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Struggling with my own long-term mental health issues, currently going through a pretty dark time, I finally broke cooking dinner the other night when Goodbye Horses came on...
All the memories, all the emotions I've kept inside, suffering to live, living to suffer...
Stay strong man, or actually don’t if you can’t. There’s nothing wrong with that.
If you’re in need of a hearing ear feel free to hit me up G
Appreciate that, while I'm not terminally unique, there has always been something inside of me that yearns to truly be free...
I always think of the Beach Boys song, "I Just Wasn't Made For These Times"...
Totally understandable. Life is strange and terribly difficult at times, but it's also full of magic and beauty. Observing things in nature really helps to recenter me and my thoughts. Seeing some ants do their thing and imagining all the other strange functions going on hidden from view while hurling through space together. I know what we have here is rare as fuck and cherishing the strangeness of the situation we're all in allows me to enjoy just farting around and not feel guilty about always being "productive".
The thing is that I see all of the beauty that this world has to offer, and it makes my heart want to explode...
Something as simple as flora and fauna, the natural formations of the earth, the cycles of life, death and decay; the inherent beauty of nature...
But we as humans corrupt this beauty, extracting all potential value out of the singular thing that gave us life in the first place, we simply use and abuse it...
Although I will say, there is beauty in suffering, there is beauty in the connections we make we other people, there is beauty in art, there is beauty in our collective, shared experience...
Perhaps I've never been very optimistic about what the future holds for humanity, the environmental degradation, the growing inequalities in society, the rampant greed and fetishization of money; our world is sick and I take solace that one day it will reclaim what we have so carelessly taken...
For perspective, I grew up in a very ecologically centered home, my favorite music when I was like 5 was this guy Dana Lyons, who made environmentally conscious music for kids (I was lucky enough to see him at The University of Maine Oreno when I was a kid), and always felt my closet connection was to the earth itself and what it has produced...