most of these sound pretty pleasant. i wish i could have nice experiences like these on LSD. it's all a bit chaotic and im guessing it may be because of my desire to control my emotions/anxiety. i did listen to sung tongs by animal collective and look for caterpillars in an arboreutum. that was lovely. i was texting with a long time friend and i was like wow, i love you and you love me. we both use our efforts to make each other happy, in turn making ourselves feel happy to give that to you. that was neat. i also was meandering in thought about the recent loss of my kitty. i think i had asked "where is hobo" and i(?) answered back, "he is where he needs to be and that's all where he can be". that really helped me mourn. i love you forever.
if you have tips on having a nice experience and bettering my life, please share. with my mix of imperfect logic shaped by emotional response, i usually think I'm in a dead end and no longer learn from rejection, abandonment, and exclusion, growing more set in the position of life kinda cool but just unfortunately isn't available for me. it feels ugly, wasteful, and shameful to think this way. i remember in the gx video, the statement "you have it so good' was written on a wall in SF. I think about that often. also i think my life goal is to make my brain operate with more synesthesia, sort of like a misused definition of singularity, were I can problem solve and be creative without the need for putting thoughts into statements. like biomimicry art projects and more being emotionally intuitive without feeling self conscious.
my bad adding this, as it's not really responding to the topic/converesation. I'm just really curious and it's important to me.
Topic: Going to watch Spirit Quest on DVD whilst on acid. Will report back. (Read 5003 times)