My anxiety has been through the god damn roof all this month, on the 28th it will be 1 year sober for me. People are saying thats why im anxious and im pretty sure thats the reason why. Could barely skate all this month, barely made it to class when all my every day classes are done now ( I passed) and i only have class 2 times a week. Now though its starting to kind of come back to normal since its bascially just 3 more days left, i mean i have panic attacks every day but those were a cake walk compare to what i been having this month. I knew nothing would make me drink again because i would have worked all this year for nothing if i did, im pretty stubborn. I'm just glad im getting this off my chest and hopefully other people can relate
I know the pain, Im coming off heavy benzo use. Havent left the house in a week, growing a beard. I know you take the AA shit serious but, maybe just have a single drink, maybe a glass of wine, see what you do after. I dont think its about how long youve been sober, its about self control, hopefully AA has taught self control. If you plan on being sober the rest of your life then yeah stick with it. People mention CBT for anxiety, but Im skeptical.
I used to be addicted as fuck to alcohol in my teens. Quit, and know I can have a single beer or wine and not want more. Even If I drink 2 drinks now I feel like shit cause the effects have changed from fun, to dizzy headache. But if you want to stick to your guns, its only 3 days, soldier through. Ive been shaking and hallucinating for a week, if I were to drive right now I would crash cause vertigo and seeing black shit zoom by me. Were fuckin skateboarders, were fuckin soldiers. We can do it if we really want it.
Topic: real confessions (Read 1744653 times)