i was just thinking about this when reading this "dream backyard skate spots" thread and became unstoked. skateboarding consumed my life from 13 to around 31. im talking every single day, every single thought. was never good enough to be sponsored but filmed local videos w some of the best while also being able to "keep up" whenever we went out skating. worked at a shop for most of my 20s. travelled the country visiting all the cool places and was semi connected to the industry through the shop job.
around 30 i went through a bad breakup and around 31 had some injuries where i couldnt skate. i havent really skated again in 4 years. i keep up. i think about it non stop. play the video games. but now im just like "i dunno if i will ever skate again". every few weeks i talk about buying a new setup and skating around some with friends and girlfriend but at this point its almost embarrassing or anxiety preventing me from doing it. i wont be able to progress past where i was. probably could still skate at the same level or close to it, but it almost doesnt seem fun anymore.
such a bummer feeling. i hope that i can have a day soon where it all clicks and im near the shop, have some spare money, buy a complete and get the bug again. but the friends i want to skate with are all older/barely have time to skate/moved away. im going to feel super awkward skating in front of anyone for a few months. blah.
thanks for letting me rant. getting old is weird. but im only 35 and i know i could probably squeeze in another decade of low impact/fun stuff if i could just find that spark. i cant be the only one, right?