getting medical care i avoided for years. i was at the jawdoc today for the first time. i'll probably get sort of a retainer to wear at night since i am clencher, i have "abnormally well developed jaw muscles" too, which sounds cool, but apparently is a problem. that jaw has to chill when i sleep. i gotta get my teeth done first , get the wisdom ones removed and so on, so now i gotta go to an actual dentist. and then i'll get that retainer.
and on top of that i seem to have an abscess on my tailbone. shit sucks. my doc said i actually will need to go to a surgeon for that since he can't remove it himself. it's not that bad rn actually, hoping they got time next week to fix this up.
stoked about having actual doctors that seem to give a shit about me as well as access to them, but not stoked on my anxiety attacks when i go to the doc because i always think i have superaidscancer or something. i feel it getting better the more i get used to it.