Things You Are Stoked On But Not Stoked On

[the snake]

you're all right, dudes, thank you for the help, and yes, I'm doomed, I'm possessed, best ass I ever witnessed irl, and I can feel a heart of gold behind all her gimmicks^^

[shit_for_brains]

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you're all right, dudes, thank you for the help, and yes, I'm doomed, I'm possessed, best ass I ever witnessed irl, and I can feel a heart of gold behind all her gimmicks^^

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That last bit that you edited in is why you're totally fucked

[the snake]

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you're all right, dudes, thank you for the help, and yes, I'm doomed, I'm possessed, best ass I ever witnessed irl, and I can feel a heart of gold behind all her gimmicks^^

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That last bit that you edited in is why you're totally fucked

and you haven't seen the drama messages about my life I just post to her haha
I'm a snake, I'll keep sliding through all that shit lol

[tortfeasor]

it was my wife's turn to pick the vacation. we normally pick off the beaten path islands which require puddle jumpers, ferries, and navigating with a map.  she through me a curve ball this year..  i'm going to "sandals" at the end of the month. they are picking us up from the airport in a fucking rolls royce.   i have a classically trained butler while i'm there. i am very torn. i cant remember the last vacation i took that didn't involve off road driving, and eating turkey sandwiches from a cooler filled with sandy beers. its definitely going to be a change of scenery. im hyped becasue it has unlimited free scuba diving, but if there is a fucking "white party" im gunna crack skulls.

[ungzilla]

all inclusive baby

i assume that means hating everyone else there w/o exception

[tortfeasor]

i will be taking full advantage of that.  i'm gunna fill the bathtub with pina coladas and see how long it takes for my body to absorb the alcohol.

[redcurb12]

i will be taking full advantage of that.  i'm gunna fill the bathtub with pina coladas and see how long it takes for my body to absorb the alcohol.

[Bagelskate]

I need me a pico pool and tortilla chip pool next to that marg pool and I’d be in heaven

[shit_for_brains]

I went to a sandals once as a goof and it was so fun

[CrumblingInfrastructure]

I’m about to start Naltrexone to try and drink less. Stoked on the possibility of drinking less but not Stoked on the upcoming withdraws. Been drinking every day for a little over 7 years now. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Should I try to take some time off work for the withdrawal period? I tried to go a day without drinking 3 weeks ago and had a crazy DT experience. Really doesnt help that my Managers slip me beers during the work day because it “makes me work better/longer”.

[shit_for_brains]

I’m about to start Naltrexone to try and drink less. Stoked on the possibility of drinking less but not Stoked on the upcoming withdraws. Been drinking every day for a little over 7 years now. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Should I try to take some time off work for the withdrawal period? I tried to go a day without drinking 3 weeks ago and had a crazy DT experience. Really doesnt help that my Managers slip me beers during the work day because it “makes me work better/longer”.

If your managers want to keep you drunk because you're a "better worker" then yeah you should probably not be there for the parts where you're feeling like death and want a drink more than anything. Quitting drinking isn't easy but it's doable and if my dumb ass can do it then any one of you guys can.

[CrumblingInfrastructure]

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I’m about to start Naltrexone to try and drink less. Stoked on the possibility of drinking less but not Stoked on the upcoming withdraws. Been drinking every day for a little over 7 years now. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Should I try to take some time off work for the withdrawal period? I tried to go a day without drinking 3 weeks ago and had a crazy DT experience. Really doesnt help that my Managers slip me beers during the work day because it “makes me work better/longer”.

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If your managers want to keep you drunk because you're a "better worker" then yeah you should probably not be there for the parts where you're feeling like death and want a drink more than anything. Quitting drinking isn't easy but it's doable and if my dumb ass can do it then any one of you guys can.

It’s really fucking weird man. I think I suck as a employee and honestly i’ve aired out about how I think our product is bullshit but I still do my job/work and I get a high level of praise for what I do and now it seems like I might be getting trained/groomed for a management position. I dont get “drunk” on the clock but having a beer or two definitely makes me more approachable and easier to talk to. I really dont do well in professional enviroments or playing any social games at work. Ijust like to come in and knock my shit out ASAP then go home but they want me there more and im now getting included into some heavy work future/planning shit that I dont think I should be involved in.

[shit_for_brains]

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I’m about to start Naltrexone to try and drink less. Stoked on the possibility of drinking less but not Stoked on the upcoming withdraws. Been drinking every day for a little over 7 years now. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Should I try to take some time off work for the withdrawal period? I tried to go a day without drinking 3 weeks ago and had a crazy DT experience. Really doesnt help that my Managers slip me beers during the work day because it “makes me work better/longer”.

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If your managers want to keep you drunk because you're a "better worker" then yeah you should probably not be there for the parts where you're feeling like death and want a drink more than anything. Quitting drinking isn't easy but it's doable and if my dumb ass can do it then any one of you guys can.

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It’s really fucking weird man. I think I suck as a employee and honestly i’ve aired out about how I think our product is bullshit but I still do my job/work and I get a high level of praise for what I do and now it seems like I might be getting trained/groomed for a management position. I dont get “drunk” on the clock but having a beer or two definitely makes me more approachable and easier to talk to. I really dont do well in professional enviroments or playing any social games at work. Ijust like to come in and knock my shit out ASAP then go home but they want me there more and im now getting included into some heavy work future/planning shit that I dont think I should be involved in.

Well they do, and they probably know the score about their business more than you do. I don't know you but nobody can quit drinking without a flood of self worth issues and doubt creeping in. They see how you work and think you're good at it, you look at the big picture of your life through your experience and think you aren't. Work is quantifiable and by their measure you must be doing good. It'd be a good thing to invest yourself in honestly, give you a nice anchor while you sort out the drinking thing. Stability and responsibility are good. Unless you hate it all.

[CrumblingInfrastructure]

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I’m about to start Naltrexone to try and drink less. Stoked on the possibility of drinking less but not Stoked on the upcoming withdraws. Been drinking every day for a little over 7 years now. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Should I try to take some time off work for the withdrawal period? I tried to go a day without drinking 3 weeks ago and had a crazy DT experience. Really doesnt help that my Managers slip me beers during the work day because it “makes me work better/longer”.

[close]

If your managers want to keep you drunk because you're a "better worker" then yeah you should probably not be there for the parts where you're feeling like death and want a drink more than anything. Quitting drinking isn't easy but it's doable and if my dumb ass can do it then any one of you guys can.

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It’s really fucking weird man. I think I suck as a employee and honestly i’ve aired out about how I think our product is bullshit but I still do my job/work and I get a high level of praise for what I do and now it seems like I might be getting trained/groomed for a management position. I dont get “drunk” on the clock but having a beer or two definitely makes me more approachable and easier to talk to. I really dont do well in professional enviroments or playing any social games at work. Ijust like to come in and knock my shit out ASAP then go home but they want me there more and im now getting included into some heavy work future/planning shit that I dont think I should be involved in.

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Well they do, and they probably know the score about their business more than you do. I don't know you but nobody can quit drinking without a flood of self worth issues and doubt creeping in. They see how you work and think you're good at it, you look at the big picture of your life through your experience and think you aren't. Work is quantifiable and by their measure you must be doing good. It'd be a good thing to invest yourself in honestly, give you a nice anchor while you sort out the drinking thing. Stability and responsibility are good. Unless you hate it all.

I appreciate your advice. I do kinda hate my job because it exploits artists and gives them a avenue to give up on their creative pursuits but it also pays like crazy for the niche field im in. But ultimately I guess its the peoples fault for selling their passion for a dollar. I gave up my drive for the craft to continue living in Seattle years ago. I think my best bet is to ride it out and go through college to get a “real” job... and probably cut back or completely quit drinking because it’s frying my brain.

[shit_for_brains]

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I’m about to start Naltrexone to try and drink less. Stoked on the possibility of drinking less but not Stoked on the upcoming withdraws. Been drinking every day for a little over 7 years now. Anyone have any words of wisdom? Should I try to take some time off work for the withdrawal period? I tried to go a day without drinking 3 weeks ago and had a crazy DT experience. Really doesnt help that my Managers slip me beers during the work day because it “makes me work better/longer”.

[close]

If your managers want to keep you drunk because you're a "better worker" then yeah you should probably not be there for the parts where you're feeling like death and want a drink more than anything. Quitting drinking isn't easy but it's doable and if my dumb ass can do it then any one of you guys can.

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It’s really fucking weird man. I think I suck as a employee and honestly i’ve aired out about how I think our product is bullshit but I still do my job/work and I get a high level of praise for what I do and now it seems like I might be getting trained/groomed for a management position. I dont get “drunk” on the clock but having a beer or two definitely makes me more approachable and easier to talk to. I really dont do well in professional enviroments or playing any social games at work. Ijust like to come in and knock my shit out ASAP then go home but they want me there more and im now getting included into some heavy work future/planning shit that I dont think I should be involved in.

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Well they do, and they probably know the score about their business more than you do. I don't know you but nobody can quit drinking without a flood of self worth issues and doubt creeping in. They see how you work and think you're good at it, you look at the big picture of your life through your experience and think you aren't. Work is quantifiable and by their measure you must be doing good. It'd be a good thing to invest yourself in honestly, give you a nice anchor while you sort out the drinking thing. Stability and responsibility are good. Unless you hate it all.

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I appreciate your advice. I do kinda hate my job because it exploits artists and gives them a avenue to give up on their creative pursuits but it also pays like crazy for the niche field im in. But ultimately I guess its the peoples fault for selling their passion for a dollar. I gave up my drive for the craft to continue living in Seattle years ago. I think my best bet is to ride it out and go through college to get a “real” job... and probably cut back or completely quit drinking because it’s frying my brain.

I wasn't on death's door but I was miserable and alcohol wasn't letting me feel better. You don't have to be pissing in your pants under an overpass to make a change. If you think it'd benefit you it's at least worth an honest real try. You won't end up worse off for it. I wish you luck.

[childhood]

A few nights ago while I was waiting for a train, I watched a guy at the station getting arrested over some drug stuff (very lame, abolish prisons), but while he was fighting with the cops and getting cuffed, he kept screaming like "Call your backup! I'll fuck them up the ass too!" (so cool).

[Justis]

Last sesh in chicago with the al the judes for a minute shouts out Planman you were killin it tonight

[straight]

asked what’s for dinner and a lil bit later was handed some kraft macaroni n cheese still in the pan and a fork .. i think she’s mad at me but this is kinda how i prefer to eat

[CrumblingInfrastructure]

Broke my pinky finger but I pay into short term disability where I work at so... lots of time with the ol stranger I guess?

[Allen.]

Copped a broken VX... but it works for an idea I have.

[childhood]

Have you seen those VX molds/busts that Lurker Lou's been making?
https://twitter.com/LurkerLouser/status/1083497135004442624

[Allen.]

Have you seen those VX molds/busts that Lurker Lou's been making?
https://twitter.com/LurkerLouser/status/1083497135004442624

I have. That said, it was kinda surprising imagining Lou being into the finer pursuits but I dig em

[tension]

the chance of a bunch of snow in town this weekend, but i have off anyway so i wouldnt get paid work off but other people will.

[rapscallion]

Stoked that my new gear from the Active sale was delivered!
Not stoked to find that same gear strewn about my neighbors yard covered in dog spit.

[EXTRA SPICY]

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i will be taking full advantage of that.  i'm gunna fill the bathtub with pina coladas and see how long it takes for my body to absorb the alcohol.

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This image is relevant to my afternoon today.

I just picked up a holy grail dream car (1st gen 4x4 sr5 Toyota pickup) but need to replace the radiator on it. Let the coolant and grease bath begin.

[Mystical Leader]

Stoked: This year I almost survived to the end of January until my depression kicked in! Real nice.  Last year I was feeling this bad in November so some progress...

Not stoked: My depressive moods are getting worse and worse by day and the moods last longer too.. Atleast for now I can still feel something but give it a couple of weeks and I will not be able to leave my house or feel any emotions at all.. )

Last year I didn't go outside or meet people other that to go to work for three months straight so maybe this year it will only be a month or so..

But yeah depression is a motherfucker and in the end you just have to deal with it..

ps. Try to find something positive to say/think even if you are feeling like a complete human waste.

[Bagelskate]

Stoked: This year I almost survived to the end of January until my depression kicked in! Real nice.  Last year I was feeling this bad in November so some progress...

Not stoked: My depressive moods are getting worse and worse by day and the moods last longer too.. Atleast for now I can still feel something but give it a couple of weeks and I will not be able to leave my house or feel any emotions at all.. )

Last year I didn't go outside or meet people other that to go to work for three months straight so maybe this year it will only be a month or so..

But yeah depression is a motherfucker and in the end you just have to deal with it..

ps. Try to find something positive to say/think even if you are feeling like a complete human waste.

Depression sucks.

Other than skating, what do you enjoy doing?

[Mystical Leader]

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Stoked: This year I almost survived to the end of January until my depression kicked in! Real nice.  Last year I was feeling this bad in November so some progress...

Not stoked: My depressive moods are getting worse and worse by day and the moods last longer too.. Atleast for now I can still feel something but give it a couple of weeks and I will not be able to leave my house or feel any emotions at all.. )

Last year I didn't go outside or meet people other that to go to work for three months straight so maybe this year it will only be a month or so..

But yeah depression is a motherfucker and in the end you just have to deal with it..

ps. Try to find something positive to say/think even if you are feeling like a complete human waste.

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Depression sucks.

Other than skating, what do you enjoy doing?

yeah it surely does...

the basic stuff sex, drugs, art and philosophy..

Sex is great
drugs I think I'm over it
art well that can't be escaped because of my mind
philosophy I don't know been stuck in 17th century for some reason and it's getting boring..

What bothers me the most is I kind of know what I need to do, I've been in therapy, but I don't know, the same shit has happened every year in the past 15 years or so and I'm sick of doing this shit just to get by. It sucks that I can never be completely "healthy" so it wears on you and if every 7 months you have to go through rough 3 month depressive phase.. ..That's not a way to live a life..

[Bagelskate]

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Stoked: This year I almost survived to the end of January until my depression kicked in! Real nice.  Last year I was feeling this bad in November so some progress...

Not stoked: My depressive moods are getting worse and worse by day and the moods last longer too.. Atleast for now I can still feel something but give it a couple of weeks and I will not be able to leave my house or feel any emotions at all.. )

Last year I didn't go outside or meet people other that to go to work for three months straight so maybe this year it will only be a month or so..

But yeah depression is a motherfucker and in the end you just have to deal with it..

ps. Try to find something positive to say/think even if you are feeling like a complete human waste.

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Depression sucks.

Other than skating, what do you enjoy doing?

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yeah it surely does...

the basic stuff sex, drugs, art and philosophy..

Sex is great
drugs I think I'm over it
art well that can't be escaped because of my mind
philosophy I don't know been stuck in 17th century for some reason and it's getting boring..

What bothers me the most is I kind of know what I need to do, I've been in therapy, but I don't know, the same shit has happened every year in the past 15 years or so and I'm sick of doing this shit just to get by. It sucks that I can never be completely "healthy" so it wears on you and if every 7 months you have to go through rough 3 month depressive phase.. ..That's not a way to live a life..

That does sound like it would be rough to deal with.

The art sounds cool though. I’m not one to draw or paint well so I’m envious of that skill. I’d maybe try doing some art for fun. Or maybe just something art related. If I ever need something to do to just chill and feel satisfied I bust out a puzzle lol.

Reading for sure is a big one for me too. I feel way better if my mind is occupied with thoughts of a new book.

I recently got a used Wii from Craigslist for 25 and have been having a blast on it playing old games.

You got this though! It’ll get better, just takes time and work at it.

[Dwyck]

The semester's starting next week