god! i cant sleep! ive been going to bed early but tonight is my party night! even though no drugs were involve, sober has never felt so good,
like the "REAL CONFESSIONS" thread im hear once again letting my emotions flow, (and it gives good text for stagefright to have a hayday with!)
i feel like i just woke up from a 3 - 4 year slumber of not being me. ive been a pansy push over for too long, i have been letting my life be controled by various people for the last few years, i hav been a push over for far to long but instead of getting butt hurt and depressed about it i have decided to live my life my own way, for instance, i have had a sort of crush on this girl for awhile and i hav been to scurred and not available to act on it, instead i just dated the safe route, i finally mustered up the courage to flirt with this woman that i thought was way out of my league, but i found out that she feels the same, now i just have to cross my fingers and hopefully she will be down to just be friends for a 6 months or so, i dont want to jump into another relationship, i need some by myself time and im not in the mood to just hook up on a fling with some chick, hopefully she will be down to take things really really slow.
i figured out a simple statement yesterday that for some reason just dawned on me, "get busy living or lay down and mope" or die but thats kind of over dramatic and im done with that type of b.s.