Sleazy- I think it's healthy to keep perspective and be aware of potential negative scenarios, just don't get an ulcer worrying.
how do I represent myself. If some asks what do you do, what should I say.
I loathe this question. I reply with "Artist", though I make no money from my own art. With my skills I would be better off in NYC but I really like my lifestyle in Philly. For work I freelance on doing many different types of jobs. My favorite is installing artwork, though the work is generally only around during the Spring and Fall when galleries are changing exhibitions. I also work as a photo assistant on commercial and editorial shoots; moving equipment, setting up lights, and other tasks the photographer is too busy to do. There's a lot of standing around, but it's rad when I can charge a full day rate for 3 or 4 hours. Other things I do: artist assistant, fabricator, document artworks, and over the summer I painted houses when there was no other work.
Currently I am putting together a proposal for an artwork at the airport. 14 people, including myself, are competing for 3 commissions with budgets ranging from $25000-44000. This is my first experience with Public Art and it's stressful. I do yearn for the day when my art is paying the bills, for now the stipend from the proposal will pay December's rent.