My partner of the past 3-4 years started using cocaine. It immediately became an every day, all the time thing. I’ve asked them to let me buy them a testing kit, cuz if they’re using they might as well be safe? They weren’t interested. It’s put a strain on our relationship and man, it hurts so fucking much.
I’ve been a few years hard drug-free and cocaine was one of my problem drugs. Admittedly, my partner using is affecting my own recovery. I spoke with a friend who is a substance abuse counselor and she recommended I set boundaries and distance myself, that there wasn’t much I can do.
And I’m just here hurting. Too sad to go skate. It’s a beautiful day. I stayed up late because I stayed at my partner’s apartment and found coke residue all over the place, so I cleaned every surface and washed every coke tool. I love them so much. I really wish things weren’t like this.