Yes, I have combat related PTSD and been diagnosed a couple years ago with adult ADHD non hyperactive type. It's been rough, I have really bad days and some good days, but as I get older I'm noticing I'm getting worse in some ways and better in other ways, the "experts" tell me PTSD is something that is curable...but from my Vietnam veteran dad, and other older vets I've spoken to who also have combat related PTSD...they tell me the shit never goes away and I'm starting to believe them. I've been in hundreds of hours of counseling, been to groups through the several vaterans affairs I've been enrolled in. Medication, I've tried multiple...but tbh Ritalin has worked the best for me than anything I've been on...idk why, but it just makes me feel normal and not worry about things, actually kills my anxiety while I'm on it, however...the comedown is brutal for me so I had to go off of it, I plan to get back on it whenever I do go back to school. Sleep is a bitch, I hate sleep...I hate bedtime, the night is when I'm the worst because the traumas I went through on deployments were usually at night, so I'm always elevated at night. I haven't had a job in several years, the VA helps me a lot, I'll just say that. But tbh it sucks... because I want to be a "normal" and I don't want to need their help. I deal with severe anxiety, depression, anger outbursts, night terrors, flashback triggers etc. I been through a lot because of my behavior, even went to jail back in 2016 for fighting...charges ended up getting dismissed but I had to do a bunch of classes etc, I was 100% guilty and in the wrong, judge was lenient because it was my first charge and also being a veteran with documented mental health issues, it has fucked my life off though because even though the charges got dismissed the record didn't, and the state it happened in they don't allow expungement, so going to apply for anything that requires a background check it pops up, and then I have to attempt to explain it away to people who just don't fucking understand. I have learned a lot over the years though, and it wasn't easy...had very hard lessons to learn, and learn ways to cope with these physical restrictions I get from my mental issues... breathing techniques and things like that. Keeping a journal helps me, working out and going on runs helps as well. Skateboarding, skating really helps...when I skate, I'm not the type that won't skate if I'm having a bad day...and I'm happy for that because I know there are people who things have to be going well in life for them to step on the board, everything goes away when I step on my board and I'm forced to be totally present into what I'm doing on it...the world goes away for a little bit and so do my problems. Social media, I seen people commenting about that...I naturally don't have an issue with it because I don't bother with it. Tbh, my issues make me really dislike most people and I'm not proud to admit that... I'm not missing friends, I don't want them and I don't like being social, and close family and my girlfriend(probably soon to be ex tbh) have had to deal with some pretty wild shit from me at times, I really am not big on making friends anymore, I choose to be reclusive...a loner and I'm perfectly fine with being introverted, they tell me I'm wrong for that but that's where I feel comfortable currently, they tell me I need to be uncomfortable more to get better...and I've sometimes gotten worse taking their advice. So the things people have issues with concerning Facebook or Instagram and the like, I just don't because I don't care to look, I don't miss it...and when I do go on its only for a couple minutes then I'm off and don't check it again for months. I learned years ago, watching people post how happy they are and how good things are going for them...and that's all they post, so you're getting nothing but that...is bad for me, so I learned to just not care about it and worry about my own shit and making me happy. It's selfish as fuck but hey it's keeping me breathing...I got so many friends from when I was in that ain't made It this far since we been out, that's another reason I don't like going on social like Facebook...I go on there and always finding out who else ain't here anymore. And I gave up on the "hey if anybody needs to talk I'm always here" bs from people I was in with, dudes never stick to that shit...been times I hit people up and they didn't get back to me or didn't know what to say if they did. So I rather keep it clinical, random doctors and nurses who do not know me and have any kind of connection to me other than a medical setting.