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Help me skater friends .. I'm back in the infernal madness but this time with a little more personal psychology.. Indeed, I bought a pair of independent hollows 139 on an 8, and I loved the first 2 sessions .. until a bad session .. And there I
say that I should never have bought this, that it would be better with such or such brand of trucks .. honestly I tried almost everything .. I am small, and I even also tried a wheelbase 14 with my venture raw high that I skated now for a year and 3 months until the change with the independents.. and with these recent bad sessions, I tell myself that I should have taken low trucks, that it would surely be better.. . I fell into a vicious circle and a negative mentality.. I've been skating for 16 years, I'm 31, and sometimes.. my sessions are fabulous, or I think skateboarding is fun and that's it.. and sometimes back to reality, or I don't master basic tricks, like the Kickflip which I've had a problem with for 10 years now.. I sometimes feel useless, this is also the lack of confidence.. I find also that I have an awful style .. In short, to admit to you .. I have the BIG fault of me unfortunately compare to others..
Why are you talking about this with the truck madness too? Because I would like to get back the fun I had before when I didn't think about those fucking parameters (high/low trucks, length, wheelbase..), but.. I think the craziness will be everywhere for me from now on. (I also reassure myself by telling myself that Reynolds or Degros also have it ahaha). Sorry for these personal confidences, but I love skateboarding so much, and feeling useless in your passion is horrible .. Yet I have a relatively good directory of tricks in flatground, I put almost all the rotations, but a little badly on some flip tricks..
I want to say that it's not a death either and that the importance is to ride and have fun without asking questions.. I know that my lack of confidence has surely blocked my progress.. In my early years skating, I was made fun of a lot about my style, I think I started off with a negative mentality and that must have played a part.. I have one last question for you, despite the madness, honestly, does the setup have an influence on our progress and on the tricks ?
Thank you in advance for your answers skater friends.. I didn't dare to talk about it, but I think that opening up to the world and discussing your resentment for your passion for skateboarding does not hurt..
Hey mate, we haven't heard back from you.
I hope you feel better today. 
I was just going to answer you because your messages have been very beneficial to me and have allowed me to reflect on all this.. I took a three-day break from skating, took a short break on instagram, and I I walked a lot in the forest to recharge myself mentally.
I was lucky to have my best skate friend come to my house this weekend, because we don't live in the same place anymore, knowing that I moved, and I was able to talk about it with him. He is one of the people who can ride any parameter, any size even if it's too small or too big.. And he told me one thing, which he kept repeating to me, but this time, in a detailed conversation and by genuinely expressing how I feel, he told me that I'm just asking myself too many questions and that I just have to skate, and maybe I've pay attention on the trucks, length, wheelbase, surely blocked my progress .. to tell myself that "Ah yes finally, maybe I should skate shorter in length because I have small legs, but also maybe I would have less balance, ah but maybe I also need such or such trucks so that it goes better etc etc .." INFERNAL SPIRAL ..
I then took the time to think when I was alone, and it is true that I had an illumination that made me say one thing: Before madness, I skated what I had without taking all this into account, and .. it worked and I skated well !
That's why I bought my next board, without looking at the size of the length and wheelbase, and hell, I just want to love having a board that I like at my width board size, that's all !
As for my self-confidence, which is sometimes negative, he also told me that I have to give a damn about it, no matter the position of my legs, no matter how I do my tricks, the important is to just skate and land your tricks well.. I would never be a pro, I don't see why putting so much pressure on myself in fact.. I know that I have a chance to skate again, and that I I never stopped, and, which makes me happy, many told me that I had a very good spirit and that I often motivated .. (Especially the kids).
Anyway, all that to say that it's a long way to get out of this fucking madness, but I'm wasting too much time on this..
Thank you for the advice that made me smile and relativized ..

I think back to a quote from Collin Provost about the term Stay Gold in an interview "Stay gold is remembering why you started skating, just being on your board and not giving a fuck, before the industry comes into the equation, that's it Stay gold" I'll just think of skating like first years..
I do not hope to fall back into this hell ..
But, do you agree with me that in the end, all these parameters may be blocking us in our progress and mentality ?
"Skate for fun"