technically i have a more negative rep than anyone ever on the site
i started a lot of stupid threads
challeneged a lot of popular opinions
pretty arrogant / ignorant
post basically anything on my mind
was never trying to appease anyone at any point in time, just giving a reflection of my true self
it took a long time to understand i had a very narrow / short sighted viewpoint.
i am aware of it now but i guess i just choose to maintain it because i know what i like and "if it aint broke dont fix it". i am trying to be more open minded despite that.
that being said someone put this quite eloquently on this site fairly recently;
"If change is coming, i for sure will get the fuck out the way" or something liek that. i want to be like that.
the only hate inside my body is frustration, so if i am portraying that on here then likely something negative is going on in my life and i am just projecting that. so if i was being hateful, that was really just me being negative towards myself
i have rubbed a lot of people the wrong way. i am really sorry for the shitty things i have said especially if they have hurt peoples feelings
i am actually a very accepting person. i was known to say faggot quite a bit and a lot of other really bad slurs. i hate to make an excuse, but that was just what people in my area said to demean and bully people. i have a very fragile ego and just have always been bullied since a small child. i feel attacked over small things and over-retaliate often. build up things in my brain that people have this giant vendetta against me. especially when people would photoshop my pic etc. so i am guilty of that big time. I really did not know any better, but I am very sorry for that time of my life and have definitely moved on from that. i like gay, furry, trans, all races, all human beings, animals, plants, earth water wind fire.
there was a point in time i had a friend who was known to be gay in the street fighter scene but was not out of the closet. i moved to his city at one point and we became fairly close and there was one night i was driving to meet up with him and i was considering just asking him if he was gay. but then i thought through the outcomes. so outcome 1 was he says yes i am gay and now its pretty damn awkward and im like cool man i will keep your secret kind of thing. then outcome 2 was he says no and he is like pretty pissed ieven suggested that. so both outcomes sucked, and i realized too, that i really did not give a shit what he liekd to do to man or woman of legal consenting age. he was just my homey to play SF with and that shit was really none of my damn business. i dont go around wearing a shirt saying TITTY MAN or ASS LORD etc. i dont mean to make lighjt of the situation but it really did change my perspective on a lot of things