The problem is I’m so in my own head at this point I can’t find a way to settle.
Yeah, that is the worst when that happens. Not to make matters worse, but have you tried forged Indy? I feel like the little bit lower height makes things feel different. Maybe for the worse, maybe for the better.
That said, there is no magic bullet. Some trucks are simply better at some things than others (e.g. Ace turn great. Thunder pinches great. etc.). Same with decks, and wheels. We all have to live some levels of compromise. Acknowledging that can be some help.
Someone in this thread once said, "…
[I have to] remind myself that switching gear doesn't really help at all. When you switch, the gear will feel different and that's about it. The adjustment period just isn't worth the minimal gains that you might get." [don't remember who said it, unfortunately]
All this considered, the times that I have gotten really stuck in my head, I've always resorted to the "Just Feels The Best" test. I take about 5 to 10 of my most basic tricks that I like doing, and just see what gear-option those tricks "just feel the best" on. The trick is to
not "think" about, but to "feel" about it. Do my b/s 50-50s
just feel better with 8.25 trucks or 8.5 trucks? Do basic ollies
just feel better on Ace or Thunder? etc. For me at least, the when I do this, the answer is usually pretty clear. Then I just stick with that set-up for awhile, and try to not think about all of it, and just focus on doing what feels good. Usually within a session or two, it's enough to get me out of my own head. That approach might be helpful to you, might not. Either way, hope you can find a way out soon!