Your rep went down because you're a fucking loser.
I mean if I’m a loser then being a loser is the fucking shit.
Shit, is he about to ruin this thread too? Hey dummy, this is about Pontus' new shoes, not the Narnia adventures you had in your head at the mental hospital.
I’ve actually never been to a mental hospital luckily. I don’t have severe schizophrenia thank god, like I don’t hear voices in my head, I’m just on the bipolar schizophrenic spectrum. I really just have terrible mania and sometimes severe depression, but that’s about it. Most people with extremely extremely high level IQs end up having mental issues pretty similar. See most people with traditional schizophrenia their filters for signal processing are fucked up, and therefore they get far too much information then their brain can handle. In the case of the big cat, my filters are so fucking powerful that they crank out information so quickly because I’m so smart, so in other words my schizophrenia is a symptom of being a genius, it’s very rare, but it occurs in Einstein level thinkers. If y’all actually got to hear me speak you would realize that these walls of text I type are nothing compared to how actually I think and rationalize through problems, like these wall of texts are like 1/20-1/50 of the answers you hear. Some engineers love it that I work with because I’m so pedantic, but some fucking hate it because they want stuff extrapolated extremely to small explain this quickly type thing. I just end up getting annoyed typing this shit out on my phone to give full blown responses since my brain is already at the end of these things by the time I begin them, like y’all don’t realize how annoying it is to think 1,000 things in a fraction of a second and fully comprehend them. Like sure you basically have extreme intelligence as compared to most humans, but it’s fucking annoying as shit too and u have mental illness that creeps in as a result. It’s a really double edged sword, like if you see me brag about being smart on here know that it comes with severe problems as well. Like I’ve always been the smartest guy in the room my whole life and it fucking sucks. Like u would think it’s a really nice thing, but when u basically tell everyone there way of thinking isn’t as good, it’s always like you’re the guy that brings everyone down/annoys them. Like yeah my skate IQ is second to none other then Mullen himself, but y’all think there aren’t consequences too that?
That’s a real solid piece I’d probably trade all humility and self awareness to have one like it
Humility caused me severe depression, so I’m trying to get away from it. I was queer and didn’t want to be a pro skateboarder as a result on top of some other things because I didn’t want to be a queer pro skateboarder, and essentially lied to myself for years to tell myself I wasn’t good enough when I was extremely fucking talented. At the end of the day I own who I am now and I don’t really give two fucks what anyone thinks because I’m a king of the jungle. Basically by not being humble now I recognize my greatness and don’t shit on myself like I did for so long.