What keeps hitting me is that he was a young man who just fell ill and died and there was nothing to be done about it. There was no misadventure, nothing where he zigged when he should have zagged, none of that that usually befalls young men like that. I've had friends die in drunken car crashes, one fell off a building, one shot himself, stuff like that. This was a 28 year old in the prime of his life, an amazing life, and his own body turned on him and despite all best efforts he died. It's so, so sad.