks but I’m definitely taking it as a sign that some shit needs to change in my life.

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On vacation with my girl in Europe. Been an awesome trip so far. At the same time I’m sort of having an identity crisis and it seems like my girl is as well.

It’s a combo of

Being far removed from my daily routine

Experiencing a lot of well dressed, confident, bi-lingual, smart people who seem to have their shit together.

It’s an eye opener experiencing other people outside of my little suburban town. It’s refreshing and inspiring to see how where I’m from isn’t a representation of everywhere else and there are other ways to be and live.

While I currently feel unsure about everything from my clothes and hair cut to my job and hobbies. I am excited to get back home and make some changes in my life. Hoping the feeling of getting broken down will be a start to get built back up. But yeah as an adult to feel this way kind of sucks but I’m definitely taking it as a sign that some shit needs to change in my life.

Dude you're taking a trip to Europe, you gotta kind of have it together? You're in another country, if they came here they might say, holy shit everyone is so laid back they don't have to wear these bullshit suits.

Everywhere you go will be different. You sound happy about it though, so good for you. But I've gotten that feeling from seeing people I know succeed. Be honest with yourselves when you come back and ask if you are fucking up in life or you just got to see some fancy people. I know a lot of people that dress nice, are bi-lingual, have their shit together and I wouldn't be able to be around them for 30 seconds.

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Really stoked to finally be off oxys for the past few days, but also not fucking stoked on how absolutely shitty I feel. Been really tough, haven't even been getting on slap much at all. I appreciate you guys here who gave some good advice. Feel like a few more days and I'll be a bit more energetic... Hopefully. I still want to run out and get more 30s first chance I get, but I'm really doing my best not to. This shit is not easy. Shalom.

good for you dude . rooting for you i like your posts

[50mm]

Stoked I have a job interview coming up, not stoked that I'm gonna cut all my hair off tomorrow for it. Snip snip.

I like to look like a bum, wear hats and big jackets, but I gotta clean up (which I do well) for it. My interview isn't for another two weeks but I wont have time to get a cut besides this weekend. Everyone is gonna put me on the spot next week at work.

At least it will be easier to get ready in the morning and my girlfriend will be happy.

[os89]

Thanks guys, but I fucked up again yesterday. Just still really struggling with this shit. I plan to stay put for a few days and not leave the house. Finally came clean with my girlfriend and told her everything. She was not very happy I've been lying to her but was also glad I actually did tell her. I don't blame her for being pissed at all, it just feels good not to be hiding it from her anymore. That was just making me feel even worse.

[authentic_creed_bratton]

That sounds like a bigger step forward than you realize, good job dude. For real. Dont beat yourself up for sliding backward, today is a new day, all that shit

[doublesteveburger]

5 hour layover in Denver. Never been here. Still feels like I’m not here. But I’m here, baby.



cute spooky pony with red eyes

[lady fanny]

5 hour layover in Denver. Never been here. Still feels like I’m not here. But I’m here, baby.



cute spooky pony with red eyes

oh that airport w/ all the illuminati artwork? Jesse the Body took us there a while back. take some pictures.

[50mm]

Drove a big loop through mountains, forested areas and desert on a sort of 1 day road trip with my girlfriend, but it ended with a speeding ticket.

But I skated a really slick curb in front of a bank in the middle of nowhere, it was so perfect red I was inspired to buy some clear coat. There are these curbs at a school I skate that are like banks and it smoothly transitions into a curb. I'm gonna bondo the bottom little crack and it will be a perfect ride on curb that you could do all kinds of crazy stuff on.

[TheLurper]

Thanks guys, but I fucked up again yesterday. Just still really struggling with this shit. I plan to stay put for a few days and not leave the house. Finally came clean with my girlfriend and told her everything. She was not very happy I've been lying to her but was also glad I actually did tell her. I don't blame her for being pissed at all, it just feels good not to be hiding it from her anymore. That was just making me feel even worse.

Good luck.

It sounds like you are making progress.  I can imagine that dealing with everything is super tough right now, but you are taking steps forward, which is awesome.

Stoked I have a job interview coming up, not stoked that I'm gonna cut all my hair off tomorrow for it. Snip snip.

Is it long enough to be donated? Making someone else's day might make it a little easier to part with your hair.

[ClownOfTheDay]

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5 hour layover in Denver. Never been here. Still feels like I’m not here. But I’m here, baby.



cute spooky pony with red eyes

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oh that airport w/ all the illuminati artwork? Jesse the Body took us there a while back. take some pictures.

I was just there going home for thanksgiving. It's a nice airport. I didn't see the art but the people there are strange. They all stared at me when I would walk around. Strange...

[burtreynolds.jpeg]

A girl led me on super hard then hurt my feelings a few weeks ago...but since then, I've been skating a ton, filming and editing a lot, working on starting a podcast.

Being hurt never felt so good.

[ClownOfTheDay]

A girl led me on super hard then hurt my feelings a few weeks ago...but since then, I've been skating a ton, filming and editing a lot, working on starting a podcast.

Being hurt never felt so good.

that sounds like good projects, best of luck to you.

People. People rock but they also can chug cock.

[swan pablo murphy]

My girlfriend of 6 years and I decided to break things off on good terms a couple months ago. I'm 22 so its been a lot to process but I've been feeling positive about the future and meeting new people.

Went to a show last night and met a girl I matched with on Tinder and it went really well. She's really cool and I stayed at her place for the night. Long story short she wanted sex and I couldn't even do it. I wanted to but it just wasn't happening and I've never had this problem before. It was a trip but she wasn't too bummed, but it definitely had me feeling fucked up.

Stoked: We already are making plans to go on a real date and I like her so that's sick.
Not stoked: Did not smash. Could not smash. Very embarrassing. Frustrating.

[theSketchLord]

I recently connected with an old mate, his dad knew my mum way before my parents were married.
Something happened along the way and his parents and mine don't talk anymore, managed to get his dads email of my mum's phone while back in the UK and shot off an email.

While it's super cool chatting again it kinda bums me out that it's been 26 years that I haven't seen this dude that I've known longer than my own brother.

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My girlfriend of 6 years and I decided to break things off on good terms a couple months ago. I'm 22 so its been a lot to process but I've been feeling positive about the future and meeting new people.

Went to a show last night and met a girl I matched with on Tinder and it went really well. She's really cool and I stayed at her place for the night. Long story short she wanted sex and I couldn't even do it. I wanted to but it just wasn't happening and I've never had this problem before. It was a trip but she wasn't too bummed, but it definitely had me feeling fucked up.

Stoked: We already are making plans to go on a real date and I like her so that's sick.
Not stoked: Did not smash. Could not smash. Very embarrassing. Frustrating.

We're you too nervous or too drunk? I've had it happen. Including my first time lol. But I don't know anyone who fucked like an animal their first time. I was nervous as fuck. It happens if I have a new partner sometimes too, like the first time.

[swan pablo murphy]

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My girlfriend of 6 years and I decided to break things off on good terms a couple months ago. I'm 22 so its been a lot to process but I've been feeling positive about the future and meeting new people.

Went to a show last night and met a girl I matched with on Tinder and it went really well. She's really cool and I stayed at her place for the night. Long story short she wanted sex and I couldn't even do it. I wanted to but it just wasn't happening and I've never had this problem before. It was a trip but she wasn't too bummed, but it definitely had me feeling fucked up.

Stoked: We already are making plans to go on a real date and I like her so that's sick.
Not stoked: Did not smash. Could not smash. Very embarrassing. Frustrating.

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We're you too nervous or too drunk? I've had it happen. Including my first time lol. But I don't know anyone who fucked like an animal their first time. I was nervous as fuck. It happens if I have a new partner sometimes too, like the first time.

I was pretty drunk but mostly nervous. She invited me over the night after and once again, the same problem occurred. It was worse the second time, she was bummed. She was texting me the next day and anyway, invited me over once again. So third night around, we had sex for maybe a minute before I went limp. This time, it was awful. She was kinda pissed this time and obviously I was very frustrated and bummed. Now things are very weird and I don't know whats happening. She told me this whole issue is a pretty big turn off and that my nervousness around her is too. I only became nervous after failing in the sack and now its consuming me which is only making the issue much fucking worse. She also said she thinks its wild that I like her so much so quickly especially after getting out of a long term relationship only a month ago. I am remembering now that I have a really bad habit of falling too fast, which is something I hate about myself. I am calling for desperate measures now and I have a doctors appointment tomorrow hoping to get Viagra, being hopeful that I have another chance (her patience is running low but from the things shes said I think I could have another shot). This whole thing has got me really fucking bummed, clearly all she wants is just a casual fling but even then I'm totally cool with that. I just hope shes not totally over it but I guess thus is life.

Also pretty crushed to hear the news of Kobe and his daughter. RIP

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My girlfriend of 6 years and I decided to break things off on good terms a couple months ago. I'm 22 so its been a lot to process but I've been feeling positive about the future and meeting new people.

Went to a show last night and met a girl I matched with on Tinder and it went really well. She's really cool and I stayed at her place for the night. Long story short she wanted sex and I couldn't even do it. I wanted to but it just wasn't happening and I've never had this problem before. It was a trip but she wasn't too bummed, but it definitely had me feeling fucked up.

Stoked: We already are making plans to go on a real date and I like her so that's sick.
Not stoked: Did not smash. Could not smash. Very embarrassing. Frustrating.

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We're you too nervous or too drunk? I've had it happen. Including my first time lol. But I don't know anyone who fucked like an animal their first time. I was nervous as fuck. It happens if I have a new partner sometimes too, like the first time.

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I was pretty drunk but mostly nervous. She invited me over the night after and once again, the same problem occurred. It was worse the second time, she was bummed. She was texting me the next day and anyway, invited me over once again. So third night around, we had sex for maybe a minute before I went limp. This time, it was awful. She was kinda pissed this time and obviously I was very frustrated and bummed. Now things are very weird and I don't know whats happening. She told me this whole issue is a pretty big turn off and that my nervousness around her is too. I only became nervous after failing in the sack and now its consuming me which is only making the issue much fucking worse. She also said she thinks its wild that I like her so much so quickly especially after getting out of a long term relationship only a month ago. I am remembering now that I have a really bad habit of falling too fast, which is something I hate about myself. I am calling for desperate measures now and I have a doctors appointment tomorrow hoping to get Viagra, being hopeful that I have another chance (her patience is running low but from the things shes said I think I could have another shot). This whole thing has got me really fucking bummed, clearly all she wants is just a casual fling but even then I'm totally cool with that. I just hope shes not totally over it but I guess thus is life.

Also pretty crushed to hear the news of Kobe and his daughter. RIP

Just tell him the problem and he will probably set you up. I did that blue chew thing just because it was free and they actually sent the first 6 free and I cancelled the trial. I break them in quarters and they work for me. $20 for 6 pills, takes about a week to get them though. All you do is fill out your info you don’t even have to talk to a dr. I have those stashed for emergencies when I know I’m super stressed out but still need to put it down that night. Stress can be a huge factor. When I’m not stressed about work and stuff I don’t have a problem. Also it took me like a month not to me intimidated by my girlfriend and not have those problems. Girls usually think you aren’t attracted to them when it happens. Women think you can just flick a switch on your dick.

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5 hour layover in Denver. Never been here. Still feels like I’m not here. But I’m here, baby.



cute spooky pony with red eyes

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oh that airport w/ all the illuminati artwork? Jesse the Body took us there a while back. take some pictures.

That’s what I was gonna say. Go explore. It’s like one of the biggest airports I thought?

[swan pablo murphy]

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My girlfriend of 6 years and I decided to break things off on good terms a couple months ago. I'm 22 so its been a lot to process but I've been feeling positive about the future and meeting new people.

Went to a show last night and met a girl I matched with on Tinder and it went really well. She's really cool and I stayed at her place for the night. Long story short she wanted sex and I couldn't even do it. I wanted to but it just wasn't happening and I've never had this problem before. It was a trip but she wasn't too bummed, but it definitely had me feeling fucked up.

Stoked: We already are making plans to go on a real date and I like her so that's sick.
Not stoked: Did not smash. Could not smash. Very embarrassing. Frustrating.

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We're you too nervous or too drunk? I've had it happen. Including my first time lol. But I don't know anyone who fucked like an animal their first time. I was nervous as fuck. It happens if I have a new partner sometimes too, like the first time.

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I was pretty drunk but mostly nervous. She invited me over the night after and once again, the same problem occurred. It was worse the second time, she was bummed. She was texting me the next day and anyway, invited me over once again. So third night around, we had sex for maybe a minute before I went limp. This time, it was awful. She was kinda pissed this time and obviously I was very frustrated and bummed. Now things are very weird and I don't know whats happening. She told me this whole issue is a pretty big turn off and that my nervousness around her is too. I only became nervous after failing in the sack and now its consuming me which is only making the issue much fucking worse. She also said she thinks its wild that I like her so much so quickly especially after getting out of a long term relationship only a month ago. I am remembering now that I have a really bad habit of falling too fast, which is something I hate about myself. I am calling for desperate measures now and I have a doctors appointment tomorrow hoping to get Viagra, being hopeful that I have another chance (her patience is running low but from the things shes said I think I could have another shot). This whole thing has got me really fucking bummed, clearly all she wants is just a casual fling but even then I'm totally cool with that. I just hope shes not totally over it but I guess thus is life.

Also pretty crushed to hear the news of Kobe and his daughter. RIP

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Just tell him the problem and he will probably set you up. I did that blue chew thing just because it was free and they actually sent the first 6 free and I cancelled the trial. I break them in quarters and they work for me. $20 for 6 pills, takes about a week to get them though. All you do is fill out your info you don’t even have to talk to a dr. I have those stashed for emergencies when I know I’m super stressed out but still need to put it down that night. Stress can be a huge factor. When I’m not stressed about work and stuff I don’t have a problem. Also it took me like a month not to me intimidated by my girlfriend and not have those problems. Girls usually think you aren’t attracted to them when it happens. Women think you can just flick a switch on your dick.

Looked into blue chew but they don't sell in Canada. Stress is definitely a big factor here. Just gonna tell my doc whats up and hopefully he hooks me up. I am just worried he'll tell me to eat better and all that yada yada shit cause I need this problem fixed by yesterday
Thanks for the words man, it definitely makes me feel a lot better about myself and its a pretty embarrassing thing to talk about to people I know in real life.